Dear 2013

Dear life,

How have you been my dear blogspot? Haha lama juga tak conteng in here right. So yeah im not much of a blogger you see.....some people ask if i write or rajin blog about a specific thing or interest or whatever; i used to lah until one fine day. More or less i kinda think today is so malang which is 21st january. Time flies and guess what boohoo the big twentylimayearstua strikes 4th may '13. I mean for real, i feel so old. Most of my feiends are either engaged or married. Im not in any pressure though because literally im a broke ass momma who aint got nuff of everythangggg ya digg? Hehe. Well yeah i used to have big dreams of being a scientist. I wonder where all that creativity and spark went. Considering i didnt really have a happy background growing up as a child named..me.

So whats in this year..lets see. Landed a job at astro and im OH SO GLAD i got the job but at the same time im like OH WHAT THE FROG! Why must life be so unfair at times. But tak baik la right to not appreciate what we have kan. 2013 started off kinda okay i suppose. Atleast its january 21st and its the first time in this year that im sick. Damn you hujan. Come again another day will ya? I met a few of my old friends some who i was close with now became total strangers and from strangers to total strangers and from the bubbly to even bubblier or maybe fake at times. I dont know how they do it. Oh well everyone looked good and great and sophisticated. Glad to call them friends kan!

I wonder how are the other people coping up with theor lives i mean mine sucks always not enough cadh je lah kan haaaa mana tak bila sales tak macam meroyan ke meracau those fingers nak swipe here cash here and there. Must control if not how to start a life doe!! Sheesh lah.

Anyway personal life pulak i dont really know where i stand in your life at the moment but if i happen to ever make you feel happy i guess i dont know how to make me happy. You tend to do the whole chipsmore oreo ad in my life lah so whatever it is que serra serra lah. Depressed much? Pffft.

I am going to bed now folks as i shall update more because i didnt know i can blog with my phone. Noob gila sial. L A M E. Oklabai muahmuah love you nitenite <3

cinta eve and kejadians.

Omg, elo blogarians. Its been a while innit? Yes yes. So i have been absolutely doing nothing ever since ive started my holidays. I mean days without classes and uhmm the need to bangun pagi is not a must anymore, i mean i cannot and do not want to continue this habit as for when i start an office hour job later on, its gonna screw my hours up BIG TIME. Papa has been asking me to work with him, i mean... the thought of him paying that much.. YE KE NI. Macam camcamerba je. BLUFF. Uhh, well i am currently trying to find jobs around pj furthest is kl la yang id go to. But if possible somewhere around pj or damansara area would probably help.

I somehow picture myself being jobless, old, homeless and omg all the negative things and it was such a horrifying moment for me because THATS NOT HOW I PLAN ON SPENDING MY LIFE. :\ to work with papa or to not work with papa. Meantime tunggu offer kerja bagus i can help out and earn some cash for work clothes right :D *thinking positive*. Erkk, results are gonna be out end of this month. SCARED SCARED SCARED. Please la jangan repeat anything. PLEASE LAH.

Oh yes, to those who celebrate valentine's day...celebrate lah kalau kau celebrate, kalau tak celebrate pun takpa. Look, doesnt mean that on vday is the one and only day where you treat your partner with full of passion and care and whatever not la kan, you should do it everyday for eff's sake. Where's all the romantic moment of being together sampai ke valentines day you make it one hell of a fuss, then on other days, make it biasa je. No laaaa. dont la like that. To those yang terlampau extreme tu, takpayah la nak condemn orang bukan islam. We dont really have "valentine's day" in the bible. Man i dont think jesus celebrated valentines day. Dont be so racist and look, go gentle on the religion issues la, kita malaysia muhibbah la. Takda makna nak menghina setiap bangsa dan kaum. It aint malaysia if there's no chinese indian and bumiputera's! Peace. Kepada mereka yang baca blog ni, this is a blog, my bloody rights to voice out my thoughts and opinions. Kau tak suka baca, go away. Tak mati also if i write this and voice my opinions. I believe in freedom of speech. hahaha.

Seterusnya, okay this dude from the phone shop tu hasnt called me regarding my berry. I mean for fucks sake, (so angry laaa) why is it taking him two fucking months to fix my damn phone? WTF. Aku bakar kau kang baru tau. Money is money, i pay, i expect good service. Why you no give my good service wahai kedai teleponk. I HATE YOU. Urghh now ive to use ian's bb at the mo'. Samsung galaxy or iphone. Hurmm. Thinking thinking thinking. >.< suggestions?? Blaghhh.

Okay too many things to update, one step at a time. Nanti i write and type it all out. I think most of you know how i release my anger or frustration or happiness. Through writing. Ive also started to get my old hobby back which is writing and reading. Bookworm much? Heeheehee. <3 Okay i shall update soon.


Dear cinta wherever you are, I love you . Please come back with an "hey i love you too" *ponders and waiting with a cute face that would probably make a frog suffer from cardiac arrest because im not cute at all pun* Happy valentine's day to all lovers out there. Jangan buat banyak maksiat. Tuhan tengok. wahahhaah. mwahmwah~

time .

