sodap .

Nak this avatar ;) Rawwwwwwwwwwrrrrrrrr. I dont mind him in blue kalerr !

1 2 3 , chao .

Sometimes kan, aku rasa nak je tepok dahi org tu laju2. I mean come on babe, the thing is i tak kenal u so kira baik dah tu i actually replied your im's. So dont push it. The fact that i dont even know who the f im talking to, potential waste of time, your unfriendliness nye ways, childishness and semua ber ness/ish la kan. But u knw what, god bless darlin. may you find better "friends". So yes, i texted bods a couple of days back, hmm it was kinda awkward. yes i wanted info's and stuff la kan, but i mean shit wei. I got the whole cold shoulder treatment from you tetiba? Damn son, if u aint gonna be a tru friend, guess i'd rather have nothin with u bro. TERASA KOT. hmm. Lantak kau la , janji kau bahagia and doin good in life, god bless sangat2.

Next up, melepet bersama tunkus and tetessss. hhahha. Double T-rouble. Why? I made a stupid bimbo-ish stunt in the carpark masa nak park kereta kat pavillion. Ade la buggy ni comel tepi kete kan, i nak potong la konon, pastu naik bump kan, ok xpe lagi. Tang ternampak parking(which is not a parking lot) i swirved to the right ah, pastu nampak alamak bukan parking, second one pon kena majal lagi, so mane tak bengang, buggy tu pon potong i, i tak puas hati i pon nak memecut, but ade bump lalu enjin kereta hampir mati ye tuan tuan dan puan puan, lalu saya teruskan perjalanan dengan mengoverline kan diri(bangga and kurang malu sebab enjin tak mati) So i couldnt concentrate la kan melihat parking2 yang dusta itu, akhirnya sampai kat entrance mane ah, b2 kan, ade parking, lepas kena tipu baeeeek punya i ACTUALLY FOUND A FCUKIN PARKIN LOT YANG KOSONG, a PROPER PARKING SPOT. Sigh. Agak malu la kan, kena gelak dengan abang bangla/vietnam/myanmar/portugese/nigga buggy rider tu. Kurang ashammmm.

Yeneweis, I watched avatar kat pavillion semalam. SANGAT COOL. I wanna ride those damn irgan or toruk pe lanchau blabla thingy that flies. asyik naik kancil je, nak jugak naik those narung(naga+burung) thingys. :( nak nak nak !!! Next attraction in movies i wanna watch....jengjengjeng

• Clash of the titans
  
  
• Percy Jackson and the Olympians Movie: The Lighting Thief
   

• Wolfman

Okay, thats about it. Someone must teman me watch please, i dont wanna get dvd's sebab lama nak tunggu the clear one and another is because i want the sound effect la kot. Hehehee. So anyways, poslaju bodoh sebab ada satu parcel i kena collect kat gombak batu caves ke apa lanchaoooo tah kan, i dont go that area let alone to drive there? I mean, has the postman lost his mind ke aapaaaaaa! send la to the nearest one nearby my house ke apa. ADOI. Annoying nyew :( hish. But me parcel is in the zone. woohoo. suke suke suke! :)) Gaji tu, kena subsidize la i rasa kan. Untuk mengelakkan inflasi sifar. Chewah. No la, i went over budget de la how how how. MIA. Shit kan i am so screwed. Hopefully the salary boleh la cover rent+uitm fee payment+ other things. Phewh. Calculated my sales! Reached up to 610 la kot, hopefully dapat buat lebih dari apa yg patut ni, kan dah nak year end sale, maxis customers and other people yang teringin broadband and postpaid, apa tunggu. come get ur ass 2 the nearest maxis agent or center and register.

I need to reconsolate my self. Holidays please be extended. :'( takley bla.

xoxo, nak mandi and k.o ladies and genties. Nanites and love ya!

knocked us down.

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad.
A confused heart,
cant love for sure,
a confused love,
is something that we endure,
a confused girl,
who's stuck in a state of hate,
cant love a confused boy,
who's apology came too late......

I got a feelin . . . wooohoooo !

