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Hello hello..yes im abit sakai because just realized theres an android app for this so hence im ranting here and there about life in my beloved personal *tak personal sangat la* blog.

Damn shit happens so fast and poof its gonna be one year working with a bank and i love it. I get to meet and greet people all over the globe and its an awesome feeling tbh. Some can be a pain but once you resolve and get to know them? Its more than money can ever express that sweet glorious moment okayy.

So anyway this years highlight will be me officially single and not on the prowl langsung kan not interested. No hanky panky donkey monkey story. In december going to perth for christmas with mom ian and his gf then in february going to langkawi with my colls. Should i go or should i stay in terms of career? We shall see dellany, many years ahead patience and perseverence god will reward you and who knows i can climb up the ladder for a better job offer ey?

Okaaay enough said for now. I shall update more later as its sorta pass my bed time plus migraine is killing me ugh. Azam tahun baru with my girlfriend, KURUSKAN THIS FAT ASS. Haha klabai.

What the flyin xxxx

Omagad..what was i doing..thebfact i could still talk to you? Still be near you? Despite how you treated me? It is a sad case for a girl like me to be wandering with a guy like you because even i know that i deserve better i guess i was just scared to leave you. I compare people to you and its never the same. Bad move right?? I know.

Miserable and unthinkable. Move on woman move on. Keraskan hati anda anang ngirau nama utai tejako orang as long as you dear dell are the most happiest carefree soul. If you dont need me then why am i needing and wanting and missing every bit of u? Get out of my mind my mouth and my emotional heart. Gosh i wish i was hit by a bus or had some damage on my brain so i can forget everything that ever hurt me.

K i need to sleep and stop sounding so pathetic and angry. Ggrrrrr. Goodbye.

Dear whoever the **** you want to be...

After a quite some time, this woman yes me...had a huge recall of bad memoirs..Guess nothing last forever anyway right. After 3 years of being together with such an awesome guy, who turned out to be a freak. I wasted my lifetime effort finding what love really meant and i think yeah it hurts, i cant feel my heartbeat at times but i wish i was strong enough to leave before. Why the heck did i even be nice or stay? I dont really know to be honest. I am a free soul. The fact you can actually say you're bored makes me disgusted to my core and you clearly did not have any thoughts on me, well well...looks like love slapped you hard this time just that the girl isn't me.. 

You literally wasted my freaking time to be honest, if i can love without you before this, i hope and will live without you now. Its going to be a painful thing but i guess calling it quits with you really made things much more simpler, i dont have to worry much about you because i deserve way better than this miserable treatment. How you treat me today, karma will definitely bite you back harder. I believe that god is great reason being is because..not that im trynna act all holy and shit, but the fact that if he closes this door for me, he's going to open a new one and i believe that it's gonna be a good thing.. New year coming up and i dont want to have to be all sad and shitty on that day itself. I have de-tached myself from this fuckery and i feel like fuck now, but with time (bullshit) i will regain all that is lost on fucking text. This proves me that there are still assholes and chivalry is very much dead. The best part is you never knew how much it burns inside with my side of story. Skeletons in my closets are just dying to come out and be alive again, Joke's on you baby.

 I have to be honest tho, i never felt a relieve and part of me being and feeling empty but the fact it wasnt so painful because he was a jerk to all the other girls he dated, and for what? To be honest you're just financially stable and charming, other than that you're no superman. Some girl will sweep you off your feet and your bank account someday and i would say told you so. I am not ashamed to be hurt because thats the risk i took when i took you back before.. Not going to be another time for sure. I'd be a jerk if i did so. For what? So i can be a fucking rebound to you again and runover anytime you want me to? Pffft. NOT ACCEPTABLE. Fuck you for having a "replacement" a cheap one ofcourse..no offence to her but to you and Fuck me for being so silly. Dear dellany please learn to love yourself more next time. Men are just a part of gods creation, dont take them too seriously. If god permits me to be loved, makesure i know whats going good for me. 

So for this period of time i dare say fuck you asshole, and thank you so much for whatever ( we had our good times but this is by far the worst man ive dated, not to mention a hypocrite for saying my ex was an ass.. look who's talking ) I dont think i need to mention names or anything as such but for sure, this ended in a bad way however. So angryyyyyyy. Someday i will reflect on this and think back and laugh. I shall work on my strengths and kick the weakspot out. Youve just lost something so valuable for a temporary fix. Tsk Tsk so shallow of you. Yes im ranting out the feelings here, not that you would give two fucks anymore the only fuck youre gonna give is a pussy. Like literally, a VAGINA. Oh well, life goes on so now onwards love yourself before you start to love others dell. It's about time. Merry christmas all, its not going to be so merry anymore but hey, Jingle jingle~! Once a year baby. Looking forward to the new years. Godbless everyone and putting things aside, i loved you so much honestly before but you had to make blunders, You turn me off -100% infinity. I hope you're happy with the new found love of yours and i call it off with a simple goodbye. If a text message after 3 years can be settled, why not i leave you something to read? ;) stalker! Cry me a river,an ocean go through the 7 wonders of the world punnnn; youre a stranger to me. For the first time i can actually say and proud to not live in denial anymore that i am BORED of you too.