I need time i mean this time fore REAL. TIME FLIES and im like WUTTAFORK. Its okay dellany, embrace yourself. Hahahahaawfuckmylife. No ideas crossed my mind walau dah diseru, man im just not meant to do graphic design i guess. WHY LOSING HOPE AT THIS TIME OF THE YEAR? I was driving earlier today and i was like, ohhh life look at everyone doing well and look at you, boohoo. fcukmylife. I snapped back to reality and i should be more cautious on things i plan now. All is done, there is nothing to say. Jury? White man, my lecturers and touche to the marks. Im no great designer but please la faham, this is oh so impossible to digest. Falling falling falling mayday mayday, HOUSTON i need WHITNEY! not. Okay starting to talk crap all the way la now? No.

I have had a restless week, waiting and thinking, finally after a whole day of good rest and cursing someone on facebook because of their status published "oh sakitnya period pain". TU pun nak post? Fine , facebook kau. But kesian la, you update almost every fucking minute. Haiseyh, fb addict betul. Im always on fb, but im not there. Get it? Hahahaha. Either im on my assignments or im out or SLEEPING. Bukan mengignore pun. No intentions wahai friends. Uhm my month has come so all doubts have been erased. Amen.

Uhmm pickin up some pinoy language because im catching up on my marimar series. Seriously they're fuckin pretty and awesome like im about to melt when they start speaking or singing. The good looking ones ofcourse. Ive always had a pinoy fetish i guess. Last was the guy who worked at TGIF, i practically stalked him every weekend, only one fine weekend tu he wasnt there anymore. What happened? Deported back to philippines? Dang. Ikau ay kaya guwapo! na miss kita. Hahahah i forgot your name tho. Pffft. REBECCA BLACK ke the person who sang the friday song?! a n n o y i n g ~ Pfft anyway, degree show on monday, whats the verdict? Im gonna let you know. CHAYOK DELLANY MAY YOU ARE ONE IN A MILLION

T.T <------ as if.

much love,
damsel in distress.

seribu ampun dipohon because of my broken language. Ive been trying to speak proper correct bm without stuttering. and sorry if my bm also half cut. I think i shall shutthefrontdoor! hahaha. peace~

Oh its like that now huh ?

I know you did  it, simply because YOU DID and this time kantoi BIG TIME . Keeping the skeletons in the closet now . Its okay I hope you find peace in doing so . Because if i find those skeletons one of the bone structure might just fly in your eye or throat for all i care :) I shall do what i do best, ignore . Two can play this dirty game . Touche bitch . Bug off lah , im on my way to inner peace , dont expect me to see you anywhere near me soon <3 I have a gut full of hate before, now? Pass that dutttccchhhh~ Fuck you and goodbye .

2012: New everything for me. New room New life New NEW NEW NEW !

Well lets just say 2011 was one hell of a dramatic moment for me and i was up and down the bumpy road. But guess what? It doesnt matter. Ive loved you for a thousand years life, but you never fail on me. YET. so i take this oppurtunity to thank god for everything and especially thank god for making my life better in times of trouble. I forgive those who have done wrong and i beg for forgiveness to those who ive done wrong to. now were zero to hero's no? :)

There is someone who i truly miss. So much. But i guess i feel like denying it because yeah, i would rather live a lie than to live something that im not even certain that its even there. It feels like it was just yesterday that january 2011 kicked in, but hey its already 2012 and what are your newyear resolutions friends? Mine is rather cliche la but yeah, who doesnt wish for a good and prosperous new year? Ofcourselah everyone does kan.

Yes, this year i have lost and gained a few friends, saw new colours of life, had a deep thought on everything in this world that never crossed my mind. Ive made alot of mistakes along the way, but that is what that made me wiser and stronger than usual today, thank god for that. Its always fate that tentukan everything for us in this world. Can we change it? Well people say you can adjust the destiny, but i think everything, and i mean EVERYTHING happens for a reason. If my life was a book, i think it'll be like a dummy for losers la, but i have faith in myself, when i breakdown and cry and on my weakest point in life, i know there'll always be a greener sunnier and brighter side of the dark hollow city of destruction.

So ohohoho semalam had a crazy trip to ipoh one day trip je lah sottttt ! I think maybe later on when im all up for work in the carrier life, i wanna pay off my debts from ptptipu and get myself a good car. As long as its within my means of paying la, also have to look at my salary tho :( Pffft. Its so weird looking at my friends who are working already and like oh okay, what do you do ? "naa im working" and im like oh, im still in uni. Please la taknak repeat my semester already pleaaaaaaase. Ive never repeated any and i dont wish to repeat any of those. Wasting time saja kan?? Its JANUARY DELL, WORK IT MA~

So, i gotta say i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally adore someone for the courage and all to be so expressive or "repulsive or impulsive" but deep down inside i think im starting to develop this feeling which is kinda like a glitch, come to think about it its just a phase right? I mean everyone gets butterflies at their tummy and then suddenly those butterflies just wanna make u puke and all you wanna do is get a can of ridsect and psssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhtttttt "mampus kau ramama~". I dont know. I think its just; Another Phase of Lovebug 101.

ahahahhahah typo's 2011