Folie à deux ?

ehhh fuck la. kau ni annoying macam bangsat tau tak. kimak. do u fucking know you make my life miserable je all this while? yes the faCT that youre nice at times. but was that just a show? gosh. living in denial. buto la wei. two of you can go jahanam for all i care. this is what they call marah kerana alasaan yang diterima kurang memberangsangkan. i mean like korang bukannye busy sangat pun. nak tolong gini dah bising cam pundek. fuck!! so annoyed to even look at both of your fucking faces. PLEASE LA GET OUTTA MY SIGHT.

Supposed to have a study group later at mcd, see lah how en, ade pukimak so baik go and spoil my fucking plans for today. BENCI BENCI BENCI. Argh. Hmm so besides that, ATH 155 killer subject siot. like seriouslyyyy dow. Sinan? Bihzad? persian painters? Wtf? aaaaaaaaa :( save me from this misery. Islamic art, why in the world do we have to learn this subject in detail???????? Ada effect ka? Mmm exactly, NO. I dont even know why i have to take up these islam islam related subjects. Its just so wrong because i do not have the basic and fundamentals in islam apatah lagi bab art dia. Adoi. CANNOT GO BETUL LA! TAK LEH BLAAAA.

Copek la 9th berlalu, im thinking of staying in sa till like, bebile la. Then only balik around 13 gitu. Nasib ar kan, ade aku kesah? Que serra serra jom! I dont get it tau, i mean its our blog, people read and people terasa. I mean dude, u fucking know right... its a goddamn blog. It includes heavy positive or negative emotions in here. And if we bloggers talk shit about this person we like/hate, kalau ade la nama kau dalam blog tu lain cite. But korang2 yang baca ni kan always assume its you as if takde satu hari dalam hidup ni pon yang tak de kene mengena dengan kau. You dont revolve around our world la wei. Well in ma case la kannn, they dont revolve around my world. Ye la, kan this world is full of fucking backstabbing two faced cunts. What to do, sabar je la kan. Yes. Sabar, but for how long? We'll see dellany mayy!!

Uarghh its already 12 pm noon. And ive been up since 8? Kinda early. Slept at 4. Chillax bersama cels and troll. huahahaha. schomels ja. kete dorang hampir kena clam. kurang ajo la pak itam tu. tunjuk boss konon, ko tu guard je kot. takya nak macho2 dengan perot gendott mue splosen kau tu wei. menyampah aku tau. rasa nak je aku tarok emulsion kat muka kau, pastu gune sandpaper. tu pon kalau kau boleh di-ejassssss lagi la muke kau yang annoying cam pantek tu. Im sorry la kay. dellany may has been thru an emo rollercoaster that never seems to stop. Life is indeeed a biiiiiiitch. But make the best outta it, and look on the brighter side of liifeeeeeee :D

Hey.. im confused. Seriously la kan, i dont think its gonna work out. I just dont think so. I mean really, chemistry was there. But i just cant see it anymore. I dont think i can do this. Im sorry. Okay lah chupchup. Study time. Im sleepy and moody. How la how nak study ni. Siotttttt!!!! Argh!! apape je la. Laters.

growing up .

woo! i think ni gambar masa i 1 year old ke 2 years old?
Whatever it is, its my birthday, go shawtyyy its my birthdayyy we gonna party like its ma birthdayyy~

Cik ni, i tak sure katna, genting highlands or cameron. Either or.
I was like.. what.. 5 years old or somethin?

pose maut. ahhaa.

say woooot ?

kadang2 orang berperangai cam pukimak, two faced, u just feel like killing them right? afterall, paling teruk pun hilang species sial cam tu je kan. masuk penjara, blabla. so what? haha. yes the evil mind is havin nasty thoughts on things like that. I dont know lah. Whatever it is, dear evilness please fuck off a.s.a.p, thank you.

