Speak up baby. Speak up.

Kristina DeBarge- Speak Up.

Speak up, your silence is killing me
I’ve had enough, baby speak up
Are you lovin’ or hatin’ me?
Cuz I can never tell
I’ll be the first to admit it
Been silent for a minute
Thinking like damn is he feeling me
We fell in love took a second
But now I’m always checking
Cuz I never hear you say what you really think

Some days I feel it then I feel it’s over
Some days were harder then some days were colder
When you open up, our love is alive
But now you’re quiet and I’m dying inside

So baby speak up
Cuz your silence is killing me
I’ve had enough, baby speak up
Are you lovin’ or hatin’ me
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
Just let your heart say what you can’t say (speak up)
Let your heart say what you won’t say (speak up)
Don’t let the silence tear us away
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
If you don’t speak up

I don’t know where you’ve been
But nothing’s making sense, I’m standing on this fence for you
And even when you’re here, somehow you disappear
If I can read your mind, I’d know just what to do

Some days I feel it then I feel it’s over
Some days were harder then some days were colder
When you open up, our love is alive
And now you’re quiet and I’m dying inside

So baby speak up
Cuz your silence is killing me
I’ve had enough, baby speak up
Are you lovin’ or hatin’ me
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
Just let your heart say what you can’t say (speak up)
Let your heart say what you won’t say (speak up)
Don’t let the silence tear us away
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
Speak up

I’ll be out the door before the sun comes up
Boy catch me if you can while I’m pumping that clutch
(Try) Try to be the one, (I) gave it all I got
(I’m) Giving you your last chance (if you don’t speak up)
Say all the words that you never said, oh
Write all the letters that I never read, oh
Show me your words or the love is dead
Just want to hear it from you

First to admit it, been silent for a minute
Thinking like damn is he feeling me
We fell in love, took a second
But you about to wreck it,
Cuz I never hear you say what you really mean

Baby speak up, cuz your silence is killing me
(your silence is killin’ me)
I’ve had enough, baby speak up
Are you lovin’ or hatin’ me
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
Just let your heart say what you can’t say (speak up)
Let your heart say what you won’t say (speak up)
Don’t let the silence tear us away
Cuz I can never tell, I can never tell
Speak up
If you don’t speak up
Open up your mouth cuz baby I’m listenin’

** Before its too late , sigh.

I miss you. I think thats the word thats buggin me. ALOT. I dont know why, but i just do. I wasnt mad at you at all, i just felt weird after the awkward silence. Ish. Mengganggu ketenteraman right this feeling. I finished almost 2, one more to go, then submit all the shit tomorrow lah. penat je aku buat semua kalau kena reject gak aku sumpah aku tampar dia ngan alpha paint nih. dah la mahal and painting cam jimbet. SO WOMAN PLEASE BE A NICE WOMAN. ahhaha. currently diggin st12's songs. soulful and yes im in a jiwang mode. Ive neeverrr felt so lonely before, and i cried this morning. Plus i haf issues with mum and dad. Why ya'll had to be so complicated ha. Ish. God, please be nice. I will try to be nice :( hmm. bengap betol la my day today. I didnt go to class today, woke up late. First time. Pffft. And i think i need someone to pamper me. I dont think i haf a dad anymore, he's gone for good and it brings tears to my eyes when i heard the news. He's not dead. Just, a totally different man, not someone whom i can call dad anymore. I just feel like i wanna cry so badly. I dont have motivation and support. My besties are there for me and thank you gurls. and my aunt. I love you guys. Thanks. Aku tak sanggup lagi la nak face this world. My friends got deans list in, and it sucks to see them gettin it. I used to be at that stage before. WHAT HAPPENED DELLANY MAY? Someone push me harder please, my self motivation doesnt work. Argh. I'd better get back to work.

Kepada Executive,
TERIMA KASEII BANYAK BANYAK KERANA MEMBERI PERTOLONGAN CEMAS ITU !!

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeish. I should go out clubbing, partying, gettin it low like my cousin advised me to, i need to get my drink on and let lose. Hahaha. Jom ah, midnight train sebijik. Huahahaha. Bukan dosa pon, or puasa kan? puasa tidak berniat la ni. Haihh. Tidak apa. cheers di malam minggu. Oi jijah, bile kite nak webcam party ni? LETS do IT A.S.A.P!! NEED to LOSE CONTROL Like old days, remember? Wish you were here with me baby. We'd stay up all night. sober ke tak lain cite. But mannn, i wish you were here. Sigh.

Gotta bounce, workload callin.
Muahmuahmuah.
♥ you, wherever you are.

xoxo.

