28 September 2009
Long term memory lost, forgive and forget.
All i have left to say is.. Im sorry for everything and... I dont know what else to say or feel dow. Seriously. I just Hope you're doin just fine right na na na na. Heheh. Cheers! Daaaamn i got too many things on my mind right now, and i dont know where & when the hell should i start to do my work. Lazy to drive back home, but here goes nothing. God bless you and the world. I should stop procrastinating ay? Im giving myself the 40 days and 40 nights challenge. Oh days, please be kind to me. Lead me not into temptation and deliver me from evil. Heheh. Everyone in favour for a change say "rawr" ! >.< laters. Sure jam la federal. Palat. Wargh. Okiedoks. Muahmuah. Luvvyuuuu. Smashing my rearview mirror because from now onwards baby, i aint lookin back. :)
shattered ? maybe.
Im disappointed
it's just disappointment after disappointment
and then another disappointment
im not sure what to do
and who to look up to any more
because it seams every time I do
something bad happens to them
or they do something bad.
Im a patient person
and i will forgive alot
actually more than I should
but I allways get disappointed in the end.
And even my hero
he makes mistakes alot
but I always forgive him
But this time it's different
he said he was clean
but he lied
He lied.
he Lied to everyone
I couldn't believe it
I can't believe my eyes
my ears , his mouth.
I can't believe anything anymore
I just can't believe it
I just got disappointed again.
So now im not going to any more
because im not going to trust,
put my faith in, or hope for,
any one any more
ever again
Ever.
it's just disappointment after disappointment
and then another disappointment
im not sure what to do
and who to look up to any more
because it seams every time I do
something bad happens to them
or they do something bad.
Im a patient person
and i will forgive alot
actually more than I should
but I allways get disappointed in the end.
And even my hero
he makes mistakes alot
but I always forgive him
But this time it's different
he said he was clean
but he lied
He lied.
he Lied to everyone
I couldn't believe it
I can't believe my eyes
my ears , his mouth.
I can't believe anything anymore
I just can't believe it
I just got disappointed again.
So now im not going to any more
because im not going to trust,
put my faith in, or hope for,
any one any more
ever again
Ever.
25 September 2009
jerk this off.
Liar. Fuck man, this is just sick. Like sick as hell. You can play pretend so well and yet, lookie lookie, you're out there poppin and ballin like nobody's business. I dont care for one fact that we dont act like before. You treat me like the other jerks out there. But no, you played your cards so damn well that i couldnt see any flaws on you. I swear i dont know how im supposed to feel, happy? Mad? Upset? Whatever? I dont know. More like betrayed. I feel used and ah, fuck it lah okay? Ya'll are the same to me and i dont know what made me so stupid to still provide you my tlc. fuck aku tengah dalam the effing sick to my stomach phase now i dont even know how to look at you. EWW. This is so not happening. GOD. I cant believe you had the courtesy to do such a thing after all ive done for you. Call it dutch, seri ok? 0-0, maybe it wasnt such a good idea kan all the huha we had. FUCK dell, you got punkd and used and fuck you're such a joke right now. SNAP OUTTA IT WOMAN, this aint doin ya good.
Im heading off to kl so if you wanna meet me and talk, be a man. Tell me all the things youve been hiding before and please come clean. One of us is gonna go home feeling like shit today but yeah maybe the song patut publish now like "save the best for last?" Hmmm. Whatever it is, im just havin mixed emotions now. i cant describe. Marah, confused and annoyed sebentar. Urgh. Laters.
-dell-
Im heading off to kl so if you wanna meet me and talk, be a man. Tell me all the things youve been hiding before and please come clean. One of us is gonna go home feeling like shit today but yeah maybe the song patut publish now like "save the best for last?" Hmmm. Whatever it is, im just havin mixed emotions now. i cant describe. Marah, confused and annoyed sebentar. Urgh. Laters.
-dell-
19 September 2009
kejadian sabtu pagi hingga afternoon 12:42.
4 more post and i'll have 200 posts. Gile babs. So anyway semalam instead of lepaking outside with em, i slept on the bed, senget pulak tu, masuk2 mama bising cakap apsal tdo senget, laptop apsal tak off, blablablabla. I was on the bed for about 5 minutes then zzzzzzzzz. Oh well, ni ian la never off the laptop pas guna. Ni na marah ni. cousin kept callin me for directions semalam, hope she found the place ah. Danau ada apa dow. da la ramai orang time cenni. Sigh.
Today sepatutnya pergi ke port dickson. ahhaha. Why dicky whyy. hahaha. So yeah, i was supposed to go but then again waiting for colin to confirm balik, one day trip. PD ada apa leh? Takda apa ma! Haiyaaa. Hari ini ku rasakan seperti hari yang gloomy, mengapa? Mengapa? Hmm. I dont like this feeling. I gotta keep myself occupied dow. Iqaaa mengapaa kau poie arini, ko balik kang jumpe aku straight. THIS IS AN ORDER. chewah. I know u laf me. Muahs.
