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" P I N K "
Drag queen !

HERE are the two people who still make my day shine no matter how cloudy it is. Theyre infected with the ketumbuhan (look at the way they peace'd x)

I had the worst day ever. Couldnt stop crying wei. And people know when i cry, its something big, not simply any shitty day i had or whatver. Its deep.

I hope life was way easier than this back then when i was still sucking my thumb ah, chewah metaphor la konon. So yeah, when we were kids, no worries, mom and dad would take care of everything and all you need to do is, well...study? :)

Now as you grow older and experience all sorts of emotions, we are manusia so memang ar ada perasaan and all that,but think of it.. We sure have somehow changed alot kan since then? I know i did. For better or for worst, Life is unpredictable. Macam rollercoaster ah kan. The song jojo, leave? Hahahaha i have melekat-ed to the song. Now kci and jojo - tell me its realll. Is it real? :S I have doubts. I dont wanna think of it anymore. "Try is all we have to do, Its up to me and you to make this special love last forever more." bak kata kci and jojo lah. If only life was a song, and it really happens when you sing it, alangkan mat jeninnye hidup. Arghhh.

Anyyyway! Ini week i have been so tired, but i dont know what did i do. I ade gi interview tu, ahahha JOB INTERVIEW kan, the lady went off when i was already there. Stupid jam! If takde jam, dah lama i sampai. I was driving like a mad woman on the road! But in the end i toned all that anger on this tempat makan, had lunch with iqa in Uptown, some place called village something? Hahaha. Nasi lemak ayam dia sedap nak mampos. But quite pricy, BUT AYAM DIA BESAWW huhu.

So i feel so dry lah as in dehydrated and well, hehe financially dry edi. Bust out my cash on god knows what, i cant remember what did i use my cash on. Hahaha. Small things make your money go poof. xP Wahhhwah my presentation ni ha is on the 1st december kot, its a tuesday lah. Next tuesday, then 28th december, i have to register myself in uitm hihihi. Hope to be roomies with afeeya ah. Have a few friends in uitm, so i wont be that lost lah kot. KOT la. * hope i can see ♥ more since im not that far anymore :) *
waaaa pokai ah. Hmm need more $$$. My dad nk bank in lambat lagi kot. Btw, kenapa kan kita nak tulis anything on this blog, its not like were renting from them and bounded by rules ke apa and how come we cant say what we want!! Some people ni, jangan jaga tepi kain orang bole tak, ske hati la kan nak tulis apape. Kecoh and kesian so sakai, lifeless. Nak baca ah, comment elok2. Jangan nak say bad things. Abit kesian right? Heheh.

I hafta go nowwww, masak ;).

x o x o
-me.

f r e e d o m h a b i s

Hello hello hello peooooooople~ Yesterday? 22nd Nov' o8 i passed out so badly. free flow dow! I had fun, not sure others did but im thankful to bobstaa and kafsaaaah and god knows who else that were there to jaga this woman. Ini adalah misdemeanor pertamaku (yeah riiiight..) Lama i haven drank any alcohol, mmmmmm yesterday was just a blasttt! By the way, im really sorry if i drunk dialled you guys after that, anyone who knows or is reading my blog, thousand apologies.

This life isnt such a tragedy now isnt it? Hahaha Loving it right now. Told u i was upset a lil bit abt the matters of the heart, but if you dont care about me anymore or would want me to leave you, just say the magic word and im out for good. I cant be with someone who cant commit themselves. If you cant now, can u do it later? Time waits for no man. I dont want any heartbreaking moments at the end of the day to find out we were just a phase.

Shittopotato! I havent done much of my work yet, so heres the drill, im suppose to do the content but seriously im slightly blur, no joke. articles which were not even mine i main cekup saja, hope that dude iskonnn wont say another word and hope he aint one of the panels, i'd so chopchop him alive! :P

Waiting for my uitm offer letter, if i get it, sambung belajar if not work jap and sambil tu, i think keep on applying for other uni's. Hope to get uitm tho, cheaper and waaaaay convenient. I was browsing thru the pictures in my myspace today and i saw the waiter's picture which i took like last year i guess. I cant remember. But anyway, he has the most amazing warm smile that i have ever seen. I felt peaceful, like i knew him. But the fact is, angan-angan mat jenin lah, i tak kenal dia kot. Hahahahha I siap snap gambar dia lagi. Dia very the smileyy and friendly and suara dia omg. *cair jap* I feel like going to the place and find him huhu. If dia ada kat sana lagi la, i remembered i went there with myra izzet and his friend. So much for " Mana u, I nak belanja u chilis nihhh " ahahha i wouldnt mind trips to the place yg tak sedap sangat if he was the waiter who served me!!

