Well hello . im feeling rather lost at the moment. TOUCHE ! First of, who the hell doesnt know what hiatus means. ITS ENGLISH. Maybe latin translated or something but yeah, for fucks sake, are you seriously that dumb? Aduh and yet you call yourself a businessman. Choy. You need some serious deep deeeeeeep reading my dear friend, and perhaps a dictionary. Since you have a smartphone(s) install those dictionary apps on your damn phone because it will come handy someday when you wanna know some english words. Study jauh-jauh but tsk tsk so bangang. SAD. Membazir parents you punya duit saja hantar jauh-jauh bagus saja biayai pembelajaran aku. Hahahah so skema.
Oh well, moving on. I didnt literally did it for attention. Part of it yes, but most of it no. It was more like to see how much youd trust me and whether you really give a rats ass about whats going on. So much for the green light. That doesnt pass of as stealing because i gave it back! :/ maybe you see me as some sorta psycho tamak person, but sigh if you think that way then apapa saja lah yang buat mu bahagia. AS of for now, i wont do that again dah. What was i even thinking you meant what you said. My bad lah then. FIN.
Assessments after assesments and assignments after assignments, people always said that uni life is the best part in life but yeah i agree to that tho. Its always like that. I loved highschool years before except the drama's ofcourse. It was so hassle free and you pretty much dont need to worry about anything except for studying. I should have been more studious instead of wasting my youth macam tu saja. Menyesal much ? Sangat. Nevermind,whats done is done, we make mistakes so suck it up honey, life's bittersweet moment is just about to add on soon. Whats up with you guys from school ? Been ages since ive last saw any of you. I hope everyone i know is doing good and godbless yawwwl.
If ive hurt you in anyway or made you felt betrayed, im sorry. Wasnt my intention anyway, if you dont forgive me and decide to not be cool about it. Hey, im cool about. Your life. You decide. I shouldnt be ranting this guilt or insecurity i have but hey its a blog, and im pretty sure people who reads it are like " is that me? who she talking about ". Naa, i dont put names unless i really want you to be a superstar for a few glorious moments. Little do i know, this feelings i have inside, the thought of missing you is like WOAH and im stronger than this right? Or maybe i thought i was, BUT I KNOW I CAN BE STRONGER THAN THIS BECAUSE IVE BEEN THROUGH WORST AND THIS IS JUST A MINOR PEEKABOO. Youre so far away, can it ever work even if we wanted it to? Are you willing to make room for a future for us? -_-" for some reasons i have a big fat doubt telling me no *slaps myself back to reality* Haihh okay lah. I think im gonna stop for now. Enough procrastinating already, sketches to be done tak cam banyak pula. Bye bloggers and bloggerina's. Muah.
27 October 2011
23 October 2011
Day 28.
Well well well, today i have a sakit perut yang woah omg nya line and yea i was in the hospital a few weeks back doctor said i had some blood infection and some really bad case of food poisoning or something like that. But i dont think so bah :( my brother and mom okay je makan :| or is it just me that had that food poisoning and shyte!? Danng ma niggurhhs. horror mak cakap u, horror. I dont think it was it, must have been something wrong with my system that it refuses to accept the makanan dalam my very own system. :( not nice la like that.
Haa, dont you just hate it when someone misunderstood your niat and all when you really meant another thing? Yeah i know and i get it almost all the time, maybe its due to my lack of expression or something i dont know. Or is it because im too blur at times whereby i dont even know what im talking about when im texting? Sheesh, talk about drunk texting and dialing; sleep texting and dialing? Perhaps the new trend for me. Sigh bukan itu maksud aku tu ha, i meant it in a goooood way, just cause you see it all in text thats why. Well i guess sorry doesnt change the fact now does it? Pfft. Oh well i wonder if some people know whats exactly going on when i write a post but just so you know my world doesnt revolve around you. Purpose of this blog was to rant out my feelings on how i felt, the readers who literally reads this wont actually get a name or a clue of what im trying to say and i bet you analyze and like "is she talking about me or...." hahaha EPIC la i can imagine your faces. No no kalau i was talking about you, you can google your name and if youre lucky, it might just pop up. No hiding secrets in here, because afterall i dont think anyone reads.
