last but not least..

Im gonna remember you, i tried being friends with you, you wouldnt want to, i dont know whats holding you back. whatever lah kay, i'm tired and i feel like i ni macam terhegeh-hegeh of making efforts and hoping and then poof, tah ape jadi. lol. If this means goodbye sampai bila2, then goodbye it is, youre no longer a part of my life anymore and im dealing with it just fine, there will be times when i feel weird sikit but takpa, life is bittersweet! I do miss you so much and all, you know i still love you and i'll always do even as a friend. But if it has to end in here, on the net..pfft what to do la kan! So, if youre reading this, take care always okay and behave ;) I hope you find someone who loves you as much as i do and goodluck in your future undertakings ( betul ke ayat i?) do the best in life, you can succeed if you want to :) work a lil hard but work smart la. And thank you so much sayang for everything, i still owe u something.. alaa P&C la nak ckp sini kan, so yeah. God bless you in everything that you do, my thoughts, love and care will never change and will always be there for you. Goodbye love.

what used to be.. or still is.. or.. i dont know.. :(

my pursuit of happiness.

dont make empty promises again, lies after lies after lies.

make me hate you, please. if you dont love me enough to be with me anymore dah, just go and make me hate you cuz i cant seem to find a reason to hate you...

to whom it may concern.

Im fucking depressed, weak and yes u may think im lame and psychotic or whatever you wanna think of me, i dont care. I love you and i know you do too or atleast i think you do. You know why i wanna try? I told you. I texted you. I need you around to actually do this with me. Please say you'll give it your best sayang. Im doing my best to preserve what we have and im not willing to let go of something so good. Its just not worth all the sacrifice weve made before. please dont go. please think about it, you know we can work it out if we wanted it to.