blurbs.

You know where people always say its better safe than sorry? yeh i once believed that. but sometimes, shit happens. how to be safe but sorry? haaa. tu la dia. I had a back ache after the not so long ride. pffft. but i had fun. Pleasurable moment i must say. ahahaha. Kodak pon takle capture. So anyway, i havent started on my reading or assignments yer, which is rather bad. Distractions and attractions. Chinese new year kan, smua busy usha dragon/singa menari. Hampeh. I should be out taking pictures of chinese new year celebrations tho. Menarik dontcha think? Red tanglongs and red red red. My favourite colour.

Malam ni, well pagi ni i kelaparan. Nak je keluar beli makanan kan, tapi aku takut sial nak gi carpark tu. Dah la gelap. Tapi my perut is having some kinda trance party and its rushing up to my head. I feel masam-masam dah perut nih. Well whatja know, i belum makan dinner. I didnt feel so good tadi, anyway i think i can differentiate love and lust. Its totally a different feeling, after doing some reading ( no experience k ) lust macam, yeah both wanting the same thing,you tend to do something out of our impulse, then the next day, hello stranger. Love? Feels like there's a neverending story to it and it feels special and bare in mind, its awesome. One of the best things in life , Love.

Sometimes i wonder if the guy we love , really loves us for what we are or who we are or basically, what we have. Sure, every guy is different, but when you've gone out with enough of them (and, ahem, we have) you start to see some patterns. Am i just right or whaaaat??? Kan kan kan. Well, i tend to get the same ones. Somewhere somehow mesti ada something yang BERSAMAAN. But naa, boonchness ni so far, doin aaaight. If a relationship feels like too much work after the first month, it'll be 10 times harder a year from now :( HMMM. Harapanku, tidak menjadi begini pada masa akan datang. If i do bring you trouble, leave NOW.

I was browsing for perfumes, lingeries ( hehehe ) and yeah banyak benda lagi. Talked to one of my "friend" tadi hahhaha emo siot dia. Btw, kalau ko baca sorry ar aku tak reply sms kau and if oi oi doesnt work for u, aku malas nak msg dah. Hahahah. Oh noooo, Bunyi azan dah bermula ni, menandakan matahari akan terbit soon! Dont watch the latest underworld. ridiculous gile. I nak tengok bedtime stories, umm what else. Disaster movie ke apa tah. lots more. But as usual, kena la download kan. Hmmmm!! So prices for movie nak naik dah, gimana? International movies harga naik, i'd still watch. Oh well.

Malam ni i think chinese new year is officially not so new to them anymore lah, esok orang start balik kerja and all and WOW. I have tons to do la sebenarnye. Kejap lagi nak keluar dengan darlingsku. I wonder if malam ni jadi ke tak ni keluar, kalau tak haha esok je la keluar. So so sooooo, Shoes, susah benar nak cari my size because im a 10 or 11. Yes big feet. I know. Hmmmmft! i saw an online shop selling x-rated stuff, alamak best siot aku usha, hahahha so newlyweds, be prepared what you might just get from me. Hehehe *evil*. Ive got pimples onma face and it aint cool at all. My face is super duper oily and i feel like a bottle of cooking oil fell on me. Sheesh.

Im gonna go basuh muka now, jap lagi the girls are coming. Hmmmm. Okiedoks. Xoxo my love and sayang oooo sayanggggggggggggg, sayang sayang sayang. hahahha. x)

erk..

petang menjelma, diriku dilanda kebosanan.
Ingin ku menjelajahi dunia ini
Namun,
masih ada sisa hidupku ini untuk dihabiskan.
Perit ku menyelami isi hati seorang lelaki.
Apa, lelaki juga sedemikian?
Ohh hebatnya menjadi si hujan dan si matahari.
Membasahi dan menyinari hidup setiap makhluk ciptaan tuhan ini.
Diriku ingin sekali mengerti erti hidup.
Sia-sia sahaja manusia yang mengambil nyawa dirinya
untuk mengatasi masalah yang masih boleh di selesaikan.
Masalah tidak boleh diselesaikan dengan mengambil nyawamu sendiri oh insan,
tapi dengan masa dan kesabaran,
tuhan saja yang mampu menolong kita...

chup nanti aku ada idea aku mengarut lagi..

Latest addiction = 76, sleeping, Seaweed... I dont know why, i used to hate seaweed when i was a kid.

I dreamt of something stupid. x rated habis dow. Apa la nak jadi dengan aku ni oi hahahaha. semalam i beli this sausage thingy, sedap and besar gila >.< exited i makan, maybe thats when the dream started to get nasty ahhahahaha. I wanna go beli some more! I lapar la actually. Hahahahhahaha. Okeyh. xoxo yo, laters!