Today was a gooooood no, greaaaaat day. I LOVE LIFE. Freaky innit coming from dellany may? Hahaha period talking ke apa i dont know lah.  Happy at the moment. Super duper happy like bahagia tahap maximus. :D got me chingalings and cheque masuk next week kot. so since finally i can breathe. sebelum itu clear my bills, and then Handphone and Laptop. Antara dua impian mana satu tercapai? Hermm. Takpe. Uni fee's tak bayaw lagi. :( semua gone gitu je. bencis. cant wait for january to start again :D by then i'll still have some more! Weeeeeee. someone teman me go shopping for year end sales! :D gembira after all the hard work. Oh and thanks dad for the christmas bonus? Hahhaha. SHOCKING amount but yeah, still got kurang after pay this and that right. SIGH. Oh well. Anyway, haaa ni nak cerita ni, okay i stumbled upon this dude at the counter today rude nak mati, i mean go to hell la kot. I dont give a fuck about your money. DAH LAH KAU NYE BILL MELAMBUNG, BELAGAK LEBIH CAM MR KNOW IT ALL. Im facing the screen with your details dude, so please. Kalau kampung, kau tetap kampung. Credit card decline? Padan muka sangat. Fuck CC. hahhaah.

I am so happy i could sleep till i get wrinkles on my cheeks and lips for smiling so happily today. Everything went well and orang cakap kalau happy gile nanti sure sedih gile? Well, life is a rollercoaster so i just gotta ride it anyways kan? Syg oh sayang, rindu you both so much ar. I know ya'll havin fun there for xmas. Hurmm wish i was there to well... join and have a blast :( sigh. Ni tak best neh. Hmmmmmmmm. Anyway, NEXT YEAR nak gi bali. Jom anyone? :D Amek pictures! Or that moon festival in thailand? bangkok ke apa ke. I wanna travel la. Hhehehehe. If i have a credit card, i'll die of debt. Why? TRAVELLING & SHOPPING. Ini la sebab, kena kerja keras and earn loads of cash. Get rich or die trying kan? Hehehe.50 cent nye words yo. Wawasan 2020, satu pandangan jaoooo~ hahaha bukan impian malah kenyataan, bersama kita jayakan! wooohooo. I sound so high, but im in a good mood. :D I LOVE WEDNESDAY! ahhaha. Before i sound like a psycho, i shall berambus first. Muahmuahmuah! Lotsa love from this woman, cheers!

say wut ?

Kan dah kena padan muka, the flag is red people. i feel like red sonja. chewahh. wakwak la today. the customer yang datang maki my boss haritu came back, this time dia yang pusposely cari pasal. LIKE HELLO. WTF MAN. GET A GRIP AND GET A LIFE, stop being so racist la, you look like chinese yourself. I tak faham kenapa orang kena jadi racist tak pasal2 i mean like its not nice u know dissin other people's race and religion and beliefs. Sangat jahat. God didnt tell us to do those things, so if u wanna diss other people's race/religion blablabla, look yourself in the mirror and you my friend will represent your bloody race. Sedar la diri wahai asshole. Ish.

So anyway, *blushes kejap* the serj tankian lookalike came again, and again today :) arabians have this distinctive look, so its just. Sexy? Hahha. And french, the way they talk can probably turn me on. Hehehhehe. ULTIMATE SEXYness. No wonder la guys like french maid bluefilm. Hahahha. I might not have better things to do while im at work, but yeah i sumpah rasa macam lifeless, Apart from promoting broadband and postpaid plans, I remember every single customer that walked in the first day i started work there. freaky la kan, but there's this dude kan, dia cam french old man. Really nice and patient. Sumpah aku respect dia okay, and he's so nice that he was being serious and detailed and all but such a gentlemen with full of manners and gratitude. Saludos! Dia ingat i and he still keeps the paper i jott down with my number on it. Wow. Good one sir! Ohh nothing can close the deal for tonight after a hot shower, stretches and to complete my day a good hot cream of mushroom soup with em french baguettes. Nyum. Not bad mercato. I like yo sheeeeeeet. I feel so french-ed now. hehehe.

