angry, upset bout so many things today . angin kurang elok, stay the fuxk away from me to those who has issues, bring em later please kalau tak nak kena tiao. Puki ptptn blacklisted me from going outta malaysia because i didnt settle my loan, thing is aku tak kerja lagi kot !!!!! PUNDEK ! ahhhh wait wait waaaaaaaaaaaait wahai ptptn , after the years of you ptptipu-ing me, mampos kau ! URGHHHHHHHHH i wish iwas a billionaire now, settle this . Aku baru 23 and dah hutang govt 3% interest kot time tu . Niaaaaaaaaa senggg!!! maderrrrkkkk ! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck.
okaythanksbye.
18 July 2011
*toot toot* hello ?
HERRO ?Currently changing my song for my blog layout. Yes i wish you were here but i got no sand to dig my toes dear. :) So hello, i think i've left this blog inactive for so long and i think i need to give an update. So, here i am typing my milestones out. Blogs, they're considered personal, and i mean i dont pass people my links and tell "eh read la my blog wei, damn nice" or promote it around. I mean i write whatever i feel like writing. So safe to say i believe in freedom of speech.
Talking about freedom of speech, i wonder why people get offended of things i say in this blog. I mean sometimes its not about you but if you think you can relate yourself to this then, well youve done a good job but sometimes my world doesnt relate around you UNLESS i put your name in it for my own future references just incase i get hit by a bus and lost my mind later on, who knows? Do ya ? Naaa i dont either. Let god decide. Okay enough bull, mari bercerita!
June was intense. Now its already july and happy birthday bestfriend amira ezamshah, i larveee yuuhhhh. Umm been hanging out alot, recently went for my friends birthday party, the girlfriend was sweet enough to plan a huge birthday and it all went well. plus i mean dapat ps3 kot. sial, aku nak jadi boyfriend kau boleh? hahaha. Naah i come in peace. :D So then, internship kah? Umm that one a little bit okay la better than first time semua benda gelabah semacam things fallin down and all and i was just like errr ahahah buat bodo je kan. Lama-lama i got used to it and yeah still gettin used to deadlines yang awesomely ridiculous tho. In the office there's alot of nice people and really supportive and very patient with my grandma like way of doing work and no im not fast at it and it annoys me the most when i cant even do my work according to their time line and im still catching up on things tho. I can do this, yaaa dellany may anda bulleh lar.
Seterusnya, what else ah.... Oh yeah umm this is my last month to do internship and i plan to like, go on for a vacation or a surprise trip. Where? Wouldnt be a surprise if i said it now but well, chill. Not yet not yet. Slooowly :D Well the love life ar, abit hard wei. I dont really know whats been going on lately and im unsure of where it leads me to. Puzzle and maze im stucked in and wonderin if i would be able to crack this like some da vincci code or something would be cool la eh, but the thing is i cant. Sometimes simple things can be complicated and when it happens, i swear i feel like hulk. Suddenly all hijau, hahaha swamp thing or seaweed monster. Okay teringin nak makan sushi since afternoon and seaweed actually. Bahhhhh later la i go feast. Back to the story, i actually wonder kan do guys get annoyed when girls ask them "what are you thinking?" What are guys usually thinking about if they say "nothing" ?
Men have this extraordinary capability of sitting in one position with our minds completely blank, thinking about absolutely nothing. Generally, when we respond like so, we mean it. However, occasionally we might be thinking about something very important to us. Agree ? Plus i think this is reallyyyy realllyyyyyy stupid. As a girl i can honestly say i dont talk in codes much unless i dont want others to understand ke tak la kan But sorry to downgrade your intelligence ke apa. I think i do speak english or any bahasa yang senang faham and believe it or not and its not a "code". If a guy doesnt catch a hint or understand what im saying...then he's either literally deaf or dumb or blind or verbally challenged. Everyone is capable of change, but they have to make the change to their behavior, not the person that has been palat-ed la right. Well to my knight and shining armor i shall sit and wait, wait and see of what might come, come what may. Hahaha belit la cinta. fuck yo ini suda messed up; NEXT UP !