Ada ke aku memberi jelingan atau muka seribu muka? Aku terkejut ade la bai. Selain itu, nope. Upset? Maybe. Marah ? Hmm jap je kot. Dont try this at home. Dah nature "good samaritan" sebegitu, so sile la. I dont know what to feel or think of at the moment so i guess ada hikmah why mom wants me back home so soon, padahal alahai. computer dia buat hal, gile takleh tunggu kan? Aduh mak, youre lucky youre my mom. kalo tak, emergency gini dah kena tepok amai-amai dengan aku dah dahi tu.

Sorry if i was being... rather nosy ke apa. I dont think i was, i wasnt the one who came in the picture at first. So let it be. Blagh this all never happened at the first place if you werent there la okay? Thanks for making my life miserable at the moment. THANKS BANYAK BANYAK. Nak di ikutkan hati perasaan, aku sepak je dia kan. Argh stop it dell, this is so not you. Ouch is the word of the day and fuck is for all of you.

My point of view on how this shit ass world of pisau works...

I think people have different reasons why they tikam others. when they want to get back at you for hurting them or disappointing them may it be unconsciously or deliberately. Some do it because they have this anger to the other person but don't have the guts to show him or her or fight face to face. But I think the reason mostly is other people's insecurity. I believe that when a person starts doing bad things to you when you have done nothing to harm them at all, is that they are somehow insecured. I think that they are trying to destroy you because you have something that they envy. And I feel really sorry for those kind of people and I truly hope that they'll find that there's something good about them too. The world will be a much better place to live in without these penikams, Kan?

Cheers, siap ade research ar bende ni. Dahsyat. Whatever WHATEVER AND WHATEVER. :) I need some time to zone out from all this shit, especially exams. My drawings and what not semua? Yikes. Ada kebenaran disebalik itu. Asal dia tak de pon roger. ni buat aku cemas jua! shyte. hope nothing goes wrong. tanak fail :( tanak repeat lukis2 celaka tu. kimak. lancau. ahhh. benci. To the drama's, i wish you'd go to hell. You can if u want to as well.

I NEED A HOLIDAY. SPA. Mummy jom. Aaaaaaa. I wanna go clubbing with the girls. Lantak kau la nak fikir apa. Im still going whether you're in or out. Deals sealed. And kadang i fikir balik, lol. loser gak korang ni kan. Sorang poyo tanak, sorang nak tukar. Pehh, only god knows whats goin on on your side. God bless ya'll.

Aku nak tido sebab aku dah penat fikir abt the big decision tu, nanti i kena discuss dengan mommy pula. So anyways, i shall beransur dahulu, ke kamar untuk zz. Dont wanna stay up with this sort of feeling. black eyed peas tipu i, its not a good night. Sheesh. Dah ah. Gnite love. Mwahs.

love makes you....

I hate the way you drive me mad
And the way my head won't shut
I hate that you can make me glad
And the burning that won't cut

I hate the way you made me fall]
And how myself i found
I hate my ringtone when you call
I hate that stupid sound

I hate the way my heart shivers
The time you call my cell
I hate that thoughts flow like rivers
Inside my head is hell

I hate the way you read my mind
I hate what you make me feel
I hate how I've become this blind
I hate that you are real

I hate it how you stole my pride
I hate that I admit
I hate the way I boil inside
And how my heart you lit

I hate to think that you are small
I hate to think you're not
I hate to think that above all
I might not get a shot

I hate the things you make me do
And how you make me shove
I hate that i do not hate you
I hate it might be love...

kimak sial.

You talk the good talk
You tell what you know,
You think that you have all of the answers
You put on a real good show.

You say not to do something
But you do it the same,
When somebody else does it
You call them out of their name.

You are lacking in areas but yet
You put down someone else,
You need to stop focusing on what I'm doing
Pay attention to yourself.

You need to realize who you are
You will find out sooner than later,
You criticize and you judge
You are a hypocrite and a hater.

Why? Who are you?
Don't walk around like your shit don't stink,
Before you open your mouth
You need to stop and think.

Don't be mad at me because you are mean and
People don't respond well to you,
Think about some of the things that you say and
Some of the things that you do.

There are too many things going on
To be focusing on what I'm doing,
A personality or sense of humor
Should be what you are pursuing.