This is me stalking him *maluuu sial aku*

So anyway, i survived a night of passion, puke, alcohol and everything else ooh did i mention i got gigit by this thing, sangat tak cool. seriously adoi and :'( sakit gak ahh itchy to be precise. Saya maww mandi now, anything ya'll know how to reach me! Aza and myra i havent spoke to u guys for quite some time now and i am so sowwwwrrrryyyyy! Nanti i calling2 you girls kay, i sayang youss!

xoxo.

Habit terbaru.

*sleep late
*mengfrustmenonggeng solo-solo.
*sms whoever that crosses my mind
*usha dinding
*bilik tido cam kandang di africa ( what the deuce!? )
*think of the past present and future
*feeling sorry about everything and everyone.
*currently numb but angry. i guess you call that syndrome - gila.

-me.

2 am, menanti

Today feels rather erh? yeah. i dont know what erh means but i think i made a mistake. Im not sure what. I think its better if i just go away right? Like back off before its too late? But what if its all a little too late. Its like an addiction thats not addictive, a strong drug that cant cure your illness, a comfortable bed but you cant fall asleep. Describe those feelings to me. I give up. Do i? That remains unanswered.

You out of all people should understand me and know me best. I feel upset for god knows what reason and i felt it was childish and immature. I admit no one's perfect. Quality time. What quality time have we actually had? I dont know. I dont know why im feelin like this! Its not because i mendahagakan kasih sayang, no. I dont feel like im getting much attention as i was before. And now what im sensing, its like i feel like a fucking laundremat. Or a book. Once you've read it, you put it on a shelf. You dont read a book you bought again and again once youre done with the last page on the book right? FYI, i feel like shit, its not my period. Too soon. Yes blogs are for ranting it all out. Who ever who read this, dont think its about you. It might be, but even if u asked, i will say its no body and nothing. I feel like you have something better to do, than to talk to me. I am so keeping quiet this time, time to change? You tell me. Maybe im not good enough, too immature. Hahaha ape la masalah aku sial. Not reaching the midlife crisis dah macam-macam bende poekhemah berlaku. Canopy betul la.

Besides that, i had to pening-pening think of the damn portal i had to do with my team member, forumsss and search engine tu kalau jalan kan, memang wow la. Flash buttons or nice buttons, siaapa tau mana aku bole cari online? Malas laaaa nak gune dreamer/green weaver . Hahahah These names were the ones i heard and it was historically funny. Dream weaver sebenar nya nama betol dia la. Hahaha. So yeah, PHPantek ni sbnarnya banyak tutorials online, but not all codingschmoding dia boleh pakai kan. tau takpe. So i went to subang/shah alam yesterday night dengan my ms.whyyouOFFyoureyes, memang baik la cerita merita dengan dia and her friends, i like them! Btw babe, member aku yg kite hantar aritu, he said you cun. Hahaha. Lek lek, dont kembang ha.

Sorry again to keyboard ku yang separuh nyawa now, due to molestation i made during my kemarahan session. You know what they say, once youre mad, you can be so bad ( i made that up ah, kalau kau percaya kau memang loser ) So yeah, maybe going to ipoh tomorrow with my uncle and brother, not so sure but i shall go and face my wildest scariest dream; Facing the betina gila who claims to be my step mom. Yuck, you aint layak to gain that title. So besides being all jahat and bitchy in this blog ( i know i sound quite bitchy, tapi blog aku, suke hati aku laa ) i went shoppin today, beli a cami and two babydoll top, one pink and one white. Yeish, i fikir balik asal la aku beli white, coz air rumah aku ni, kalo cuci ade la tetibe tompok-tompok taik unte( exaggerating ) but ye lagot yellow stains on the shirt tetibe, geli ah nampak, looked like someone pee-ed on you. Hahaha.

So its almost 2 AM now, I think im gon' hit the bed dah. Its time to kill time by sleeping. Goodnight and god bless ya'll.

Ps* i might just die as a bitter, bitchy, lonely old lady someday. LOL. I need to cheer myself up by medication or simply by reading ape perempuan tu tulis. Thanks again ah fifi, you light up my day with her blog Haahahahah. Okay lah. Chao cin Chao~

Much love,
Me myself & I.