*YAWNYAWN* christmas songs are killing me. Sumpah annoying jugak, sebulan lebih aku mendengar lagu sama nak muntah dah. Urgh. Oh yes, cha nanti we check out roots lah. See whats up, heard its like hip and nice. Very oldschool, like old days dulu. heheh. WOI GAJI CEPAT SIKIT FILL THE 0.00 in my BANK. PLEASE. Kimeks maxshit ni. Argh. BENCI BENCI. Mushroom soup making me feel like mushroom already. I am sleepy and exhausted. Mom can you please shut your mouth for once, i am having a bad headache and im tired. Dah la tak masak untuk i. Pastu nak bebel asal i tak masak, hello. Self service la. I came back late, so faham2 la. Gosh. IM NOT YOUR MAID. !@#!@$!#$#@ nasib baik kau mak aku. I got 2 big zits on the cheeks, near the sideburn. aku ade sideburns ke? ahahha. anyway and 3 on my forehead. One under my lip, one on me nose. This is why i 'love' period so much. Mata cenkung. Muka pucat.

Ini malam tido my room, sampai bile2 i nk tdo my room. sebelum itu, i read this thingy a friend of mine suggested, jap. I kasi link http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/Malaysia so read it. Hahahhaha. Lawak la but ade unsur ouch ouch so those cepat emosi, dont bother clicking the link. And rupert, i owe u dinner so later la after pay. soon. next year ke. ahahhahaha. ok la, if not mcd kfc ke apa ke. chilis o tgif. Btw, why am i suppose to belanja u again???? On what grounds? Hmmm. Pelik2. I tak buat agreement. hahaaha. nasty creepy old man u rupert. bully small girls. aahahhaha. cabot usus dengan spanar kang.

Oh and nizar happy birthday, texted you but you didnt rply so takpe la. Janji i msg. Whatever lah. God bless you and Goodnight ladildos and gentelor's.

this is dream/drool material .

kalau dah ludah, nak jilat balik ke ?

Today i texted you out of nowhere. I know its been a while, but do u have to be such a dick ? Ofcourse lah its me!? Terang tang tang number aku appear kat phone kau. Ah apape la u. If you couldn't be bothered losing a friend like me, you know what im capable of doing on this so called 'friendship' of ours. HOPELESS. And satu lagi, kau boleh pulak tipu aku depan2 kan. Ade jugak telo kau nak tipu aku. Damn son, you already got on the wrong side of me. I regret everything i had with you (jangaN fikir bukan2 ye). I really thought you changed. But looks like lady luck wasnt on my side. But we'll see what happens. I really love and believe in karma. To the all the mofo's, fuck off and fuck you. URGH. some people need to understand WHEN TO DISAPPEAR AND WHEN TO APPEAR LAH. Why do i always miss these motherfuckers ar. Despite the bad days, there are a few sweet ones too. I cant thank them enough for being there for me at times of despair and blablabla kesedihan kepiluan kegilaan kebosanan dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Hmm what describes this feeling? I dont know, and at the mo' i dont wanna know. I mean enough is enough. I clearly told you not to text me kan, so just dont. I'll text you people someday. If i ever do la. I think i tolerate too much, aways giving in and its eating me alive emotionally and mentally. Mentally challenged. ahhaha Cam retard lak. Oh well, biarkan ia berlalu and fuck you :) Ive made many mistakes, but the biggest was prolly you.

Just registered my subjects thanks to wawa, love u sayang. I owe you big apple. ahaha. seketul ke dua okay. Sekotak, amboi amboi asamboi! I wanna eat jco, :( please! Lama tak makan my favvyyy j crown! Argh. So menunggu period macam tunggu boyfriend datang jugak kan. Lambat, kekadang cepat but make us tingle in the tummy of excitement and nervousness. So tu la perasan pepek aku sekarang ni. Its not bleeding love yet, false alarm. Today work went well, lots of friendly customers and well i guess service with a smile kan :D i love smiling but my boss said senyum all the time increases wrinkles. Hmm wrinkle ke tak wrinkle, takpe! Janji muke senyum, orang happy kita pon happy. Ada betol ? Yes yes.

