my ding ding dongs.

I know its mothers day but why do we fuss and fight about little things. Cant you let it go for just once. I wish i was the perfect daughter for you. I WISH. But the fact that im not, and youre making me feel like my life aint worth living at all. Anyway Happy mothers day. Woke up with that shit feeling in my head. To come and think of it, i woke up with so much hate and anger left inside i had no where to throw it off but to let it reside in my sleep. Sleeping is good but i cant afford to sleep everytime im upset or feeling all these emotions. I've neer felt so.... Alone? Everyone has their own life and things to do, so do i but what the fcuk? Its not like, lonely craving for love or whatever, No. Its more like i dont feel like i have anyone to talk to about.. well, anything. Someone who i can call outta the blues to come by my place or vice versa and sit for hours talking, gaze at the stars ( i dont do this often ah ) just i dono.. I DONT KNOW. I know what i say sometimes can be ridulous and merepek, and at times when i'm serious I get that "Mmm, i'm listening" look. I shouldnt be complaining much right because atleast they still listen. Now the word stranger is slowly kicking in and i wonder what will happen next. *sigh*.

To my surprise, i found my old memory card, the messages ADOHAI. Pffft! It was all pictures and messages of diploma days. Yes, E was in it. All his messages and crap i had fun laughing at em, i cant remember why i fell for you at the first place. Lol. Qay was in too, banyak borak zaman i kerja jadi receptionist. Way way wayyyy ages ago. Ajakkk, i dont know where you're at right now but i'd be so mad at you if you didnt invite me for your wedding. Im gonna poke your lobang idong with the muffler! Haiiyooyoh, must life be so messed up? Sumpah i miss my bestfriends. I know when they get back things wont be the same dah but hey, atleast theyre back and i can see them in person once ke twice ke whateva la. The fact i dont go online nor call them often doesnt change the fact that i think about them all the time :)

Dear Best Friends:
This is a poem just to say thank you for all you've done. 
Through thick or thin, you've always been there for me
and I can't say 'thanks' enough.

Dear Best Friends:
I don't know what I would do without you
you're the only one to listen to my problems
and help me get by each and every day. 
Just to let you know- I love you like a sis
in that special kind of way!!

Dear Best Friends:
Just to let you know- I am here beside you're side
please come to me when you need to run and hide.

XOXO girls. You know i love you.

Moving on the next agenda, gotta clean my room yang bagaikan dilanda tsunami, alayayayoy! Banyak sangat kena kemas dah la cuaca panas, cousins comin over with her mothaaa. Yenadei, aduhness. Soooo takpa, cant wait for end of this month, will be away for a week or two. Bak kata terry lee, All around the world ! Sexy terry sexyy! *pengsan kejap*. Okay wanna get my orang gaji mood on and do my chores *sigh*. Muahmuahmuahhhh! chenta kamu semua. Updates comin up soooon, I still have plenty to write. Heheh. Chaocinciaoooo~