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Hi i feel like i have no friends and yes, no friends lah padahal smua ada je kat sini . saja rasa gedik, sik boleh ka? pfft . au la, oklabai ~

the sixteen 0 five capsule with a gist of rakanmuda.

No matter how tight you were in class and what not the fact is if youre in deep shit, youre in it alone. Real friends are suppose to be with you like till whenever. Not ignore you and be all oops not my problem. Well see here's something i hate having "friends" like that. When they need a favour then suddenly you're the closest and the only living thing on earth they could talk to, but when you count on em for a favour, all they do is shrug and be invisible. Fuck that.

No more will i tolerate shits from fucks like you. I've had it. yes im very upset now. because i feel all alone and lonely. I dont know why, maybe im pulling myself away from this small clique of mine, not that i hate you guys but somehow i feel the hate from ya'll. Except a few tho, thank god there are still nice kind people. UNLIKE you, snobbish conniving bitch. I asked you a simple question ya'll pushed me around here and there like you know nothing. Fucking selfish innit? Tak kemana pun cik kak oi knowledge tu, kalau mati esok pun, ha sana je la knowledge kau tu. Apa dosa ke nak share your knowledge with others? Sheesh. Kemut, pantat kuning they call it in kamus dewan bahasa, yes for kedekut. Pantat kuning. Kau ada? Ofcourse kau ada. Waaah so Yes, i called you a bitch because you are turning to be one. No lain kali you expect me to help you out, i'll CONSIDER. Yes, jangan kau nak buat palat sangat dengan aku. Baik kau dengan aku, 10x baik aku dengan kau. Buat jahat dengan aku, aku tak buat apapa sebab kau memang tak wujud dalam dunia aku dah. Samji ? Bhaz.

Okay :) think positive, look good to feel good dellany these creeps wont stop till youre down low. So akhir cerita ini, saya maafkan kamu semua yang telah memalatkan hidup saya. Lupa? Ambil masa lo. Okay lah. Goodbye dunia.

I think i have a sickness, its called imissyousomuchitwouldbenicetohearfromyousoon : (
sekianthanksbai.

1605 almost reaching day two .

Nervous ? Worried ? Yea. Why havent you called or text me. Urghh :( i hope everything's okay. I'll be here waiting like dash berlin said waiiiiiitingggg. Yes dell, wait.

1605 QH Day 1.

I dont like this, will i keep blogging the days i sit and wonder about the what if's and why and will it ever kinda questions? DELL you think too much. Yes i know i hear that all the time. I cant help it, its like an involuntary action that suddenly has a play button on autohit click. Well while keeping myself busy with whatever i can get my hands on,will i still think and think and wonder and blog? Well yeah i think i shall.

Anyway, hello reader. yeah i am not feeling well. Yesterday i witnessed something funny yet i wasnt in the mood sangat la but well, was fun looking at them doing things like that. hehehe. Im like having a bad phlegm now, fever and yes i lost my voice. You cooked me a soup that warms my soul. Just another day, nothing's any good. I miss you. ALOT. I have another 180 days or maybe less aint that right? Urgh. Will i disappoint my future if i stayed , i had so much to do i have to carry on. I wonder if this grief will ever be gone, will it ever go. Time will tell, dellany may you are a strong wonderful woman. You can graduate on time and you will not let anything get in your way of holding a degree in your own hands with your own sweat. You will be somebody someday. YES YES YES. *prep talk aint my thing, but i gotta do it :] sorry if it seems cocky or so.*

Much love from the first day when it hit my head you're...gone,
Dellany May.

Sarcasm Orgasm.

Dont spell the word out like im too stupid to understand.

Dont make things obvious when it is clearly not the things i wanna hear.

I feel like a mosquito flying around you and yeah mosquito's annoy people dont they? My voice is annoying to you? OKAY.

Dont play games with me. I am not in the mood anymore to deal with it.

Things were fine, hey why ruin my day by killing me with my pet peeves?

You think i have no feelings? Think again. More than you do ofcourse.

What i hate the most is this feeling inside me, sleepless useless and whatever___ with a less at the back.

I work 2 weeks or 3 weeks straight a month, you got an issue with that? I dont. Fine, im lifeless. Im boring. Confession made. Now u wanna rub it to my face by not making me feel better? "I love it so much, im starting to tear already".

My patience can only take so much. So im sucking this up and yeah...Goodnight.