Feelings . Awak ada ?

Dear you , I'm hurt . Ive eyebags the size of niagra falls , probably could cause a flood if i continued boohoohoo-ing for a few more days . Sheesh . Im sorry . Im just so weak and lame . I know right ? :)


Didn't know i was funny . I love you so muchehehehhehhe . Funny; FIN . OUCH


How would you feel if the only thing in life you wanna run to and make them the first to know about everything, makes you feel like the last thing on earth they'd want to hear from ? Geez . I dont know . Oh wait , Ouch .


Im scarred for life . Its not easy for me to open up to things i don't like talking about . What have i done wrong ? Or ; Where did we go wrong ? Or am i just having one of those delusional psychogirlfriend moments ? Get a grip dell . Ouch abit only .


Ouch ouch ouch and billions of ouch . AKAI !


I wanna cry but i dont think there's any tear left . Good la kot , if i go blind would you still love me ? Thinking twice; i dont think so . No more tears ala-ala baby johnnson shampoo .




Stop this shit dellany . You're stronger than this . What happened to you . Get the fuck up and fight bitch .
*inner voices chanting* ~ L O S E R ! L O S E R !




I shall vow , since i was dump'ed before by the ex's and the ex's that ive dump'ed . this is for all of you la . Not just ex ke apa . Wa speaking in general la . Listen up bitches .




We must learn to love the fool in us the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries before we fall for the other fools .


I love you so much and i dont know what to decide anymore . It's in your hands . You seem wise enough to make the decision . I cant and do not want to decide . If you read this send a text to me with this code "ouch". :) take care. ILYSFMWD


<3 xxx

ribbit chirp chirpo .

frogs , birds , all doing the nature call eh, washing machine i pun okay , its rolling the shit outta the clothes. Anyway, LOTS or may i say too much has been going on lately and i dont really know where to start. Damn it. So whatever, recently ive been going through this emotional rollercoaster and i didnt get what the hell was really bothering me really. It bothers me to not know whats bothering me.

Friends come and go. Good ones stay, temporary friends only find you when they need to. Are they even true friends? I barely know what friendship means now. I feel there's alot of tension and drama that doesnt need to be there at all, but it seems like some people cannot live a day without it, tsk tsk tsk PITY. I do not appreciate people breaking promises, So next time. A reminder; If you cant do it, DONT. It fucking annoys the fuck outta me. I'm not a 6 year old, i'll understand where youre coming from if only you couldve told me in a professional way. What happened to all my friends. The really good ones, hard to find. Backstabbing bitching lies after lies. Hello, this is not Rosalinda okay. Urgh enough making sitchs like some god damn soap opera already!!

Recently a friend of mine broke up with the boyfie. Turns out he has been doing shits like cheating an shit. One thing that fucking ticks me off is that when a person betrays their partner. i mean for fucks sake , keep your pussy/dick in your pants and whatever sexcapades you have in mind, Stays in the mind lah. If you cant afford to be serious or to keep a commitment , dont bother having one. By the time you ought to fix things, there'll be nothing left to fix. Its said and done. Bitter heart like zee avi sang. I hate men and women who are home wreckers/snatchers. My dad, phewh. Went to one hell of a draama. My stupid step bitch my dad remarry, seriously pa, did u not see that she is a dirty slut. Fuck man, get a grip. If sex was revolving around your world, fuck yourself je la.

Aku tak paham betol la nafsu manusia ni. Why do we intend to have more than what we can swallow. GREEDY. I can tolerate la kalau u were to have scandals around when youre NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP la cerita dia. If you're in a rel. then you still wanna get different types of hugs and kisses, fuck you downright till the core of the earth and yes i lose respect to people like that regardless of who or what they are. Im interested in knowing the threesome life thing but to You can look but u cant touch. Keep it in, i'll respect. I mean you dont wanna go all bahamen and we gon be like "who et the dogs out" right ? Since im a female, ya'll would use the term Bitch instead dog. Kan? ahahha. Thought so. Stick to one dick/pussy lads, all that humping and thumping and sucking might cost you your health someday ay?