Kejadian seterusnya, haa damn p/o kot. My pay aint in, dad couldnt bank in. He's outstation and shittos morelos. Mana aku ade bsn ke apapa bank lain. Public and hongleong? HEH? Mende. No no. I setia to my bank. Maybank. hahaha. And for some reason i got bank islam, blame uitm la. Daddy whatever it is, i want my money please!!!?!! Weird that there's no maybank. Oh rimau kuning, sine kau? kenak kitak sik ada! kenja mat! So anyway, shall i apply for loan? I dont wanna commit to any loans at the moment. Nanti keje bayar hutang edu. je :( If i decide to get a car plak. Haaa. tak ke bertambah? Gilo lar. Chillax dulu. Hehehe. Next, whats next... Umm oh yes, clubbing last week went absolutely fine. I think i blogged that. Lotsa creepy motherfuckers as usual. Loser la korang. Kote keras, go fuck a whore la. Were not even an inch close in being a ho' so let yo dreams of a one night stand ride away to mexico mofo. hahha i can rap dow. I know i can. Hahahhahahah. WRAP LAGI AR. Okay mengarut. Stop.

Sempat borak with the bumbum tadi, he singgah home to EAT and do some LAUNDRY. cube teka sape sap sap sui lenglui yang wash and clean? Adik kesayangan dia yang tak disayangi sangat ah. Cipet je. But takpe bole borak tomoy dengan die. Hahhaa. I just watched wanted, bloody nice and intersting. The roots ke the veins ke apa cerita tu, pasal pokok manifest their body some virus shit. Nice jugak. Blades of glory lawak. Umm, what else. Damn tonight marathon but penat la. Esok bangun awal, park luar. Saving sikit since now amanah saham i tak di amanah kan sahamnya dari bapa. Oh daddy please be my santa for xmas. Kasi la anak kau ni duit lebih2 because gaji aku tak masuk lagi dad!!!!! ARGH frusttt. Okay, phone+laptop+perfume. Done. My things to buy. Oh and a guitar. Weekends nanti guitar & mandarin lessons from my cousin and his wife. Style la. :D okay la babes. I wanna change and get ready to go to bed. I wish for a miracle pls. Sigh.

this is my mcdreamy ;) rawrr

Hahahha. Goodnight Malaysia. Muahs!

damn.

suey suey suey suey!! GERAM. Okay first of all i had fun with the girls at mos, three's a company baby. Despite the fact being grabbed, molested while dancing, i enjoyed it. Too bad our other friend couldnt make it. oh well, next time i suppose. Soberly dancing, hmmm it was alright actually! :D best juga sebenarnye. Both ways la mabuk ke tak mabuk ke, last2 penat sampai kaki rasa cam jello's. After i left the club, telingaku masih berdesing. This is why i hate clubbing. Pekak je rasa telingo eden neh. So yeah, you called me secare rawak and then expect me to appear in front of your place? Nehiii. But you came to my place semalam and okay, it was awkward la jugak seeing you and talking meaningless things kan. Bau kereta u melekat at my baju siot. klorox ah. Hahahah. No matter what we'll always stay as friends, but honestly speaking i dnt know till when la kalau were always like this. I kesian u kadang2 kena maki but sape suruh u tick me off!! No hard feelings okay yang. :) forgive and forget la kot. Was nice of u to drop by with a ribena ah kan, next time dont make me wait so long! Sejuk nak matiii kot i tunggu kat my housee!!!Hahaha. you'll always be my perfect nightmare ;) But semalam sambil tunggu u i saw this DUDE i saw back at that Thai base shop !! I LIKE I LIKEEEEE!!!! Tall, fair and sedap-sedap. Meowwwww ;) We live in the same place siot. And i thought i was never gonna see you again. :D well lucky me!

WORK WORK WORK. bosan and penat. Dah la gaji tak masuk lagi. phundecks! geram gills! Wargh ok lah i nak mandi and zoom off to work. chopchop. muahmuah.

