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Those times I sat on my bed and cried,
and sobbed my losses, after all I tried,
And you sat by my side and held me tight,
You spoke comforting words to make things right.
When I think of those times of feeling blue...
I remember, I forgot... to say, "Thank You."

Those times I got attitude, doing things on my own,
Feeling overwhelmed, and my stress-level blown.
Shutting you out, to get things done,
Feeling slow-motion, but wanting to run,
And you'd ask to help, asking what to do...
I remember, I forgot... to say, "I need you."

Those times when we'd argue and have our doubts,
We'd criticize, we'd yell, and speak of other whereabouts,
And the clock would heal, and words would mend,
And we'd straighten out the things- we'd bend,
When you?d question my wants, of what to do...
I remember, I forgot... to say, "I want you."

Those times I'd sit and miss you all day,
But when you got home, my mind was astray,
And I'd walk right past you, not even aware
That you felt neglected, like I didn't care,
Taking for granted what I thought you knew...
I remember, I forgot... to say, "I love you."

-xxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo =)

26.11.09

Lets see what to update. im currently trying my luck on sales and yeah, nt making much sales ar kan. takpe lah slow and steady ah kan. Anyway, what can i say. I wanna blog my feelings out since its been a while since ive last blogged la kan. So here now, i sit or stand la kan, expressing the feelings of a not-so-dramatic-woman.

I like to see things in a bigger picture. So some say im paranoid and blablabla. But im not willing to take the risk anymore. Once, twice ? Three times ke berapa ntah is more than enough. So yeah, work is aite, tiring and yes, CHALLENGING. I get to meet all sorts of people and yeah, all sort of karenah and cultures. Humbleness & patience should be PUPUK-ED in everyone's heart. For real. I respect those people for that because not many have the gift of being patience and humble. Where have all these species gone to? Ish.

OMG like seriously, i would love to go to the bloody movies and watch a movie!! Its been a while lah kan. Seriously lama gila kays tak tengok movie. SERIOUSLY. Umm life is so so la skarang ni. I lapar now, dinner tak makan lagi ni. Nak merajuk with someone cuz you were suppose to go dinner with me :( how dare u abuse my perut. Hahah. ESOK PLEASE KOTAKAN JANJI MU. Thanks.

Kenapa sometimes manusia berubah sekelip mata je. I tak suka ar. Cam okay, but so fast ah you change? Damn yo! get the hell away from me then stranger. I shall beransur diri dahulu. Sambung i saban hari. Goodnight and much love baby.

-me.

Hmm

Okay slaaaamat malam ladies and genties. hehe. I am so the PENAT! Phewhh. Bekerja sekarang sementara cuti supaya "new years" ada lui laa nak shiok shiok ma! hahahahahah. Damn i sound so chinese! Thanks to me new workplace! hehe. im working under maxis now, no people i have not left my degree for this job. Im on a contract basis, 2 months only with quite a hefty sum of pay but i guess it covers my expenses for a holiday nanti la kan :) yes yes, i loike.

So, whats new... Umm lotsa stories ar ha, aku skarang takde laptop so currently jarang dah online lah kan, selain itu im doin aite! Life is absolutely gorgeous and sexy now. Selalu ada sexy time with no motherfuckers in my way or in my face :) BAHAGIA i tell you. tentereeeeeeeem hati gwe. I'm currently in the igotaheadacheiwannasleepbuticantbecausebelummandisosomeonepleasehelpmemandikanmehahaokaynotfunny phase. Cene? Ntah la labu's. A woman's gotta do, what a womans gotta do. Hahahha. Dah la ade bad habits nowadays! ish ish.

Gotta buang the tabiat la, not good kan kan kan kan. So anyways, period was so not cool during working hours and i keep on kencing!! Rimas tol ar bladder aku nehhh, time time ceni la tetibe nak kencing slalu kan, nasib baik toilet dekat dow. Kalau tak! Mapuhh la gini. dok? hehe. Period masa i tengah buat kerja, made me wanna curl up in bed or roll on the floor or something with my bantal busuk ( shadap im sure u have something similar to that too ). Perghhhh confirm meleleh. Hahahha.