pening, today jumpe merol for sahur.. well bukan la sahur kan, and yer r terima kasey r for the teh o ice. and i owe u a... sketch book. HHAHahha. u baca ni memang ar, lu action dgn wa ar skang. Remember , i ngan yatt nak belasah u kalau u tak tunaikan janji. And today, a new friend was made. pelik sungguh tapi benar. Welcome newcomer, ahaha harap anda tak freak out dengan tingkah laku saya. So anyway, i think kan, i sakit badan and my muscles are aching so badly after futsal and squash. Squahhhhhh tuh buat saya sakit badan la, the warming up session and training cam apa je !!?!?! Kaki bully la that rafidzal ke razali ke apapa ah name dia. Ganu dude. comel je dengar dia ckp2 dengan his friends la but he is soo cheeky. ahahah dah ar suara serak2 basah cam tak kuat lak tu, and short. lol. but he's aite. cuma kaki buli ar. and aritu main futsal kan, i langgar la si azim la, syamil la, i raasa i bodycontact cam main wrestling and sepak bolaaaa selalu sebelah tiang gol. cam pukek tau tak. geram. but its a goooooood work out, tak gi mos lak lepas tu. hahaha. the music was aaaaite. i enjoyed every beat of it la, but it wasnt that fun cuz i didnt haf a dancing partner, girl or boy tapi yang jenis totally melayan takde dowh. plus muscle aku kejang so nak gelek melek kang tergolek lak. ahhaha. erk was home at shah alam the whole day tadi , well separuh ah, tukar sheets, kasi clean and clear my room, pergh brhabuk cam gampangsss. dah ok skit la kot. less rimas now. umm selain itu, i ade sketch my 20 sketches, thanks to merol, but i buat la jugak 4 kan!!!! so fair enough. aaaaa nanti aku edit balik k jimbet! aku mmg tabik spring la wahai executive! ahahahah. fuuuyoh. jealous aku. ahahahahah. takpe takpe someday !! director! huhu. Hope i murah rezeki la nanti. :) banyakkkknye keje nak buattt help help i cant stop procrastinating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh daddy, mana janji manis mu? saya menunggu hujan timpa dalam bank acc saya tapi tak timpa timpa lagi ni camanaeeeeee. anak kesayangan sudah sub-zero ni. aaaaaa. Oh somehow, i rasa cam i rindu dia, but its just wrong to miss him kan. I KNOW! hahaha. Miss as in miss kena kacau pagi buta dengan message mengarut. lol. stupid la.

SAYA d-ello-may akan bergerak untuk memajukan diri untuk keluarga (chewah) sebab aku nk siapkan keje aku la ni. banyak sangat. hampeh. ok then toodles! muahmuahmuah!!

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sometimes people can be soooo good at pretending and yeah, i think i dealt with that like, last year. just not over it yet because the fact it happened like "in yo face" kinda way kan. I am so tired. I had classes from 8-1o then 2-5 then had squash till 7 then 10-1130 had futsal, then poof cocok langit lak,and all this happened semalam. I wore a simple top and yes thank god i pakai flats. i think i want to resize my boobs because theyre annoyingly big. I tak suka la kan because i know it causes unwanted attractions. ishh. so eaaa, semalam was sober club hopping. borneo? dodgy laa the band, hari2 main lagu sama je coz one of my friend's friend works there. so yeah, saje melepet sana. pfft. i haf so much to do, and now im contemplating to balik damansara ke tak. dah la korang puase lepas ni, kalau aku terasa na makan cene. sapa la nak lepak dengan aku nanti, i dont mind fasting together but still, 'its just one of those days". ehhe.

Aaaaa, i nak ckp apa lagi. Oh yea, ignorance is a bliss and i think you're starting to believe that which i think is good. its better if we be that way kan? Sigh. I dont know ah, i myself think being in an open relationship is better than to be stucked with a commitment that youre unsure of. but then again, why bother being in an open relationship when what u do to others is just the same as what u do for your significant other? i think thats just wrong la kan. Setakat scandal ke, kekasih separuh masa, just be single and go mingle around dow.

Slept at 730 kot, ke 6? i tak ingat r. anyhu, i was talkin to fidose and sorry dow i fell asleep la dude. I slept with my fingers on the keyboard. I bangun2 tengok ade QWDSFDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ahhaahaha wtf right. just too tired. and dehydrated gylaa babs. so the banyakkkk hunks smalam dow, but smua cak kimak je perangai. Guys at clubs? Nehi nehi mujkoooo nehi. Mereka adalah jenis kekasih separuh masa dan mungkin separuh bogel if you know what i mean ;) hahaha.

Makkk aiiiihhhhhhh i dah ngantok gyla ni. weekends i will be spamming shah alam. Mummyyy bring me food ke apa ke, anak kesayangan u ni dah hampir pokai. sedih nii. im gonna rest first and sleep ke whatever, its my time to shine bak kate shasha. ahahhaha. esok puasa yay! malam ni to go out or not to go out. Hmmmm. PUZZLED. Takpe la, whatever it is, saya mau zzzzzz dulu, anything you folks hit me on ma telefon bersel ye. ahahha.

xoxo,
i love me.

kejadian 4am ++

At 5:17am, i baru habis talking malking dengan si "bedah" tu. Hahahha mengarut ye u bedah! hahahahaha bontot itu sungguh manis! Yeah!! It was awkward and yes you were a bit deaf la. Bukan abit but i think ALOT. Why la why. Hahahahah. Telephone u rosak, go repair cepat2 kay. House phone tu i ampunkan je. :P I nak tido la now. Ngantok and i got a mild headache dah ni :( tak sukaaa la. Esok kelas 8.30 - 1.00 Graphic communication then 2-4.50 photography II then 5.30- 7 squash! Yikes. Confirm flat tros after that! Mummyyyy pick me up for this weekend please, gwe mau pulang! tapi ga mau pulang malam minggukkk!!

People!! This friday is officially a day to rest and relax! and to crash and burn! i need a holiday, someone willing to go on a holiday with me? hahhaahha. Genting pon ok! Sigh!! I'd better go to bed now. Muahmuahmuah. Wake me up when november ends ( sebab time tu i dah habis exam ) ahahah. Love ya!

-delly-