Frustrating to know kan, we dont get what we need, but usually we always get what we want. I'd prefer need than want. but again, a mixture of both la kan. Some of my friends dah siap booking dah maw clubbing after raya, korang ni, kalau bulan puasa was everyday hahha. The clubs might just go outta business! I'm downloading movies since i cant go watch, bukan cant. Dah lambat time i nak tengok movie and all, besides aritu takut i tertido in the cinema then nanti you mesti cam "siot tol minah ni, aku bawak tgk movie dia tdo lak". So alamatnya, pergi masa i am still wide awake and fresh :) and when im free FREE.
When shall i start doin my work. 1st? 2nd? ummm. Da nak dekat october da siot. Soon habis tahun ni 2010. 10 more years mahathir, 2020 in the house yaaw! I wish i could warp through time and go back to when things were so clean and pure and nice. Before puberty kicked in ah preferably sebab the pad tampon apa segala haram wanita empunya necessities. Rumit la growing old ni. Sigh. Wakluuuu. Lu call wa pagi tadi wa mamai lu marah wa pastu lu hung up wa call balik lu tanya wa soalan bodo ofcourse wa bingit. Lu pandai betol la main api, wa ta suka la lu ceni. Lu cakap lu tanak kawan kan, ok ah tayahh. Wa tak mati la kalau lu takda, lu tak jumpa lepak apa smua wa ok je, lu gi mams jao2 la kalau nak buat attitude ini macam. I dont have time and patience to tolerate you, not anymore. Okay? Mwahx.
I dont know whats next. We'll see where the wind blows~ bak kata all american rejects. I cant describe how i feel anymore dah because its at the ___________________---------___---__ haaa cmtu ah dia. But it never goes ^^^^^^**********''''''''''''''''''''''. smua selevel ja. I cannot reach that peak yet lah, its something wrong with my <3 meter kot. Fixing! Oooh ada la sorang mamat poyo ni kan, dua orang pulak tu. dua dua dok potpet pasal how much cash they have, wht they have, what they'd buy. sorg muda, sorang tua. And ada hati cakap "siapa jadi gf aku, tak kesah ah aku bawak dia gi shopping kat lv, gucci and prada and for me hermes saja". Dude, kau banyak mana duit, kena kena ke buat statement centu? And yet you complain on not having a gf. Sebab perangai kau kot. And the other one, stop being a spoiled brat la asshole. Gi sembahyang pakai selipar biasa sudey, simpan selipar maahal dalam kete. Dont fuss about it. Both of ya'll should be siblings. Ngam seyh. Ish.
Sorry i cuma geram sebentar. bukan sebab aapa, banyak je kawan i yang modest and humble and lek je walaupun kaya gila babeng. Tak pernah aku jumpa species cam dorang. Mutasi infestasi haha. Its their parent's money anyway, and as for the other one, kau keje but still cara kau show off as if you're one of the Trump's wei. Hahahaha. Get real. Omg apsal aku ni emosi tak habis-habis ni. Period, are you doing this to me?? :( . Wahai orang orang di kuala lumpur, PJ, Selangor dan whoever di lembah kelang, If you guys are gonna be around, calling for some chill sessions kay. Almaklumlah during raaya first few days kan tak ramai orang.
To all my malay muslim friends, Selamat hari raya aidilfitri, Would like to mohon maaf dari hujung kaki hingga hujung rambut and i hope if there's any harsh remarks, pain ive caused, Im sorry from the bottom of my heart, Ampunkan dosaku jugak. Raya ni kita Seri la. Dah tak da dah marah2, dendam2 ni. cun? ok sayaaang korang.
Ps* fix yourself before its too late. pls.
Today sepatutnya pergi ke port dickson. ahhaha. Why dicky whyy. hahaha. So yeah, i was supposed to go but then again waiting for colin to confirm balik, one day trip. PD ada apa leh? Takda apa ma! Haiyaaa. Hari ini ku rasakan seperti hari yang gloomy, mengapa? Mengapa? Hmm. I dont like this feeling. I gotta keep myself occupied dow. Iqaaa mengapaa kau poie arini, ko balik kang jumpe aku straight. THIS IS AN ORDER. chewah. I know u laf me. Muahs.
Frustrating to know kan, we dont get what we need, but usually we always get what we want. I'd prefer need than want. but again, a mixture of both la kan. Some of my friends dah siap booking dah maw clubbing after raya, korang ni, kalau bulan puasa was everyday hahha. The clubs might just go outta business! I'm downloading movies since i cant go watch, bukan cant. Dah lambat time i nak tengok movie and all, besides aritu takut i tertido in the cinema then nanti you mesti cam "siot tol minah ni, aku bawak tgk movie dia tdo lak". So alamatnya, pergi masa i am still wide awake and fresh :) and when im free FREE.