Went shopping recently, online shopping pun ada juga sikit and now, broke sial. Dah my dad give me less than what i expected. Oh no no no daddy, bad daddy. Sigh, cant pow mom. I plan to go but a spectacle frame thats cheap and get my glasses done, because im seriously going blind soon. Hari-hari mengadap laptop why not, rosak la mata aku. My back strained , eyes too. Im going to die soon if i am physically and mentally stressed this way. I cant think out of the box , yes creativity saya terbantut disana sahaja, but i guess i'm getting used to the new way of WORKING IN AN ADVERTISING/EVENT/BLABLA company. Huhuhu. Okay im losing my mind, was supposed to do my work but i melencong. Kejap only la, not long ma i mengular for a while plus its past my bed time already :| sheets. Mom enrolled me, chewah enrolled. Umm yeah in 101 haircare due to the whole hair issue thing. yeah, lets see if it has any difference or not la in a few months time :D simply cant wait to see the results.
I spent the afternoon to the saloon, had a upper body massage, watched harry potter, had an awesome lunch till i am broke, during lunch there was a stranger who sat with me at fridays. Do fridays serve rentboys? Lol. Anyway he was a nice guy, talked on things like life "bersih" education and yes, he left a tissue with his number but i didnt take it because i dont usually do or get this kinda response before but actually pernah just that i was shocked, ahahah :D Okay i think im gonna make a move to my beloved bed :D sleep and rawr rawr with my pillows >.<
I feel so unpretty already u know whyyyyy!! Because ah, i think ive lost my aura. Ive lost touch of how to give my aura out to others, what is it with me alreadyyyy :( sighhhhhhhhhh. OKAY i think this post took me three days or more to finish because either i get sleepy writing or i suddenly have work to do or whatsoever, duno. So im ending it here, because actually got update somemore la.
June was intense. Now its already july and happy birthday bestfriend amira ezamshah, i larveee yuuhhhh. Umm been hanging out alot, recently went for my friends birthday party, the girlfriend was sweet enough to plan a huge birthday and it all went well. plus i mean dapat ps3 kot. sial, aku nak jadi boyfriend kau boleh? hahaha. Naah i come in peace. :D So then, internship kah? Umm that one a little bit okay la better than first time semua benda gelabah semacam things fallin down and all and i was just like errr ahahah buat bodo je kan. Lama-lama i got used to it and yeah still gettin used to deadlines yang awesomely ridiculous tho. In the office there's alot of nice people and really supportive and very patient with my grandma like way of doing work and no im not fast at it and it annoys me the most when i cant even do my work according to their time line and im still catching up on things tho. I can do this, yaaa dellany may anda bulleh lar.
Seterusnya, what else ah.... Oh yeah umm this is my last month to do internship and i plan to like, go on for a vacation or a surprise trip. Where? Wouldnt be a surprise if i said it now but well, chill. Not yet not yet. Slooowly :D Well the love life ar, abit hard wei. I dont really know whats been going on lately and im unsure of where it leads me to. Puzzle and maze im stucked in and wonderin if i would be able to crack this like some da vincci code or something would be cool la eh, but the thing is i cant. Sometimes simple things can be complicated and when it happens, i swear i feel like hulk. Suddenly all hijau, hahaha swamp thing or seaweed monster. Okay teringin nak makan sushi since afternoon and seaweed actually. Bahhhhh later la i go feast. Back to the story, i actually wonder kan do guys get annoyed when girls ask them "what are you thinking?" What are guys usually thinking about if they say "nothing" ?
Men have this extraordinary capability of sitting in one position with our minds completely blank, thinking about absolutely nothing. Generally, when we respond like so, we mean it. However, occasionally we might be thinking about something very important to us. Agree ? Plus i think this is reallyyyy realllyyyyyy stupid. As a girl i can honestly say i dont talk in codes much unless i dont want others to understand ke tak la kan But sorry to downgrade your intelligence ke apa. I think i do speak english or any bahasa yang senang faham and believe it or not and its not a "code". If a guy doesnt catch a hint or understand what im saying...then he's either literally deaf or dumb or blind or verbally challenged. Everyone is capable of change, but they have to make the change to their behavior, not the person that has been palat-ed la right. Well to my knight and shining armor i shall sit and wait, wait and see of what might come, come what may. Hahaha belit la cinta. fuck yo ini suda messed up; NEXT UP !