** somehow i do miss you but yeah, ego had me at those words. Im sorry.

9.18 today 161209

1 2 3 not only you and me ~ ahhahaha britney ni buat aku gersang pagi2 dengan lagu ini. I wanna dance coz i feel like a sexy bitch at the mo. This morning seems so calm and relaxed. I like although weather dia tak berapa best. Na mandi and tapau lunch. xx. Much love. Last night's dream made me have muscle ache siot. mimpi yang sempurna katakan ;) thats how life was suppose to be. But gila dejavu right. cuma terbalik. hahaha. ini smua pasal i terbangun at 4am plusplus. you enter my mind like coco crunch. benci tapi suka. hahahahaha. ok lah na get reaaaaaaady~! :( malas nye nak berdikari as in to drive myself to work blablabla. Nak someone send me pls. WHERES MY BROTHER LAH. GERAM KOTTTTTT. T.T tak gune! penat la kaki aku merempuh traffic and bored because i got no one to talkk to in the car. hahahahha. psycho lak bunyi kan, i mean ye ah ian ngan i kan cam masuk air jugak. huhu.

say hey " i love you " - michael franti ( for all those who are in love ) Happy beat untuk i mandi. cheers folks!

muahmuahmuahmuah...muah? hhehe. *hugggggieeeessssss*

fools.

Pick ups that leads to a smack on you face or a kick in the sack, gentlemen.

And, ladies, you’ve heard some real doozies! Aren't guys lame nowadays.. Ni la lines yang seringkali digunakan..

1. “Is your boyfriend sitting here?” (He sits down.) “Now he is.”
2. “Hey, I bet nobody’s ever picked you up like this before.” (Tosses condom onto table.)
3. (Instant message on a dating site.) “I’d like to participate in nude wrestling with you, followed by a happy ending.”
4. “A guy friend asked me, ‘So are you single now?’ and when I told him yes, his response was, ‘Good, want to bone?’”
5. “Can I have your phone number? I’m going into the hospital for a few weeks, and I’d really like someone to talk to.”
6. “Hey, baby, wanna ride my escalator?”
7. “If I were a squirrel and you were a squirrel, would you let me bust a nut in your hole?”
8. “Can I push your stool in?”
9. “Can I wear your thighs for ear muffs?”
10. “So, girls with big lips are usually pretty good at something … Are you?”
11. “Guy: ‘Do you have any Italian in you?’ Me: ‘Nooo.’ Guy: ‘Want some?’”
12. “The doctor said my mono has finally cleared up. Want to make out?”
13. “You look like a smurf, a hot smurf.”
14. “Hey, I hear your ankles are having a party. You want to invite your pants down?”
15. “If you jingle my bells, I’ll promise you a white Christmas.”
16. “Oh, so you’re American? I would never have guessed. You’re quite the cunning linguist.”
17. “Save water. Shower with me.”
18. “My hands are freezing cold! Can I warm them on your breasts?”
19. “Hey, hey, did it hurt? Huh? Well, did it hurt? When you fell from heaven?”
20. “I have an 11-inch penis.”

cer 2.04am 15/12/09

yay ! maxis system is up once again! i feel like a zombie, 2 weeks straight with no break. I need a break. Ooh uni start balik 4th ni. But as usual, i kan fashionably late, so we'll see. Taking mandarin + public speaking as my subject2 elektif and squash as my sport subject. Next sem flash and all. Why la dei why. I dont know why, this morning i started off quite feeling all emo and sedih. Bukan ada apapa ke sesiapa made me upset, i dont know why. No people, im not crazy. And no i dont live in denial when i say im not crazy. Facts. So anyway, the ala-ala serj guy came to the shop today. Damn he's so sexy. I can picture him totally x rated. HAHAHAHAHA. Seriouslaaaa, i cannot help it okay, he macam made my day kot harini. SIGH.

Next up, i know ive been all senyap. Bukan sebab no credit, battery low or what so ever. I just couldnt bring myself to reply or answer any of ur calls or sms's. I think the whole tawar hati thing kicked in, but this? TOO soon. Bukan apa, i cannot accept your reasons la tau tak. Scared? Of what? Tak munasabah. I dont wanna know and i couldnt be bothered. Just so u know, i aint mad at'cha. Im doin just fine. Maybe this is it? I dont know. Like i said, i dont wanna know, i dont care. As for now, im just goin with the flow yow~

Esok kena bgn awal, gi keje. oh ian why dont u send me!!!!! MALAS NAK BAYAR PARKING AND DRIVE TO WORK TAU TAK! ngokkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Urgh. Tomorrow might be in ac, or sa. Either or, mau jumpa neighbour kalian. rinduuu la kan. ac nak beli dvd n makan je. ahahahahahha. woosh. Bosan but ngantuksss. ok ok i shall sleep first before i mamai lebihan. love u. muahmuahmuuuuuuaaaaaahhaahahamuah!

love,
love.