When shall i start doin my work. 1st? 2nd? ummm. Da nak dekat october da siot. Soon habis tahun ni 2010. 10 more years mahathir, 2020 in the house yaaw! I wish i could warp through time and go back to when things were so clean and pure and nice. Before puberty kicked in ah preferably sebab the pad tampon apa segala haram wanita empunya necessities. Rumit la growing old ni. Sigh. Wakluuuu. Lu call wa pagi tadi wa mamai lu marah wa pastu lu hung up wa call balik lu tanya wa soalan bodo ofcourse wa bingit. Lu pandai betol la main api, wa ta suka la lu ceni. Lu cakap lu tanak kawan kan, ok ah tayahh. Wa tak mati la kalau lu takda, lu tak jumpa lepak apa smua wa ok je, lu gi mams jao2 la kalau nak buat attitude ini macam. I dont have time and patience to tolerate you, not anymore. Okay? Mwahx.
I dont know whats next. We'll see where the wind blows~ bak kata all american rejects. I cant describe how i feel anymore dah because its at the ___________________---------___---__ haaa cmtu ah dia. But it never goes ^^^^^^**********''''''''''''''''''''''. smua selevel ja. I cannot reach that peak yet lah, its something wrong with my <3 meter kot. Fixing! Oooh ada la sorang mamat poyo ni kan, dua orang pulak tu. dua dua dok potpet pasal how much cash they have, wht they have, what they'd buy. sorg muda, sorang tua. And ada hati cakap "siapa jadi gf aku, tak kesah ah aku bawak dia gi shopping kat lv, gucci and prada and for me hermes saja". Dude, kau banyak mana duit, kena kena ke buat statement centu? And yet you complain on not having a gf. Sebab perangai kau kot. And the other one, stop being a spoiled brat la asshole. Gi sembahyang pakai selipar biasa sudey, simpan selipar maahal dalam kete. Dont fuss about it. Both of ya'll should be siblings. Ngam seyh. Ish.
Sorry i cuma geram sebentar. bukan sebab aapa, banyak je kawan i yang modest and humble and lek je walaupun kaya gila babeng. Tak pernah aku jumpa species cam dorang. Mutasi infestasi haha. Its their parent's money anyway, and as for the other one, kau keje but still cara kau show off as if you're one of the Trump's wei. Hahahaha. Get real. Omg apsal aku ni emosi tak habis-habis ni. Period, are you doing this to me?? :( . Wahai orang orang di kuala lumpur, PJ, Selangor dan whoever di lembah kelang, If you guys are gonna be around, calling for some chill sessions kay. Almaklumlah during raaya first few days kan tak ramai orang.
To all my malay muslim friends, Selamat hari raya aidilfitri, Would like to mohon maaf dari hujung kaki hingga hujung rambut and i hope if there's any harsh remarks, pain ive caused, Im sorry from the bottom of my heart, Ampunkan dosaku jugak. Raya ni kita Seri la. Dah tak da dah marah2, dendam2 ni. cun? ok sayaaang korang.
Ps* fix yourself before its too late. pls.
18 September 2009
omongan zero.
I dont feel like updating but i just think i need to write some stuff. so here it goes, i dellany may got a fucked up text message by someone who's not even a friend of mine, with weird messages asking me sex related questions. To my prior notice it was 5-6 am in the morning. Yes, SANGAT WHAT THE FUCK. I think its the time when guys get horny or something. No wonder u call me out of the blues earlier on today. Your intentions, number one on my hate list. People like you needs to get sodomized lah , skali pon takpa, janji u rasa. Sadis betol.
Next up, u know u dont have to ask me questions as such because the answer will always be the same. No one. Okay? Haihh. Macam la i ni addict ke apa. I got a new addiction, and its not what you think it is ;) a good one. Hehe. Nanti bila senang i cerita la ye. Kalau i ingat.
So i was labeled as "the girl who celebrates 25th december!" Takleh sedap lagi ke nama, dellany may sounds just fine by me. Seripus is also another nickname given by another friend of mine. Pelik2 je korang ni kasi nama, tk bombastic betul la idea. Hahaha. :P
Malam ni patot lepak, but hujan turun menduyun2. How leh! Tak nice ma sit down under mapley with the cloud spitting on ur skin. Hishkks. Ok lah, i think i got bad headache ni, nak meletup jap kepala. :( I wish someone was here to kasi urut sama saya. Kpala la. Hehe. urut lain? Haipppp. blakang kire.
xxxxxxxxoxo.
-lotsa hugs n love, mua-
Next up, u know u dont have to ask me questions as such because the answer will always be the same. No one. Okay? Haihh. Macam la i ni addict ke apa. I got a new addiction, and its not what you think it is ;) a good one. Hehe. Nanti bila senang i cerita la ye. Kalau i ingat.
So i was labeled as "the girl who celebrates 25th december!" Takleh sedap lagi ke nama, dellany may sounds just fine by me. Seripus is also another nickname given by another friend of mine. Pelik2 je korang ni kasi nama, tk bombastic betul la idea. Hahaha. :P
Malam ni patot lepak, but hujan turun menduyun2. How leh! Tak nice ma sit down under mapley with the cloud spitting on ur skin. Hishkks. Ok lah, i think i got bad headache ni, nak meletup jap kepala. :( I wish someone was here to kasi urut sama saya. Kpala la. Hehe. urut lain? Haipppp. blakang kire.
xxxxxxxxoxo.
-lotsa hugs n love, mua-