poiuytrewq.

days go by and finally aku dapat la boran dengan jijah. sooo hard to catch her online! i miss you already. so much to catch up and yes, people i think i need a long break. Thnk god holidays nak dekat but siot la got so much work to do. My emosi kurang stabil lately and i find it so hard to open my eyes. Fuck. Some say im too garang, am i ? I dont think so. I need to get used to this whole being not nice thingy, its kinda making me feel like there's something wrong with me like.. ada something else forcing me to be someone else. Argh. But dell, psycho diri anda, ini untuk kebaikan diri anda. Hehehe. Umm okay, lets see, the other post, yeah i was mad haritu but it wont stay for long, just need time to forget and cleanse my heart, lecturer saya cakap, to be beautiful u must have a clean heart. time to have one ay? Throw this hatred anger bitterness away. I hope and wish everyone for a healthy and wealthy easy life ahead. I soo need a vacation actually. Sayang will you take me on vacation ?? :( please? hehe. We'll go vacation once i see you okay. mwaxh. lamanya tak jumpa you, gile rindu. although you sound so geeky when you laugh but still, ahhahaha. I like. And i made a conclusion that when we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. Thats what i mean yaw! ampun if im being so philosophical at the mo'. Heheh. So i feel pathetic and awkward at 6:03pm because m dead bored and no one's home. Argh. Smua busy je :( apa niii. Tak cool at all lah. Hmm.

Weekends schedule might be packed. Melaka or genting, i decide dulu. Budget haram betol. i dont know lah what i need to do dah. I know what to do ah but still, letih sial ceni. hari2 fikir keje. Bila nak hbs belajaaa ni. PENAT PENAAT. ok lah i wanna find something to do. Laters.

xoxo and muahmuah!~