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I'm angry tired and upset , all this negativity is killing me deep down inside.

I need motivation, inspiration and whatever it is i can hold on to right now.

Help?

Hmmmm.

Annoyed and scared because i did something to my brothers pc. Big Uh-Oh. Im sorry.

Dad, for once i wish you were actually there for me as a FATHER.

Mom, stop nagging and saying things i dont wanna hear, they hurt my feelings alot.

Bestfriends, I wish we never had to be so far away from each other.

You, stay the fuck away from me because you're bad for my health.

Me? I need to get all this mess outta my system and get back on track.

End.

Sexy summer grooves~

I didn't get it when he hung up the phone
He said that he's all alone and that's when I heard her moan, I get it
It's not a secret that he's working till late, but then he doesn't come home
And now he's switched off the phone, I get it

Tell me something baby, tell me this ain't true
Tell me something baby, tell me this ain't true
I won't be crying for you no more, baby

The love has gone, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

Where is the love, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

I'm taking back my, my heart from hiss hands
He's got another love so I'm taking a stand
I've stand and watched our, our love drift away
I've looked into his eyes and he had nothing to say

Tell me something baby, tell me this ain't true
Tell me something baby, tell me this ain't true
I won't be crying for you no more, baby

The love has gone, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

Where is the love, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

You had me baby, and now we're through
You've been messin' with my heart and yes you know it's true
I won't sit here waiting, boy you're out of time
Just look into my eyes you must have something to say

I won't be crying for you no more... baby

The love has gone, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

Where is the love, that took me high
Now you've gone and left me, boy you're wasted my time
It's breaking my heart, you know this ain't fair
I deserve better, but you don't even care

kejadian.

ooh ive been facebooking and OMG sangat sangat geram because my memory card is CORRUPTED. Bengong betol lah kan.all the things inside. Gone. Its probably a sign hahaha. Card i corrupt cam cibai la!! MY CONTACT NUMBERS SMUA DALAM TU KOT! WARGH. Geram sungguh. Facebook quizzes are killing me and i cannot tahan going in and ouuttttaa the toilet dah. Ive decided why need some people in ur life if they dont need you kan, so i had to cut it off. For good perhaps. Maybe things will just be less complicated since dia tu cam kasik reasons that makes you feel like "wth???" if youre not sincere about it, then just dont bother la kay. there goes another weird friendship of mine. ATH i tak study agy! Ceneeeehhhhhhh!! :( Help. Someone be my dictionary and ispiration and motivation to keep me up all night long since coffee aint my bestfriend anymore. Sheesh. Aza, i geram kot i cuba call you but tak dapattt. HMMMFT! It was a birthday call tauuu :'( I miss you woman. Wishing i'd have u and myra around for my birthday. How sucky it was, i know you girls always managed to cheer me up. Now i seem like i have nothing to look forward to besides my pillows. I want ya'll around so badly!! Can i have that for my birthday? :( sheesh. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA and myra, i got story i wanna tell u. Ouch gak lah kan, Hmm later i story when i see u online kay. Anyways gtg, study collage and whatnot. Hmmm. Cant wait for my holidays! xoxo, Love you.

Bila tiba satu waktu

Today i feel, down? :) i know its just a phase i have to go thru alone. I know i can do this. I dont need people taking my love for granted anymore.

Bila tiba satu waktu
Takkan ku melupakanmu
Betapa pedih hatiku
Bila kujauh darimu

Jika suatu saat nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Kuharap kau menyadari
Cintaku masih disini

Chorus:
Andai saja, waktu yang tersisa
Berakhir, seindah inginmu
Maafkan diriku
Bila tiba satu waktu

the " ha-pening " life .

Oooooookay i've been offline for sooo long and yes i bet some of you miss me kan kan kan :D chewahhh. Hehhe. Ive been playing this tilik shit, it was super scary and crappy at the same time and i personally think its a good anti-stress thing to do. CARDS. dontcha just love em. Ive been missing you lately i dont know why, maybe it kicked in slow or something.. youre probably happy with someone else now, good for you since u cut connections with me simply by saying *not ready* i assume you will never have the strength to see me. Dont feel guilty dude, nothing to feel dah pun kan, benda dah lepas. I just dont wanna bring back memories. if goodbye was there and then, so be it lah.

Ohmigawwwshness! TAU TAK!! kesatria kan, i dapat c!? celakaasss the damn commander ah baghero. taknak kasi chance tol la dia ni. Hmm hopefully it boost's up to a b atleast, TOLONG AH. Dah la SOC128 today cam ape je. Who the hell has a paper on sunday!? Macam bangang lak kan. I did, on a SUNDAY MORNING! and it sucked big time! social history!?!? Awwwh i sooo dont like the essay part! i mean brahmin kesatria and vaisya and ralph linstadt!? koentjaraningrat!? YOU people are mean philosophers. Sampai hati korang kasi fact anjang nak ingat! Jahat siot! So i left my slr and laptop charger back in baiduri shittos!

Recently i bumped into you, bukan bumped and memang nak jumpa you to catch up on things. you never changed despite the age, bro i think you need to learn to grow up and be more responsible and watch your fucking mouth la kan nextime kalau ye pun u nak maki i. I thank you for your "time" and that was probably the last la kay. Ive started a totally new chapter in life, this time the stories are going to be different. Maybe less on the emotions or maybe more? hhehe maybe more frustrating. I cant wait for my trip to sarawak, Im definitely hangin out with mynn, christianne, jojo, and spencer and urgh so many lah pulak cousins i. I hope to see someone tho during the visiting hours later on :) And most of all i cant wait to see my sumbuk, my dearly beloved nenek yang sexy walaupun tak pakai bra. hahaha. Hot ah diaaa. Old people are fun, hold on nek, im coming back just for you. Just wait for me. I love you! Your daughter too!

Saw my dad, he was with that small kid and another one comin on the way. I felt like ive been stripped down from my royalty of being a girl. DAMN. cuz its a baby girl. I hope la nanti something something happen to it kan, hahahahahaha. Bitch la she. Haihhh gatal pepek tol nak anak lagi. She who i refer to is my dad's ho. But theyre innocent. I swear, someday they'll regret how they made us all suffer. Someday, god is great so i know it. tuhan maha pengasih and maha penyayang.

ATH105 paper lak nanti, camane!! lagi pasrah! lascaux la ape la, all french art history and greek and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! BANYAK gile kot. Dah la after my birthday! Okay i have no plans yet, maybe ada with the family but after that im free to be booked since i wanna rock out my 21st birthday kaw kaw nye sampai i cannot rock and roll anymore. Thats the last i guess, then its time to let go and start fresh! No more hanky panky cuz i aint gettin any younger too, so might as well enjoy life while i still can :D

I shall post updates after my paper! tunggu kemunculanku lepas 5th may ini. xoxo bloggywoggy I love you!