<33

:) idola

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zgvMzRmEwk   <<----- BEST !


"I Love, You Love"

[Verse 1]
(Oh) Hush my baby, Don't you cry.
I'll dry your eyes. Fulfill your heart's desire.
Let's go in. Try again.
Careful this time. Broken promises linger in our mind.

I'll give in completely. Hearts break so easy.
I know. Believe me. Oh, I've tried.
But my arms can hold you. My kiss console you.
I'll come and love you tonight.

[Chorus]
And I...
I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.

You...
You love, you love, you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.

[Verse 2]
Come and share my house, my home, and all I own.
I'd love to give to you.
Aren't you tired of going along this lonely road?
It takes its toll on you.

Give me your emotion, your heart's devotion.
Give anything you like.
And I'll give understanding. Life's so demanding.
I'm all you need to get by.

[Chorus]
And I...
I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.

And You...
You love, you love, you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.

I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.

And You...
You love you love you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.

Still return
Still return to love (Oh)
Keep coming back to love (Ah oh)

sunday madness.

Some shit on my mind today, figured I better get it off my chest so I can think clearer. I dont know la kan, i terasa ke apa ke "why so random" ? OUCH. Its like you dont wanna be friends at all dah ke apa ke kan. I mean what the hell. Okay fine. If you dont want to i understand kan why, but dude i tak salah pun kena sekali ke? Abit what the fuck right!! urgh. You ni dissociative identity disorder betol. ISH. lantak kau la kan, aku tau kalau kau nak cari a friend later, u know where to find me. If my hati tak tawar lagi, i'd still consider your hello. OUCH TAHAP DEWI.

so anyway, How do i explain this eh. Bad romance ? Hmm not the right song la but i like the word. Lol. You see, its not that i dont want/desire you or anything, dont get me wrong. I do like the fact that you were being really kind and caring towards me. But those things are not enough, yes were dont see each other much ke apa kan, but still it doesnt stop us from contacting one another. First of all, you never make an effort before. lagi2 now, i mean if you were like a gentlemen, you'd know how to treat a girl. By far, this is the worst. WORDS ARE NOT ENOGH LA MY DEAR, SERIOUSLY TAK. I was the one who terhegeh2 kat u. So now, its all coming to an end. Ive always chased after the one's i like then i fall in love. But then? I dont know what im feeling now. To be honest, i barely feel a thing. It faded somewhere somehow. Gosh, YOU tell me. I dont know la. You sure fikir "senangnya dia buat macamtu" but dude, i mean if you knew how to treat a lady, things wont have ended up this way. And if you're not in the position to make me feel special once again, by all means just dont. We'll go our separate ways. Deal? I dont know if you read my blog or you dont. But i think you do. Ah whatever la kan, eventually i'll tell you to read it. So im done telling my part. Anything you wanna say? You know how to reach me. Sumpah i fed up, i dont know why out of all the days, today sumpah rasa macam " ermm, err, hmm, ish, tsktsktsk ". Hari ini i isytiharkan hari mengeluh although it ant good to do so, but lantak pi ah. love = battlefield, except that i dont know what were fighting for if there's no love left? Im sorry if i hurt you but this is exactly how i feel and i know you know its just that you dont wanna utter the word yet ke or ur ego tinggi gedabak ke. Okay, fine. Its your call. most of the friends i know today are "friends with benefits" only. me and you? Seriously NOT APPLICABLE.

Ooooooh, i saw a cute latino semalam, he's still a young lad la kan, budak2 lagi tu. HAHAHAHA. pedo? No im not. Just love the way he speaks and he's so tanned. Sexy sial. So yes, i got work later at 12pm. Ian promised to pick me up early. i woke up early la. cibai aku tak dapat tido lama2 sebab dia. DAH la sampai 9. Wei two friggin weeks i had no cuti on my working hours, :( nak keluar! Owh okay, and rugbybaby, you and i are meant to be history, Im sorry but many disagree on us. Plus i think you and i arent meant to be, let the past be the past. Dont relive it. Its never gonna happen again, so stop hoping. I know you're just in for fun and its kinda funny everytime you try to be sweet to me, i end up seeing you being silly. Love is just not in for us anymore. Bestfriend boleh la, thats what we were before la kan. Cuma taking chances. Hehe. :) it was a pleasure meeting you and knowing an idiot yang sangat comel but annoying kekadang. I wish you well in life tho. :) you can do it la darls. I believe in you, but u gotta take baby steps! Dont repeat the same mistakes you made before. Friends with benefits, i still WONT CONSIDER LAGI2 WITH YOU, coolios? :)