Its been a while since ive blogged anything. Well shit happens. I refuse to think about things that just makes me wanna snap so bad. Im frustrated, upset and all. Man, sometimes people just dont think about other people's feelings and sometimes things just dont revolve around you lah kan. Sabar je la. patience is indeed a virtue. I was being careless and stupid till it moved on to another agenda. Sorry, my bad. All i do is trouble people la apa la and this and that, i mean is there even the slightest chance that i make them feel good about me. Pffft. Maybe im being too sensitive, but then again so what, im a human being with flesh and bones. Dont we all feel things?

I hate it kalau orang bisik-bisik depan i, i dont know why macam ada secret la. If so, talk someplace else lah. Being unreasonable and bad mouthing people wont do no good. In my college dulu ada this girl la, she is a fcukin hypocrite and such a two faced backstabbing mothafucka. I admired her and took her as my close friend considering she was someone who i thought i could fit in with, sekepala la kan. Lama-lama kan, i saw her true colors. Despite the fact she was so smart, she also had her "stupid days". I find her weird at first but tu la, semangat setiakawan punye pasal, bedal je la.

As time passes she had issues with me, she was competitive and always looking down on others, bossy and yeah she managed to make everyone hate her, especially me and the other girl whom she had condemn so badly for something that wasnt even a big deal, she had great influence on one of my friends, but taking sides wasnt IN TREND. See, this is what i fear of making and meeting new people, to be precise, friends. I know i have no problem adapting and all but i hate the backstabbing,bitching and all. Kalau nak sangat berbalah mulut, ust dont. Talk properly. God made us all the same with a mouth and a brain, apakata kita sama2 manfaatkan that kurniaan and use it properly. haihhh. I barely have much friends in my class now, Im trying to fit in the crowd and blend in, but the fact is i'll always be different from the majority. Hmmm. Why the fuck am i being so emo!! i guess thats what i am, or i baru tau im like that. Freaky.

Anyway, i saw him the other night. I admit i was exited but tah, maybe upset tak dapat lepak lama-lama ya know. Why is it so hard to see u!!! Geram. I feel so lonely and yeah, thank god my workload is enough to keep my mind off "us". I dont care, im just hoping to see you again reaaaaaaaaaaallll soooon. I miss you so muchhhh la. tahap dewa punya rindu. Rindu singing with you, i miss kacauing you, Miss your xoxo's, your voice. Miss MISS MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Youre my drug and im addicted to you.

Hah, holidays start dah kan, so macam banyak gile kena buat. Study for my slide test. wtf kan. I baru masuk dah mid term break, assignment cam berlambak jer. OMG wei. Seriously banyak sangat dah i punya work, starting it on monday so i can just do whatever i need to and yeah, cuba habis kan soon as possible lah. I wanna go sungai wang or someplace that i can go ambil gambar ke apa. SLR i tak beli lagi, i think i wanna get canon 450 or 400 lah. If not, 1000d will do ke? I dont know. The price range is like 1999-2300 both canon and nikon. I WANT oneee !!! Hmmm ni la, we can never get what we need sometimes but we always get what we want. But i have something i need in my heart already. My rawrness. Hehehe. ok lah i wanna mandi its seriously lammmmbat edi, kena kemas bilik and then i kena do some laundry and makan and then... I dont know? Lol. xoxo!! I love you no matter what boo.

ni two fucks up.

kau ni kan kekadang cam cibai je tau tak. thank god laaaaa shes still here. If she aint, i think i'd be fencing with you in this damn house! pasal remote ko nak kecoh, gile tak matang sial, awek kau dah masuk kepala otak kau jugak ke? bro, pls la grow the fuck up man. Nak mintak la elok2, dont fucking come in my room and start a commotion. WHAT A Good DAY TO START WITH! So semalam i had a looong weird night, oh well takpa shit happens for a reason. Useless gile babi la the line in shah alam. Now im at home la kan, aku dah la tidak bercredit, sungguh perit la hidup dalam ke-poor-an for now. Need to go beli my books and stuff, but where? How? When? Nanti ah fikir. So im going for training later but before that, i need to go and get myself ready and should i go tonight? SHOULD I???? HMmmmm. Takpe, we'll see what happens. chup chup gotta go get the camera from my brother and then wokay! chayokk chayook! assignment time! xoxo and love ya.

ps* sorry i tak reply sesape nye message, credit i habis, and nanti bile i dah menopup i reply. Amacam? loads of love and sorry yang tak message u satu hari suntuk, u pon tak message i. Oh well, laters!