Dear 2013

Dear life,

How have you been my dear blogspot? Haha lama juga tak conteng in here right. So yeah im not much of a blogger you see.....some people ask if i write or rajin blog about a specific thing or interest or whatever; i used to lah until one fine day. More or less i kinda think today is so malang which is 21st january. Time flies and guess what boohoo the big twentylimayearstua strikes 4th may '13. I mean for real, i feel so old. Most of my feiends are either engaged or married. Im not in any pressure though because literally im a broke ass momma who aint got nuff of everythangggg ya digg? Hehe. Well yeah i used to have big dreams of being a scientist. I wonder where all that creativity and spark went. Considering i didnt really have a happy background growing up as a child named..me.

So whats in this year..lets see. Landed a job at astro and im OH SO GLAD i got the job but at the same time im like OH WHAT THE FROG! Why must life be so unfair at times. But tak baik la right to not appreciate what we have kan. 2013 started off kinda okay i suppose. Atleast its january 21st and its the first time in this year that im sick. Damn you hujan. Come again another day will ya? I met a few of my old friends some who i was close with now became total strangers and from strangers to total strangers and from the bubbly to even bubblier or maybe fake at times. I dont know how they do it. Oh well everyone looked good and great and sophisticated. Glad to call them friends kan!

I wonder how are the other people coping up with theor lives i mean mine sucks always not enough cadh je lah kan haaaa mana tak bila sales tak macam meroyan ke meracau those fingers nak swipe here cash here and there. Must control if not how to start a life doe!! Sheesh lah.

Anyway personal life pulak i dont really know where i stand in your life at the moment but if i happen to ever make you feel happy i guess i dont know how to make me happy. You tend to do the whole chipsmore oreo ad in my life lah so whatever it is que serra serra lah. Depressed much? Pffft.

I am going to bed now folks as i shall update more because i didnt know i can blog with my phone. Noob gila sial. L A M E. Oklabai muahmuah love you nitenite <3

cinta eve and kejadians.

Omg, elo blogarians. Its been a while innit? Yes yes. So i have been absolutely doing nothing ever since ive started my holidays. I mean days without classes and uhmm the need to bangun pagi is not a must anymore, i mean i cannot and do not want to continue this habit as for when i start an office hour job later on, its gonna screw my hours up BIG TIME. Papa has been asking me to work with him, i mean... the thought of him paying that much.. YE KE NI. Macam camcamerba je. BLUFF. Uhh, well i am currently trying to find jobs around pj furthest is kl la yang id go to. But if possible somewhere around pj or damansara area would probably help.

I somehow picture myself being jobless, old, homeless and omg all the negative things and it was such a horrifying moment for me because THATS NOT HOW I PLAN ON SPENDING MY LIFE. :\ to work with papa or to not work with papa. Meantime tunggu offer kerja bagus i can help out and earn some cash for work clothes right :D *thinking positive*. Erkk, results are gonna be out end of this month. SCARED SCARED SCARED. Please la jangan repeat anything. PLEASE LAH.

Oh yes, to those who celebrate valentine's day...celebrate lah kalau kau celebrate, kalau tak celebrate pun takpa. Look, doesnt mean that on vday is the one and only day where you treat your partner with full of passion and care and whatever not la kan, you should do it everyday for eff's sake. Where's all the romantic moment of being together sampai ke valentines day you make it one hell of a fuss, then on other days, make it biasa je. No laaaa. dont la like that. To those yang terlampau extreme tu, takpayah la nak condemn orang bukan islam. We dont really have "valentine's day" in the bible. Man i dont think jesus celebrated valentines day. Dont be so racist and look, go gentle on the religion issues la, kita malaysia muhibbah la. Takda makna nak menghina setiap bangsa dan kaum. It aint malaysia if there's no chinese indian and bumiputera's! Peace. Kepada mereka yang baca blog ni, this is a blog, my bloody rights to voice out my thoughts and opinions. Kau tak suka baca, go away. Tak mati also if i write this and voice my opinions. I believe in freedom of speech. hahaha.

Seterusnya, okay this dude from the phone shop tu hasnt called me regarding my berry. I mean for fucks sake, (so angry laaa) why is it taking him two fucking months to fix my damn phone? WTF. Aku bakar kau kang baru tau. Money is money, i pay, i expect good service. Why you no give my good service wahai kedai teleponk. I HATE YOU. Urghh now ive to use ian's bb at the mo'. Samsung galaxy or iphone. Hurmm. Thinking thinking thinking. >.< suggestions?? Blaghhh.

Okay too many things to update, one step at a time. Nanti i write and type it all out. I think most of you know how i release my anger or frustration or happiness. Through writing. Ive also started to get my old hobby back which is writing and reading. Bookworm much? Heeheehee. <3 Okay i shall update soon.


Dear cinta wherever you are, I love you . Please come back with an "hey i love you too" *ponders and waiting with a cute face that would probably make a frog suffer from cardiac arrest because im not cute at all pun* Happy valentine's day to all lovers out there. Jangan buat banyak maksiat. Tuhan tengok. wahahhaah. mwahmwah~