okay, i nak beli phone & lappy. Which? I asked dad to find me one, i mean a lapop la. Kalau phone memang tak ah kan. SO nak pow susah. I'll buy the phone. BB curve 8520, BB Bold 2 or e71/72/75, or 5800 EM or n97? last resort tu memang i beli n97 la but im thinking something more practical and loud. Touch screen???? DRIVING? tak best. Cannot concentrate tekan ape nanti, heheheh. I PHONE NI BANYAK PRO'S and CON's. But i think its a good technology for push emails,lagi2 those business related apps kan, but for entertainment purposes, nope. Shit phone. Hehe. dah la mahal gyla now, package and outright. Samsung omnia n n97 almost serupa la tapi lain mak bapak katakan. Support nokia la. Hahahahhahahaha. Ohhh tak sabar nak dapat gaji, shop a little then phone! if not, next year's la. january. Mandarin ke french? DILEMMA. HELP PEOPLE HELP. If susah how :( mandarin got their characters la kan. Ngo em chi tou. Sigh.

Okay lah love, i gotta bounce dulu. Anything if ya'll mahu melepets, call me celly. Mite change me number soon, but tengah cari number best :D nak register for postpaid la kot. Leceh menopup. Okay, muahmuah and take care. I mau siap2 to work and oh yes, results are out, nothing la i fail kan, bagoos. SO LEGA! Okay lah, banyak lagi nak cakap but tu la, not rajin enough at the mo'. Laters chenta ~

50 Things Girls Want Guys To Know... [ True or False ? You be the judge ]

January 26, 2006

Posted by The Agency

1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.

2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.
6.I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)
17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm: a). having a fat day. b). not feeling "connected" to you. c). blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I want to be Madonna.
31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
44. I like porn.
45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.
46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember everything about our relationship.
50. You should know all this and more with-out me telling you.

pagi saturday ohoy !

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye.

You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong.

The heart tells no lies.

Here it goes.

How are friendships created;
What bonds their souls to each?
Is it sharing their deepest secrets
Or the love spoken in their speech?
How are friendships kept
Through the strain that they may face?
Is it by saying, I love you?... sometimes,
Or occasionally touching base?

How are friendships lost
When there seemed no end in sight?
By ignoring their pain and anguish,
And not sharing in their delight.
So, I pledge to you, my friend,
I'll never walk away;
I'll share the good and bad,
And beside you... I'll always stay.

And when life isnt worth it,
When the tears roll down your cheek
Just close your eyes and listen
And from a distance... youll hear me speak.
Though my words at times seem pointless,
When no answers I seem to impart
Dont listen the way you have in the past
But listen with your heart.

For the important things in life
Are invisible to your eyes;
Youll hear them in your heart
For your heart will tell no lies.
So, though I may be far away,
Too far for you to reach,
Remember Im there forever
For Ive told you in my speech.

Yet, distance never mattered
For distance will only depend
On the depth of the love I have...
And I love you dearly, my friend.
So when clouds are at their darkest
And no lining do you see
You have a friend, so close,
And that friend - my friend - is me.

perasaan.

In the beginning it sounded so perfect,
The first night we were together
It seemed so worth it.

Each day, the harder I tried,
Each day, it seemed you had more to hide.
There is nothing more I can offer you,
It seems you can't be satisfied.

I only asked for your truth
Yet, each day I was only denied.
The smallest of happiness I needed to get by,
Just to survive...