Moving on, so this is my final year, whats gonna happen i wonder.. Will i grad with flying colours? kinda demotivated at the moment with my mom being all not so supportive on things i do and ideas i opt out to her and shes all like "no may, this is like this...that one no can do, blablabla ask your dad, im not paying for it". Dude if i was working with my own salary i wouldnt have asked a single penny and let alone make your life miserable in any way. Wait till i get my own job and maybe change the car since baby k is not doing so well lately. Sorry beebee ha, i have to let you go sooner or later because i wanna ride far and go the distance tingkatkan prestasi bersama shell. KIDDING. I love baby k its just that susah ah nak kehulu kehilir. Its not feeling well cannot travel far far :(
Back to my final year, im soo fucking blur at the moment and its like what the fuck was i even thinking when i literally switched my laptop on and stare blankly for like...half an hour? DUDE seriously terasa bangang seketika. Work load is so so but come on, its like 3 more months...you can do it right dell ? Ive lost my spirit and willpower and i better get it back on track or else i wont be seeing that VC this time around and welcome my stay in uitm sucks alam. People look down on graduates from Uitm, WHY? Well, i know its not the best uni anymore because of the standards that has gone way below the line but we can make it a better place ONLY if we employ more good and nurturing lecturers. There are very few of that kind. Maybe the generations today is making those lecturer feel like there is no need or a necessity to perk or spike or put some sparkle in the way they teach sudah sebab kita ni majority student macam lalek sik lalek? apooh, nda ulih bakanya. Well im not a big fan of my university but people just have this mindset of " hey where do u study?" and; "uitm"..their reply would be "oh.................................". Sheesh, atleast were pursuing our knowledge and credibility there before we step in the working zone. Plus hey, it saves alot compared to a private U. Total for education i reckon ive spent less than 10k. Inclusive of makan minum tol rent books gadgets and all. See? MIRACLES do happen.
Lama gila tak mencarut in here and i think ive lost my spark already in writing :( my language proficiency has gone down the drain with part of my knowledge being dissolved. Now its like ideas thru a pen. Before was, solution and equations and all. But this time around its different. What kinda hell have i got myself into. MATI na camtok? Breathe dell, its all gonna be over soon just push yourself off limits even if it kills you bare in mind : 3 months to go and then BOOM youre ____________ <---- that close to sniffing the word freedom. Lepas tu work lah right.
Pergh i think its more than 28 days la this post because i save and write n save and write. HAHAHAH. LAPUK. Anyway this is the latest updated scene. Love ya! <3
Haa, dont you just hate it when someone misunderstood your niat and all when you really meant another thing? Yeah i know and i get it almost all the time, maybe its due to my lack of expression or something i dont know. Or is it because im too blur at times whereby i dont even know what im talking about when im texting? Sheesh, talk about drunk texting and dialing; sleep texting and dialing? Perhaps the new trend for me. Sigh bukan itu maksud aku tu ha, i meant it in a goooood way, just cause you see it all in text thats why. Well i guess sorry doesnt change the fact now does it? Pfft. Oh well i wonder if some people know whats exactly going on when i write a post but just so you know my world doesnt revolve around you. Purpose of this blog was to rant out my feelings on how i felt, the readers who literally reads this wont actually get a name or a clue of what im trying to say and i bet you analyze and like "is she talking about me or...." hahaha EPIC la i can imagine your faces. No no kalau i was talking about you, you can google your name and if youre lucky, it might just pop up. No hiding secrets in here, because afterall i dont think anyone reads.
Moving on, so this is my final year, whats gonna happen i wonder.. Will i grad with flying colours? kinda demotivated at the moment with my mom being all not so supportive on things i do and ideas i opt out to her and shes all like "no may, this is like this...that one no can do, blablabla ask your dad, im not paying for it". Dude if i was working with my own salary i wouldnt have asked a single penny and let alone make your life miserable in any way. Wait till i get my own job and maybe change the car since baby k is not doing so well lately. Sorry beebee ha, i have to let you go sooner or later because i wanna ride far and go the distance tingkatkan prestasi bersama shell. KIDDING. I love baby k its just that susah ah nak kehulu kehilir. Its not feeling well cannot travel far far :(
Back to my final year, im soo fucking blur at the moment and its like what the fuck was i even thinking when i literally switched my laptop on and stare blankly for like...half an hour? DUDE seriously terasa bangang seketika. Work load is so so but come on, its like 3 more months...you can do it right dell ? Ive lost my spirit and willpower and i better get it back on track or else i wont be seeing that VC this time around and welcome my stay in uitm sucks alam. People look down on graduates from Uitm, WHY? Well, i know its not the best uni anymore because of the standards that has gone way below the line but we can make it a better place ONLY if we employ more good and nurturing lecturers. There are very few of that kind. Maybe the generations today is making those lecturer feel like there is no need or a necessity to perk or spike or put some sparkle in the way they teach sudah sebab kita ni majority student macam lalek sik lalek? apooh, nda ulih bakanya. Well im not a big fan of my university but people just have this mindset of " hey where do u study?" and; "uitm"..their reply would be "oh.................................". Sheesh, atleast were pursuing our knowledge and credibility there before we step in the working zone. Plus hey, it saves alot compared to a private U. Total for education i reckon ive spent less than 10k. Inclusive of makan minum tol rent books gadgets and all. See? MIRACLES do happen.
Lama gila tak mencarut in here and i think ive lost my spark already in writing :( my language proficiency has gone down the drain with part of my knowledge being dissolved. Now its like ideas thru a pen. Before was, solution and equations and all. But this time around its different. What kinda hell have i got myself into. MATI na camtok? Breathe dell, its all gonna be over soon just push yourself off limits even if it kills you bare in mind : 3 months to go and then BOOM youre ____________ <---- that close to sniffing the word freedom. Lepas tu work lah right.
Pergh i think its more than 28 days la this post because i save and write n save and write. HAHAHAH. LAPUK. Anyway this is the latest updated scene. Love ya! <3