Friends do come and go. I guess i'm letting some people in my life go for good. No point keeping them and its like, True. They are not worth my time. Honey, it doesnt mean i quit on you no, but the fact is im tired of trying to help you see what youve become today aint something i know or like to know. You were so different before. Geeze, get your acts straight. Youre slacking. Not cool. I want my fiend back if its possible. But looks like its too late. :) so  fly off now. I'll be watchin you from afar. I hope you know what you're doing and dont bring more drama's to your life. Cheers.

my only current addiction ; the secret smell of this pillow .

=)

i wrote this for someone before . dont know if you remembered =)

I'm sorry for the way things were,
and the selfishness that you endured.
I'm sorry for the nights we lost,
and the deep pain it must have cost.
I'm sorry I wasn't there to show,
the deepest love you'll ever know.
I'm sorry for the empty days,
and the stresses that you still yet pay.
I'm sorry for the empty space,
that laid beside you in my place.
I'm sorry for the empty arms,
you fell into when times were hard.
I'm sorry for the days that passed,
Our love now will surely last.
I'm sorry it took so long to vow,
to love you forever here and now.

Love,
Dellany May.

hello 2011 .

Dear all , how have you folks been doin lately ? Im sorry for the long 'MIA'. Wasnt really much to write in here but well, i guess i'll start off now. 29th was the date for a montlyversary, 29th was the date of my bestie's birthday, 29th was the day i started uni ( if think ah ). 29 , is that a good number ? macam baru nak masuk mid life crisis punya age kan ,29 ? hahah. I had fun with my loved ones , i love all of you so much and i wish you guys all a happy prosperous new year and hope it'll be a good one for all of us this year despite the good and the bad last year , the best is yet to come :)

Being alone, it sucks. To have a duo is fun, but sometimes your duo just aint what you expect. Why do we strive for perfection when were not even breathing the same air, walking the same pace, going the same distance and destiny, if ya know what i mean? I bet you do. but all those.... does it matter? Hurmms. having a long distance relationship is tough, i myself got into one. :\ tell me if im wrong but it just feels so right. I know right? Lol. 2011, i love you, so please.... love me abit atleast ?

Im definitely going to close this book and bad ass chapter of my life, and start fresh. Who knows this year will be awesome for all of us innit ? i hope it will be for me. i long to fill the empty space beside & inside of me. Someday :) i know for sure. The swears and promises -_-" must keep leh. Someday love, someday. Im so blessed for my life now although its been quite a pain in the ass but i love my life the way it is and i hope life will be good today onwards. please please please la faham, i need a better life than what i had before. Make it happen dell, this year is yours, hence, shake what yo momma gave yaa and rock the life like how its suppose to be. Work harder, play harder and most of all, finish this last year for real dellany may. POM PARAPAP. americano's anyone? hehehe. fucking i-cress is caressing my soul la , sebab apa its too SLOW AND RIDICULOUS LA TIMETABLE SMUA TAK BETUL LA DEI. why uni whyyy, setiap semester pelu ka gya? adoi.

Shit i miss you :( sakit hati la because i did text you and you didnt reply. Should i feel neglected? Naah. Youve been MIA so, i guess that'll be a good excuse :) hihihi. But i think you were afraid or not having any hopes to take things further with me in the future, so... its okay. Is it? I dont know. I guess i get it, or maybe i dont. Make it clear can kah? Wo bu ming pai ma. I dont want to end things :'( .. sigh. I love you bah..

I guess new year, everything goes new then right ? :) i feel like shit now i cant concentrate. Im hitting the bed. a Few nights being sleepless and all that emotions. Ouch. Goodbye cyberworld. hello bed and stars.

Much love,
me.

malammamai.

I dont know why i feel like writing it out. Yes, i feel foolish and upset . I dont know why, but maybe i do know why its just i'd prefer to be like anyone else, to be living in denial . hush now my heart, do not weep any longer. For love has come and you shall not wonder, how lovely thy love can make you feel, but also turn the lovely feeling to something miserable. What went missing dell , what went wrong? tell me . I dont know, I seriously dont know. Im going to bed now, no use waking up at this hour fidgeting and rambling about this fucked up thoughts of mine. Goodnight and Goodbye.

MEsery.