"Why," must you take for granted all of my emotions?
"Why," didn't I leave you, on the smallest of a notion?
Now I must realize, it's time to walk away,
I'm sorry... there's nothing left to say.

toots.

benci. period nak datang la ni. aku tak makan dinner lagi. fuck. its already 2am. nak makan prosperity pls. :( urgh. Geram. Umm. Nak nak nak nakkkk!!! I just wanna effing eat because im fucking hungry & i cannot sleep. perut ku bergelora because byk sgt water and no FOOD. Pfft. Why aaaa whyyy!! Ooh yes, stop tellin me you miss me and shits. You are the exact explaination of the word moron. I mean hello, wtf right. Its like what...... I came to see you the other day thinking you were like in need of morale support. and what happened? I ended up waiting at a.c for ages. You didnt show up. Pathetic. Seriously pathetic. Dusta ow. Anyway, forgiven coz i was with iqa. NASIBB BAIK DIA IKUT I GI SANA! Kalau tak, cam palat kot i rasa. F U. :) ok lah i nak gi hunting makanan. Siapa nak gi maple? Jom? :( MCD???????? Urgh. Hungryyy. Perut kosong, hati kosong, otak kosong. semua kosong. I am ms.kosongngong ;) nanites everybody. Muahmuah bby~

ceritaceriteru.

haih so banyak to update la kn. so gini ceritanya. I am like half way bersemangat ni although half way je kan, bt i still opt to go alllll the wayyyyy today at work, kena pootslap dengan my boss ah kan. cis, i sumpah i thought close at 10 ok today. So takpe, i dah la pakai heels. haaa jalan la gi rumah fia then i thought someone was walking laju2 chasing me from behind, rupenye bayang2 aku ok. hampeh la ni! ni na marah ni. hahah no that was just a part of my stupidity. lepas tu baru pakai glasses, then i can see clearlyyy nowww the rain is gone~ ahhaha.

So yes, my workplace, all sorts of people, short black whte fat tall thin you name it lah. But most of all HOTNESS. sumpah hot kot. but then again, now hot means nothing anymore lah kan, not because i dont find those hot people are like hot hot la kan but like ntah, jemu kot. Hehhe. Bole plak. sigh. So there's this particular customer who walks in almost like.. 2 or 3 times a week, i suka gila tengok features dia. Macam serj tankian. He's my mcdreamy and i like it. Hehehe. Mc steamy pon buleyyy~. Seeeeeriously okay, i mean jarang gila i get the man of my dreams, some of it ada la, but only a gist of it, otherwise; jerks & si-fat-loong. HAHAHA. yes cantonese is the new music to my ears now. Ofcourse im learning all the bad words. Iran as well. Dontcha just love malaysia? :D ONE MALAYSIA !!

Lets see, friends getting married, having babies. Is it me or am i just not getting the bigger picture on love anymore? Yikes. Bukan taknak, but takda yang match my criteria. Finding one, sambil letting you find me. I know you're there. But is it you that im gonna be happy with at the end of the day? I dont want you to be all "shit i waited so long and this is it ????". I dont think its necessary. But it all depends on what, why, who and when. there's nothing in life that is worth fighting for. Berani ke? Ive been on that path before. Path to destruction la kot. HAMPEH. But i let myself go that time, time to get myself back together. ahhaha. Putting the pieces back together la kan and now, its almost done. thank god. Not easy okay! almost a year dah ni. stylus la coolios~

persimmon is whaaaat i tgh makan now. Mom has a friend over, so i cannot kacau her. ian busy reading motor trader yang tengah baca dia skarang neh. Andy and lin? No idea. apai? busy fcuking his slut kot. :) Tonight, its a goodddd night because i memang tidur lammmmbat. semua dah terpleott. bile la nak dapat lappy baru neh :( waaaa. Owh ok so i am contemplating on either the e series or n series ni. Nokia sahaja, thanks. Hahaha. So which one! Taknak bb! Urgh. Nak lenovo pls? PLEASE? Hhehe. Okay lah, i banyak lagi nak update ni but shit ah, penat la. Ngantok :D gooooodnight la bayyybehs~! mushmush chenta! <33

02/12/2009

I'd sit all day, thinking about you. But you know what, Im done thinking or even daydreaming about you. Buat sakit jiwa je right ? Sheeeeeesh. Dah la aku nak tido. Esok keje. Pfft. Lots to update. MALAS. Goodnight.