09:42 AM : Im starring blankly at the laptop. Been a while since ive updated my blog. So here it is! I am fucked lads and gents. Physically? Ewahewah ofcourse la tak , derrrr! Gua bukan chia la der, gua ada standard la der !~ Mentally abused by my family members. Emotionally bruised by my past and well, present too la kan. I have to say things have changed and i feel like im losing my crowd ofso called "friends for life" nya circle. I mean its like about time la kan i break into a new group of friends, do something new and DO NOT PUT HIGH HOPES ON ANYONE (not only relating to the love part, but by all means, enough la tu nak beriye sangat dah). Currently lapar although i had breakfast dengan ejoy this morning around 4ish. NUTS ah. I am paranoid now, i dont know if its my nose ke apa, but i smell something foul, its like a pile of bullshit kot that ive been getting from most of the people around me. I feel upset that you werent the same as before, what changed you? You know i'll always be there for you and you'll always be there for me dulu kan, but now? I think its more like, Hey dell, bye dell, cant dell, no dell. Where's my fav phrase of yessszaaaa!?. Sigh. I miss the old you better. & last but not least, dont like how love is making people feel ignorant about other things that actually matters more than just love or for some other people, lust.
So i actually went out on a cuppa dates la. All sort of guys ive met in my life, none senonoh. Ada je yang tak betul, but they always think with ONE HEAD, what head? Dickhead. Kepale konek mereka. Yes, otak fikir nak romen je keje. KEPALA HANJS lu. I do not see that as a part of being macho charming ke sexy ke apa okay. If only fucking around made the poor richer and the rich, well modest and enough la kan, dunia ni sure aman. Regardless of the aids epidemic, condom ada ma? Pakai lor. Murah saje. Jangan la nak jadi mask of zorro sangat, poket koya, perut pon koyak, pepek ? Lagi la koyak.
I am, again havin financial problema's. Why? Thanks to "Ayahnda", since he convertad to Islam ( murtad christian la kira ) betina tu dah tampal totoi ( kote in bahasa Melayu ) at his kepala and jampi jampi bulu puki kot la kan. I dont know and i dont care. All i care about is, when the fuck is he giving me my fucking allowance. Get a grip la old man, i know you got issues, but because of you, MY LIFE HAS TOO MUCH KACHING ISSUES. Urgh. Sabar je la. Next up, mother. See guys i had a lil mishap when i was in kl, i bawak kereta with 4 of us in it. Me fanna iqa and chels. Sending em back, then BOOM LANGGAR lobang di bawah HIGHWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY MRR2, jalan menghala ke keramat ye, ada simpang tuening left masuk kilang GlaxoSmithKline tuh, Hang tengok la camana bila hari hujan, tak nampak apa pon lobang kejadah tuh. Friggin disturbing moment. SO anyway, i langgar. wheels went left and right on both side. Lower arm patah, i hope berbekalkan salary ku yang seciput ini, its enough to fix the damages WITHOUT MOM'S HELPFUL HELP. Kesian ookaaaay. What a mom. She's great, but last night? FUCKIN PISSED ME OFF SO BAD I WANTED TO KILL THE NEXT PERSON WHO TICKED ME OFF.
Time tu la, baru boleh nampak who's our true friend and who aint. 4 of us had to collect 80 bucks yang short of 15 lepas korek2 coins and all. But chels punya cousin came to the resque with her friend. There's the towing dude who came and helped to check reasonable price la, 150, bapak la, nak bayar with what ???? PUBES? Yikes. Nehi, i was still headstrong to find other sources. Made a few calls, last i called affan, he gave perodua's towing services. THANK god 80. Yehaaaa! Love u so much la der! FYI, i could have saved the 80 bucks tu and sent it to my mechanic in kepong if only my mom had not been such a total ____(fill this out la, too mean to say it out loud innit?). Now you know why i was furious? Hurgh. Tell me about it. Then kereta di tow ke balai melawati, slept at chels house ( tidur la sangat ). Arrived home after drama about 10 pm the day after. NO SLEEP! I feel so Au'Natural lepas mandi and on my bed, but then again, cuz im still like bingung akan kejadian, sleeping is just a part time task now. Hagged ? No i wasnt drunk driving. STUPID JKR, fix the fucking road in keramat tuh. CHEAP-UP betul ok.
Interesting innit my life? Kalah kimora in the fabulous lane. HAHAHHAH. FAB total betul. Mata ku pedih la der, cene? I wanna sleep kejap at the moment sambil menunggu i punya perut stop menyanyi lullaby thats not so soothing to the ears. And yes, i hate my ex so much dulu, but i forgave you already longggg time ago la kan and yeah.. i wished you happy birthday secara jujur sayang, so sorry we arent friends anymore. I wish you all the best in life and god bless you always dear. mwah, salam maafan and peace yow. One more thing, guys yang perasan single, dah dah la tu, get a life. Jangan nak scandal sangat la, its unhealthy to us girls. I mean, hello. Sakit la hati orang yang menunggu detik beriang bersama. If you already have a steady partner, dont go looking for trouble. im single and i admit i am lonely, but its my choice. i may be bitter ke apa ke, but it was always my choice to be single for now and enjoy life and to concentrate on my studies la. Enough fooling around for me. Seriously, this time june onwards, life's about to change and if it doesnt, hahaha. I'll die peacefully and quietly. Takkan nak curse diri sendiri mati ganas? Heheh. Okay lahhh ladies and babes. I wanna sleep and okay then i guess. Goodnight dellany, Good morning malaysia. ;) laters.
