growing up .

woo! i think ni gambar masa i 1 year old ke 2 years old?
Whatever it is, its my birthday, go shawtyyy its my birthdayyy we gonna party like its ma birthdayyy~

Cik ni, i tak sure katna, genting highlands or cameron. Either or.
I was like.. what.. 5 years old or somethin?

pose maut. ahhaa.

say woooot ?

kadang2 orang berperangai cam pukimak, two faced, u just feel like killing them right? afterall, paling teruk pun hilang species sial cam tu je kan. masuk penjara, blabla. so what? haha. yes the evil mind is havin nasty thoughts on things like that. I dont know lah. Whatever it is, dear evilness please fuck off a.s.a.p, thank you.

Ada ke aku memberi jelingan atau muka seribu muka? Aku terkejut ade la bai. Selain itu, nope. Upset? Maybe. Marah ? Hmm jap je kot. Dont try this at home. Dah nature "good samaritan" sebegitu, so sile la. I dont know what to feel or think of at the moment so i guess ada hikmah why mom wants me back home so soon, padahal alahai. computer dia buat hal, gile takleh tunggu kan? Aduh mak, youre lucky youre my mom. kalo tak, emergency gini dah kena tepok amai-amai dengan aku dah dahi tu.

Sorry if i was being... rather nosy ke apa. I dont think i was, i wasnt the one who came in the picture at first. So let it be. Blagh this all never happened at the first place if you werent there la okay? Thanks for making my life miserable at the moment. THANKS BANYAK BANYAK. Nak di ikutkan hati perasaan, aku sepak je dia kan. Argh stop it dell, this is so not you. Ouch is the word of the day and fuck is for all of you.

My point of view on how this shit ass world of pisau works...

I think people have different reasons why they tikam others. when they want to get back at you for hurting them or disappointing them may it be unconsciously or deliberately. Some do it because they have this anger to the other person but don't have the guts to show him or her or fight face to face. But I think the reason mostly is other people's insecurity. I believe that when a person starts doing bad things to you when you have done nothing to harm them at all, is that they are somehow insecured. I think that they are trying to destroy you because you have something that they envy. And I feel really sorry for those kind of people and I truly hope that they'll find that there's something good about them too. The world will be a much better place to live in without these penikams, Kan?

Cheers, siap ade research ar bende ni. Dahsyat. Whatever WHATEVER AND WHATEVER. :) I need some time to zone out from all this shit, especially exams. My drawings and what not semua? Yikes. Ada kebenaran disebalik itu. Asal dia tak de pon roger. ni buat aku cemas jua! shyte. hope nothing goes wrong. tanak fail :( tanak repeat lukis2 celaka tu. kimak. lancau. ahhh. benci. To the drama's, i wish you'd go to hell. You can if u want to as well.

I NEED A HOLIDAY. SPA. Mummy jom. Aaaaaaa. I wanna go clubbing with the girls. Lantak kau la nak fikir apa. Im still going whether you're in or out. Deals sealed. And kadang i fikir balik, lol. loser gak korang ni kan. Sorang poyo tanak, sorang nak tukar. Pehh, only god knows whats goin on on your side. God bless ya'll.

Aku nak tido sebab aku dah penat fikir abt the big decision tu, nanti i kena discuss dengan mommy pula. So anyways, i shall beransur dahulu, ke kamar untuk zz. Dont wanna stay up with this sort of feeling. black eyed peas tipu i, its not a good night. Sheesh. Dah ah. Gnite love. Mwahs.

love makes you....

I hate the way you drive me mad
And the way my head won't shut
I hate that you can make me glad
And the burning that won't cut

I hate the way you made me fall]
And how myself i found
I hate my ringtone when you call
I hate that stupid sound

I hate the way my heart shivers
The time you call my cell
I hate that thoughts flow like rivers
Inside my head is hell

I hate the way you read my mind
I hate what you make me feel
I hate how I've become this blind
I hate that you are real

I hate it how you stole my pride
I hate that I admit
I hate the way I boil inside
And how my heart you lit

I hate to think that you are small
I hate to think you're not
I hate to think that above all
I might not get a shot

I hate the things you make me do
And how you make me shove
I hate that i do not hate you
I hate it might be love...

kimak sial.

You talk the good talk
You tell what you know,
You think that you have all of the answers
You put on a real good show.

You say not to do something
But you do it the same,
When somebody else does it
You call them out of their name.

You are lacking in areas but yet
You put down someone else,
You need to stop focusing on what I'm doing
Pay attention to yourself.

You need to realize who you are
You will find out sooner than later,
You criticize and you judge
You are a hypocrite and a hater.

Why? Who are you?
Don't walk around like your shit don't stink,
Before you open your mouth
You need to stop and think.

Don't be mad at me because you are mean and
People don't respond well to you,
Think about some of the things that you say and
Some of the things that you do.

There are too many things going on
To be focusing on what I'm doing,
A personality or sense of humor
Should be what you are pursuing.

kebahagiaan yang pelik.

Ladies and gentlemen, rawr! hehe. Exams are coming soon. How la how to face. I tak study apapa lagi ni. this semester is so fucked la. banyak gila draaaaama! haha. Unhealthy ones i mean. Pfft. So here's my current addiction :

chocolates.

bright colors.

ps & ai brushes.

dancing.

singing.

laughing ( gile abnormal ! )

knock you down :) *i think im in like with you*

ohhh itu lah current fetish ku. So whats next? I got one last assignment to do, nak blaja cam susah je now. I plan to finish up my work now!! OOHHHH MY GOD and tau tak, he somehow is being a jerk. tah, tetibe i rasa cam annoying sial mamat tu. Bengong gylaas. Argh. MERIMASKAN. yes. thats the word. clingy? Maybe lah kan. Gosh. Dah dah. Dia bole PMLL. Heheheh. ;) me and my never ending secret codes la kan. hahahha. Biaq pi.

So oklah friends and loveku, i shall beransur pulang dulu, japgi i nak blog balik i blog ler. :) selamat tinggal !