placebo .

" They may also neglect you, disappear from time to time without any care for your feelings, and blame you for their cheating, negative behavior, failures. By the same token, they may even accuse you of encouraging flirtatious behavior from the opposite sex or infidelity because it is a reflection of what they subconsciously want to do or are in the process of already doing. S/he may encourage codependent behavior to discourage abandonment. You are afraid to leave them because you don't feel you can do better, or survive without them."

Nicely put.

Dont .

Hold me close and don't let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don't let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.

terkesima .

I feel your fingers slipping away from me,
The tips of mine are barely holding on.
Latching on tightly to what little I have left,
Clinging  to what first had me drawn.

Your caring ways for someone you barely knew,
Making me laugh just when I thought no one could.
Embracing me without even touching a single part,
Falling in love with you, even when I thought I never should.

You made me feel whole again, like no one else has,
My confidence went to amazing new levels.
Feeling as though no one could bring me down again,
The love I felt no one could take away, not even the devil.

As I sit here now, shedding these tears of unsureness,
Wondering how I went wrong, or where I started losing.
I'm so uncertain about where things will go from here,
Until I know, without a doubt, hoping it's not me your using.

today i dont feel like...

A simple hello or to hear your voice can change a million things .

I told you so .

DILEMMA: "I’m feeling fed up and don’t know what to do or where to turn. I don’t think that I am depressed, but I’ve certainly been feeling increasingly sad over the past few days. I can’t put my finger on the reason behind this melancholic feeling.

However, I do know that I have lost my zest for life. In a nutshell, I think that is the best way to describe it. No one has seemed to notice, because on the surface everything looks fine. I am sure people looking at my life think it’s probably perfect.

Dash berlin - i want to go so badly but mei you qian .

Do i care about what might happen in life ? Naa .

Toil, that is the word I would use to describe my condition now. Toiling all day long, toiling and do not have enough sleep. Toil and toil and I want to sleep, I want to rest, but simply have no time. 'Circumstances' would not allow me to have such 'luck' -- to have a good rest.

I am feeling very sleepy, lethargic and really blaghhh. But I have no time to sleep now. I have no leisure time. I have no time to read newspaper and no time to read books. Most of all I want to snap out of this rut. I realise I am very lucky in life, but I just want to be able to enjoy it more. 

sekian terimakasih .