hello hello .

being all pijak kepala by some people is not cool at all. let alone to have your life being controlled by people's opinion. no, those things are meant to make you stronger kan but if too much i think boleh mati la kan. Being too "idontgiveafuck-ish" or maybe blinded by the whole "sabar" word at MOST of the time can seriously break me lah. Bukan ape, i am patient la kan unless if you get on my last nerves, i dont wanna see your fucking face again. But what makes me not able to strike dow. i dont know. why am i just so fuckin soft when it comes to things like this?? Nggak ada jawapan untuk diriku, apatah lagi untuk kalian. I mean my whole life kan, it consist of bad and negative impacts, no doubt it all has made me wiser, but then when the whole regret shit starts to kick in and all, time tu la aku dah start mengenang nasib. Im thankful for shit that happened to me, if not i wouldn't be where i am today la kan.. still figuring where i should be tho.

This is like a pointless blog im doin here, but bare with me folks. im just stating out what i feel. Sometimes i wonder what friends are. I shouldn't be questioning this, but pernah tak you felt betrayed ke apa ke before this. Seriously kan, kadang-kadang aku fed up sial dapat kawan cam pantat. birdbrain berlagak cam bagus, but the fact that they're fucked up deep down inside, denial is the word that explains it all. we all live in denial kan. bipolar disorder ke schizophrenia ke. sukati kau la nak cakap apa kan. i dont suffer from those, but i think some people do, they just dont realize it :). ahahaha. i think that'll be a good informative speech now for my BEL innit? Well it should be. I dont like the whole uitm thinggamajigga at the mo' coz they rescheduled my whole effing  timetable and now its all scattered. i mean wtf, kalau camtu baik tayahhhh ade online registration, ni smua SANGAT DIKESALI OLEH RAMAI PIHAK. kimak tol. i mean have a proper system for crying out loud, tau la fees murah takyah la gampang gini. adoiai. Dah la i cannot get along with the class people, i mean frok my previous group kan ada like.. 5 of us je kot. wtf kan? URGH. Geram. Can i pls tukar group? Me no likeyy me group

And one more thing, i mean u dont have the balls to face me like a man, i dont know why. Biar lah. you wanted a "change" kan. Did you even change a bit? hahah. Dont la make me laugh wei. God bless you je lah. Time is tickin yo, time to think abt your future. Didnt i say dont make any contact? Although i saw you a couple of times already but you didnt realize *phewhh* I dont know, i just buat bodoh la and sumpah my friends were like omg omg omg. But wtf right, ive got better things to do than reminiscing on something painful and devastating. 2009 and below was fucked. Im saying hello to 2010 ! so it means goodbye to you and everything and everyone else! Imma live ma life the way i should and if you dont like it, its cool. Fuck you :) betul cakap kau rupert, kalau mati pon, mati sorang kan. I tend to be fickle minded at times, indecisive and what kills me the most, being stucked in the middle or stucked with no jalan keluar. Hmm kelemahan 101. ahaha.

Okay chup, nanti esok ke something i sambung balik because as for now i gotta roll. Got work to do and i gotta go dinner yo. Assignment dah bertambah pulak dah kan, lepas tu skarang ni laptop takdeee WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Bencisss. Hmm. Gotta practice me mandarin tho ;) hihihi. xoxo! love love ya'll.

Ps* stop stalking me la ;)