Went shopping recently, online shopping pun ada juga sikit and now, broke sial. Dah my dad give me less than what i expected. Oh no no no daddy, bad daddy. Sigh, cant pow mom. I plan to go but a spectacle frame thats cheap and get my glasses done, because im seriously going blind soon. Hari-hari mengadap laptop why not, rosak la mata aku. My back strained , eyes too. Im going to die soon if i am physically and mentally stressed this way. I cant think out of the box , yes creativity saya terbantut disana sahaja, but i guess i'm getting used to the new way of WORKING IN AN ADVERTISING/EVENT/BLABLA company. Huhuhu. Okay im losing my mind, was supposed to do my work but i melencong. Kejap only la, not long ma i mengular for a while plus its past my bed time already :| sheets. Mom enrolled me, chewah enrolled. Umm yeah in 101 haircare due to the whole hair issue thing. yeah, lets see if it has any difference or not la in a few months time :D simply cant wait to see the results.
I spent the afternoon to the saloon, had a upper body massage, watched harry potter, had an awesome lunch till i am broke, during lunch there was a stranger who sat with me at fridays. Do fridays serve rentboys? Lol. Anyway he was a nice guy, talked on things like life "bersih" education and yes, he left a tissue with his number but i didnt take it because i dont usually do or get this kinda response before but actually pernah just that i was shocked, ahahah :D Okay i think im gonna make a move to my beloved bed :D sleep and rawr rawr with my pillows >.<
I feel so unpretty already u know whyyyyy!! Because ah, i think ive lost my aura. Ive lost touch of how to give my aura out to others, what is it with me alreadyyyy :( sighhhhhhhhhh. OKAY i think this post took me three days or more to finish because either i get sleepy writing or i suddenly have work to do or whatsoever, duno. So im ending it here, because actually got update somemore la.
24 June 2011
rentetan
hello post how are you ? Life's good at the moment i guess. Started practical and then i'm pretty much learning new things. you know what theres so much to say at the moment so if theres any typo or hyphen i missed sorry. well to kick things off lets start on the blissful events. recently went back to kuching to sarawak, had fun but not really as i was "slapped" by some immature person for no bloody purpose maybe sebab dia kurang aja ke apa i dont know and i dont care. love and romance? you tell me!? -_- and then comes practical where i sangkut at this illustrator part kan, i rasa nak nangis la sebab macam tak reti je buat the ukuran and all. sigh. I felt bodo.
Other than that as day goes by im doing just fine with internship i guess, kena habis kan kerja and all i dont know what am i gonna do. I just feel so stressed out at the moment. Left office with a happy feeling , now i feel like shit. So if shit makes you feel better, shit it is. Cheers. Ni dah after how many days its like 24th of june ni babe. Hahahhahah lapuk sungguh aku dalam blogging ni. Not nice. :) so anyway maybe a month later i sambung my rentetan hati.
Other than that as day goes by im doing just fine with internship i guess, kena habis kan kerja and all i dont know what am i gonna do. I just feel so stressed out at the moment. Left office with a happy feeling , now i feel like shit. So if shit makes you feel better, shit it is. Cheers. Ni dah after how many days its like 24th of june ni babe. Hahahhahah lapuk sungguh aku dalam blogging ni. Not nice. :) so anyway maybe a month later i sambung my rentetan hati.
10 May 2011
hello !
I have totally given up hope on most things in life especially my studies now la kan sebab i macam dah malas and totally out of shape to step and snap back to reality. I wanna be the person who will be able to succeed and all but shit, through this hardship? WEI PENAT WEI. Sigh, let alone physically abusing myself. EMOtionally and mentally challenged i must say. Now im physically sick and yeahhhh lama gila tak mencarut in this blog of mine. Nadai ngawa, here i am today to update you on my life. Well, some of my friends are already getting married and yet i wonder how old am i gonna be when i get married hahahah. 40 ? 30? Anything as long as i go euro trip and do one fine crazy thing and then, hello husband i'm ready to be called wifey! huhu.