Ini malam saya mahu titon awal la kan so tak dapat nak update lagi. My friends are majority married, pregnant and expecting and all so then i rasa pelik skit la kan sebab like err, were still young or am i the only one whos on that memory lane??? Umm. Whatever it is, im happy for you guys :D nak jadi god momma. Hahha. I'll be the bad ass godmother. hahahahhaha. But i'll be nice to your kids ;) I think im blinded by mat salleh's and like foreigners lain la kan, smua bapak HOT. CHUP NAK BF/HUSBAND MAT SALLEH !!!!! ahahhaha. See what maxis does to people!! ish ish ish. :P Chup 26 ke 27 nak kahwin la. Selagi i dont have a stable pay and life, im not getting into a commitment. Ever. Setakat teman tapi mesra and calon calon on the way tu, still dalam pertimbangan. Too many jerks & Fuckers & bitches, yet so little time, kan :)

I am always feeling exhausted and tired and worn out tak pasal2. This is bad right? lack of vitamis kot. tapi sebab i stopped taking the multivites kot. Shit la. kena makan balik ni the thing. tertinggal stock kat shah alam la ni tu tak termamam. :(

I NAK TENGOK MOVIE NI :

JENNIFERS BODY
2012
THE FOURTH KIND
PISAU CUKUR
MICHAEL JACKSON
Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs

Siapa boleh rasa dia mahu teman, sila call my number. muahmuah di beri dan peneman dipinta.
Ok i nak mandi coz dah bau tak best dah so anyways okay lah i mandi dulussssss. goodnight malaysia and ldp. hahah.

xoxo.

Ps* Im sorry i didnt answer your calls, its just too soon. Give me time to think. Im sorry.

cencaruts di sebelas malam.

:(

I did all the things
you asked for and more;
Still you ask me to give
and I can't anymore.

I live above ground.
You want to live below;
The taste of life is bitter.
I guess this is the way it goes.

You won't or can't see me.
You are more than blind;
So cruel in word and deed,
are all loves so unkind?

I just don't have the time.
I can't carry this pain;
Surrounding it swallows me.
Wash me in the cleansing rain.

Let the wind dry my heart.
Let me see beyond the glass;
I can never love you.
Let me go.  Let this pass.

How can Love go so wrong?

Folie à deux ?

ehhh fuck la. kau ni annoying macam bangsat tau tak. kimak. do u fucking know you make my life miserable je all this while? yes the faCT that youre nice at times. but was that just a show? gosh. living in denial. buto la wei. two of you can go jahanam for all i care. this is what they call marah kerana alasaan yang diterima kurang memberangsangkan. i mean like korang bukannye busy sangat pun. nak tolong gini dah bising cam pundek. fuck!! so annoyed to even look at both of your fucking faces. PLEASE LA GET OUTTA MY SIGHT.

Supposed to have a study group later at mcd, see lah how en, ade pukimak so baik go and spoil my fucking plans for today. BENCI BENCI BENCI. Argh. Hmm so besides that, ATH 155 killer subject siot. like seriouslyyyy dow. Sinan? Bihzad? persian painters? Wtf? aaaaaaaaa :( save me from this misery. Islamic art, why in the world do we have to learn this subject in detail???????? Ada effect ka? Mmm exactly, NO. I dont even know why i have to take up these islam islam related subjects. Its just so wrong because i do not have the basic and fundamentals in islam apatah lagi bab art dia. Adoi. CANNOT GO BETUL LA! TAK LEH BLAAAA.

Copek la 9th berlalu, im thinking of staying in sa till like, bebile la. Then only balik around 13 gitu. Nasib ar kan, ade aku kesah? Que serra serra jom! I dont get it tau, i mean its our blog, people read and people terasa. I mean dude, u fucking know right... its a goddamn blog. It includes heavy positive or negative emotions in here. And if we bloggers talk shit about this person we like/hate, kalau ade la nama kau dalam blog tu lain cite. But korang2 yang baca ni kan always assume its you as if takde satu hari dalam hidup ni pon yang tak de kene mengena dengan kau. You dont revolve around our world la wei. Well in ma case la kannn, they dont revolve around my world. Ye la, kan this world is full of fucking backstabbing two faced cunts. What to do, sabar je la kan. Yes. Sabar, but for how long? We'll see dellany mayy!!

Uarghh its already 12 pm noon. And ive been up since 8? Kinda early. Slept at 4. Chillax bersama cels and troll. huahahaha. schomels ja. kete dorang hampir kena clam. kurang ajo la pak itam tu. tunjuk boss konon, ko tu guard je kot. takya nak macho2 dengan perot gendott mue splosen kau tu wei. menyampah aku tau. rasa nak je aku tarok emulsion kat muka kau, pastu gune sandpaper. tu pon kalau kau boleh di-ejassssss lagi la muke kau yang annoying cam pantek tu. Im sorry la kay. dellany may has been thru an emo rollercoaster that never seems to stop. Life is indeeed a biiiiiiitch. But make the best outta it, and look on the brighter side of liifeeeeeee :D

Hey.. im confused. Seriously la kan, i dont think its gonna work out. I just dont think so. I mean really, chemistry was there. But i just cant see it anymore. I dont think i can do this. Im sorry. Okay lah chupchup. Study time. Im sleepy and moody. How la how nak study ni. Siotttttt!!!! Argh!! apape je la. Laters.