30 June 2009
blahhh.
You know when things dont go your way and you get upset and all.. things did go my way lah kan but i had this feeling like "fuck wey, did that just happened ? after all the drama's, did that just slipped out and turned out to be a reality?" kinda thing. RAINCHECK! Well yes, i felt it earlier on today and yes, facebook status explains, serabut. Its not like i have anything big on my mind maybe the fact im thinking too much and all kills me slowly secara tak sengaja. Why do people have to be such a pain in the ass. I mean, stop being a two faced cunt lah okay. Dont use people for fucks sake. humans have feelings, Unlike you, Bodoh sangat ke apa. Sheesh. Dont tick me off people! Anyways, meeting up with tunku n pari rabu. pari nak bawak kawan dia lak kan, sape tah budak mane tah. takpe, pedulik! I have t-fa & rah with me and thats all that matters, a lil extra baggage wont bug lah kan. Watched transformers dengan myra and her dad and her aunty. BEST GILLLSSSS NAAAAKKKKK MAMMMMPS. Although jalan cerita tak brapa sedap lah kan.
Ni nak cite ni, babe if you're reading this;
AKU TAKUT DENGAN BAPAK KAU.
Hahaa. yes indeed, takut. I dont know why, i just feel scared ah. I have random disturbing thoughts about , well so many things. Its stupid. Ridiculous. Its gettin on my nerves anyway, how do i deal with it. God, have mercy on meeeeehhhh. Give me the strength and will and power to just let it go and keep goin no matter what. I hate this feeling right now. Oh tuhanku, berilah aku kesabaran dan kekuatan dan tabahkan hatiku ini so i can have a better life later on physically, emotionally and mentally.
I miss my ah pok. Rindu gylaaaaaaaa. One day, ok exaggerating lah, maybe half a day, tak ngomong already feels so long like maybe a year or so chewaaaah. lelengau ka nuan x)
I wanna go to bed now. Im stoned and stuffed and mmm, angry. I feel like taking a knife and stab it at my very own heart. Best. Less drama, no feelings. Urgh. BENCI BENCI !!!!! Okay i should be sleeping now. Goodnight world, hello dreamland.
xoxo.
-restless+sleepy+stuffed+angry-
Ni nak cite ni, babe if you're reading this;
AKU TAKUT DENGAN BAPAK KAU.
Hahaa. yes indeed, takut. I dont know why, i just feel scared ah. I have random disturbing thoughts about , well so many things. Its stupid. Ridiculous. Its gettin on my nerves anyway, how do i deal with it. God, have mercy on meeeeehhhh. Give me the strength and will and power to just let it go and keep goin no matter what. I hate this feeling right now. Oh tuhanku, berilah aku kesabaran dan kekuatan dan tabahkan hatiku ini so i can have a better life later on physically, emotionally and mentally.
I miss my ah pok. Rindu gylaaaaaaaa. One day, ok exaggerating lah, maybe half a day, tak ngomong already feels so long like maybe a year or so chewaaaah. lelengau ka nuan x)
I wanna go to bed now. Im stoned and stuffed and mmm, angry. I feel like taking a knife and stab it at my very own heart. Best. Less drama, no feelings. Urgh. BENCI BENCI !!!!! Okay i should be sleeping now. Goodnight world, hello dreamland.
xoxo.
-restless+sleepy+stuffed+angry-