And this very nice month of may was awesome. Friends celebrated my birthday at cocobanana, thanks afiah ryn and the guys. Most of all you <3 thanks for the whole exciting month and experience youve given me throughout our relationship. I really appreciate it. Its true when they say love comes and go, but for some reason i think ours might just be there to stay. Hmmm. Or atleast i think la it stays. Dont be manchal la then i'm cool with it. Im starting internship in june, till august, then a month off i was thinking of lazying around the place. for the mean time. Maybe go see you :) catch up on things. Pfft im a sucker for love , no? haha you guessed it. Presents for my birthday?? Nothing much. Basically its one mighty fine alcoholic incident with my friends and my DAD. Damn now i party with my dad. Erkk, dont you love me anymore pa to let me get fuckin wasted infront of you :| sigh . me is scared. LOL. The whole overprotective father of mine has now turned into "wanna drink? drink up!".
Apa lagi, yes major i dont know if i failed or i didnt, and about the exam for ATH i dont know if i was actually barred or not for the examinations. We'll see next semester. How dare they bar us students. Pffft. I mean i did the work and submitted all the assignments, but give me a break. Graphic Design wasnt in my field at all before this. It was only a GIST. BOOHOO dell. Now my chest hurts like rasa macam nak meletup je my dada ni, dont know why la but yes, sakit sungguh tidak terkata. Too much cloud i guess. Probably because i caught the sickness from iqa. :( not nice. Someone come jaga me a.s.a.p hurmmsssss. Ne dubby ow :\
Hello there, i wonder what you're doing. Its been a while i haven't wrote in this blog of mine. I kinda miss you. Were so far apart, maybe hours if we fly, days or months if i swim or sail. Sigh. I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you do your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. Spare me another life because i think im suffocating. Im so messed up atm. Why does the dudes out there seems so fragile and fixable yet when you hold them, its already broken and waiting to be glued. Well maybe the saying was right ay? If its broken, just let it break. Tell me something i dont know. YIKES.
Well okay i mencarut next time, gotta lipat baju and then head home to klang where my cage awaits this beast. sebab tak kemas lagi punya pasal. I sooo need to change the sheets. Totally yuck. Hahahhaa. xxxx
much love,
thepersonwhosnosesedangmengalirdenganhinguscairandpekat.
And this very nice month of may was awesome. Friends celebrated my birthday at cocobanana, thanks afiah ryn and the guys. Most of all you <3 thanks for the whole exciting month and experience youve given me throughout our relationship. I really appreciate it. Its true when they say love comes and go, but for some reason i think ours might just be there to stay. Hmmm. Or atleast i think la it stays. Dont be manchal la then i'm cool with it. Im starting internship in june, till august, then a month off i was thinking of lazying around the place. for the mean time. Maybe go see you :) catch up on things. Pfft im a sucker for love , no? haha you guessed it. Presents for my birthday?? Nothing much. Basically its one mighty fine alcoholic incident with my friends and my DAD. Damn now i party with my dad. Erkk, dont you love me anymore pa to let me get fuckin wasted infront of you :| sigh . me is scared. LOL. The whole overprotective father of mine has now turned into "wanna drink? drink up!".
Apa lagi, yes major i dont know if i failed or i didnt, and about the exam for ATH i dont know if i was actually barred or not for the examinations. We'll see next semester. How dare they bar us students. Pffft. I mean i did the work and submitted all the assignments, but give me a break. Graphic Design wasnt in my field at all before this. It was only a GIST. BOOHOO dell. Now my chest hurts like rasa macam nak meletup je my dada ni, dont know why la but yes, sakit sungguh tidak terkata. Too much cloud i guess. Probably because i caught the sickness from iqa. :( not nice. Someone come jaga me a.s.a.p hurmmsssss. Ne dubby ow :\
Hello there, i wonder what you're doing. Its been a while i haven't wrote in this blog of mine. I kinda miss you. Were so far apart, maybe hours if we fly, days or months if i swim or sail. Sigh. I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you do your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. Spare me another life because i think im suffocating. Im so messed up atm. Why does the dudes out there seems so fragile and fixable yet when you hold them, its already broken and waiting to be glued. Well maybe the saying was right ay? If its broken, just let it break. Tell me something i dont know. YIKES.
Well okay i mencarut next time, gotta lipat baju and then head home to klang where my cage awaits this beast. sebab tak kemas lagi punya pasal. I sooo need to change the sheets. Totally yuck. Hahahhaa. xxxx
much love,
thepersonwhosnosesedangmengalirdenganhinguscairandpekat.