hello 2011 .

Dear all , how have you folks been doin lately ? Im sorry for the long 'MIA'. Wasnt really much to write in here but well, i guess i'll start off now. 29th was the date for a montlyversary, 29th was the date of my bestie's birthday, 29th was the day i started uni ( if think ah ). 29 , is that a good number ? macam baru nak masuk mid life crisis punya age kan ,29 ? hahah. I had fun with my loved ones , i love all of you so much and i wish you guys all a happy prosperous new year and hope it'll be a good one for all of us this year despite the good and the bad last year , the best is yet to come :)

Being alone, it sucks. To have a duo is fun, but sometimes your duo just aint what you expect. Why do we strive for perfection when were not even breathing the same air, walking the same pace, going the same distance and destiny, if ya know what i mean? I bet you do. but all those.... does it matter? Hurmms. having a long distance relationship is tough, i myself got into one. :\ tell me if im wrong but it just feels so right. I know right? Lol. 2011, i love you, so please.... love me abit atleast ?

Im definitely going to close this book and bad ass chapter of my life, and start fresh. Who knows this year will be awesome for all of us innit ? i hope it will be for me. i long to fill the empty space beside & inside of me. Someday :) i know for sure. The swears and promises -_-" must keep leh. Someday love, someday. Im so blessed for my life now although its been quite a pain in the ass but i love my life the way it is and i hope life will be good today onwards. please please please la faham, i need a better life than what i had before. Make it happen dell, this year is yours, hence, shake what yo momma gave yaa and rock the life like how its suppose to be. Work harder, play harder and most of all, finish this last year for real dellany may. POM PARAPAP. americano's anyone? hehehe. fucking i-cress is caressing my soul la , sebab apa its too SLOW AND RIDICULOUS LA TIMETABLE SMUA TAK BETUL LA DEI. why uni whyyy, setiap semester pelu ka gya? adoi.

Shit i miss you :( sakit hati la because i did text you and you didnt reply. Should i feel neglected? Naah. Youve been MIA so, i guess that'll be a good excuse :) hihihi. But i think you were afraid or not having any hopes to take things further with me in the future, so... its okay. Is it? I dont know. I guess i get it, or maybe i dont. Make it clear can kah? Wo bu ming pai ma. I dont want to end things :'( .. sigh. I love you bah..

I guess new year, everything goes new then right ? :) i feel like shit now i cant concentrate. Im hitting the bed. a Few nights being sleepless and all that emotions. Ouch. Goodbye cyberworld. hello bed and stars.

Much love,
me.

malammamai.

I dont know why i feel like writing it out. Yes, i feel foolish and upset . I dont know why, but maybe i do know why its just i'd prefer to be like anyone else, to be living in denial . hush now my heart, do not weep any longer. For love has come and you shall not wonder, how lovely thy love can make you feel, but also turn the lovely feeling to something miserable. What went missing dell , what went wrong? tell me . I dont know, I seriously dont know. Im going to bed now, no use waking up at this hour fidgeting and rambling about this fucked up thoughts of mine. Goodnight and Goodbye.

MEsery.

i need novocaine.

Love is Truth. If you love someone, you must be true and open to that person from the start. It's sad to know many people are afraid to be open, for fear of being rejected. This has created problems when the partner finds out that the other wasn't honest. It is always important to be truthful to your partner to remove doubts. It is important to communicate constantly with one another to build trust. And if mistakes have been made, it is also equally important to say it and believe in the love of the other. <---- I KNOW RIGHT...DO YOU?

Don't put the burden on you by trying to solve all the problems by yourself     <------ KAN DELL KAN  -_-"

Wan Dana

how cute he can be  :) I adore you so much .

How silly i get when i'm with you .

Dear Boyfriend .

I know things have been kinda rough lately .

I hate it . It hurts .

The way we talk, hurt each other with words. 

Seriously, sarcastic is my name and sarcasm's my game.

Yours pulak ego eagle. 

Haiyaa bad combination ke? 

I dont think so. 

Because you're actually lovely deep down inside you.

  But i think your ego really STINKS. 

Flush it away pleaaaaaaaaaase? 

Thanks.

I wanna have my sweetie back .

The person who'd whisper sweet nothings to me.

Talked nonsense ( we still do la now :D )

Send me those silly mms's and sms's >.<

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Nothing's gonna change my love for you .

I agree , no matter how bad we fight, in the end i'd give it all up to mane amends between us.

I know you'd do that too right sayang ?

I dont wanna lose you.

I'm glad to have you as my boyfriend . My bestfriend . My girlfriend . My bro .

You're my everything .

You = awesome boyfriend .

Enough said .

xoxo

<3

kecelakaan.

accidents do happen kan :( shit. didnt believe it myself until kena sendiri ! OUCH wei. Ouch. So anyways today i finished my paper already! MERDEKA ! Mmm what to do now la :\ hurms . Mula-mula mom was being all nice and stuff, suddenly she became bitchy . I mengadu laaa to someone :( tapi ha, mampos kau tak kena layan, padan muka kau dell. Uhh, Am i too clingy or manja ? Something came up made me feel like something's wrong. Something tak kena. What is it ? Tell la . You promised you'd tell . So please do the action and stop omong-ing kosong, can? Urgh . Geram kot, rasa macam erm , where did my 'boyfriend' go ? I miss the old you. I use to get good morning messages, being treated like a princess. I know la mula-mula relationship semua best. Kentut pon wangi, but i wish it stayed the same :( for like....forever.

Oh well, here's my ride ..

belah kiri keretaaaa.

front view, i got banged from the front, car came from the right side of the traffic. sigh.

i got more where this came from, but censored eh. both left and right pelvis, knee left and right, boobs i bengkak, yer sebab langgar stereng kete and cengkaman seatbelt.

comel? oh no. neck fracture. minor sahaja, getting better by the minute, thank god.

right side of the krrrrrrrrr~ damn teruk :( i miss my kanchs.

to still ride this ghostrider or not lepas i get it back, new car perhaps? hurmmm.

Horror jugak bila ingat balik how it happened, hysterical moment for me, mum ofcourse my yoy. Urmmm. Note to self, when driving alone at 2;30am in the morning, if traffic light is green, take 2 minutes to pura-pura not see the traffic and if its still green then jalan la. Unstoppable betul itu incident. 

Anyway, berteriak kembali about the chenta issue, you kan pelik tau. One minute youre so lovely, the next youre like my nightmare that i refuse to wake up from and just die in my dreams. Im angry at myself because i cant be mad at you for a long period of time, why and how did u manage to unzip the password to block my anger and madwoman part of me!? grr, gigit burit berik putus beri tikus mamam!! okay okayy i gtg. i sambung my rintihan saban hari. mmwah!