resah .

I thought so , the things that was in my premonition happened . I dont like it . As much as i'd love to live in denial now it just doesnt seem like a good idea to do anything at the moment .

You promised me a rose garden , and im so waiting for the roses . Dont let me down . If you're not a man of words, then drop it right now la kan. I dont want any false hope. So i know how this all ends and i hope it all ends well . Sigh , i hate love . And why the hell is it always raining !! not metaphorically la but seriously sky!? I hate driving in the rain kot . ISHNESS . By the way baby, i miss you . <3

Assignments and shits melampaui batas keghairahan jari dan otakku . Redah je . Barred for a subject ? Mo man tai . Cuba settle if not, next semester i'd have to chew on liberal studies if theres none .

Chop chop gotta go , klang is hollering my name and yes, Shah alam; time to study, mandi and all . No malas malas please dello . <3 <3

huh

what am i suppose to feel or how am i suppose to react .

Act a fool ? Maybe .

Saja cari pasal ? Malas .

Aku ada . Kau ada ? Apakah ?

Kalut at the moment but please understand this . I will not bow my head or mend my heart if it all falls down .
I've got a strong feeling it wont be a good sign . God have mercy . Amen .

Back to my assignments .
-love you.

ze ze ze ze blablabla ze .

i need a vacation . it feels like my world is falling apart . i'm tearing it up slowly ke, someone tearing it up for me ni . damn confused . Aigh , well damzell in distress is gonna hit the bed , i gotta be all ikea-ish tomorrow . Lotsa love yaw !~ xx -dell.

I think ive lost it . Should i try to find it or just biar je ? Thinking about it la . hehehe . Goodnight .

History .

Dear jerk/prick/idiot/bastard,

You're calling me ,pretended nothing happened before and you yet dare to see and talk to me . WOW . What mighty balls you have there my friend , i'm not your fucking laundromat so leave me alone and fuck off . You're a worthless stupid dumb fuck bloody bastard , prick son of a b*&^% . Well yeah, damn you've hurt me before , im not gonna let it happen again . Enough la , you were never good for me and you know what; for the times i was down, you practically shrugged me off your shoulders like dust . Im not doing revenge but doesnt it just taste like...your own medicine and oh perhaps a gist of karma in your fucking spine . I know you're stalking this , here's one big ass FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER , my life was way better without you before and it has been better ever since the day you said goodbye . I deserve seomeone waaaay better than you , and diss me all you like honey, you're only mad because you cant have someone to accept all your nasty ways of loving, the lies, the abuse and yeah , i feel sorry for you . I felt sorry for myself for letting myself be the object of your love and to be abused as such  . WHAT WAS I THINKING? I dont know , I forgive but i cannot forget or atleast i know it'll take time to forget . I wish you well in life now , for the sins and goodness in life lets call it dutch . It was NOT fun seeing you just now and i admit i am angered by your ways , do you have to be sarcastic and make that dickface of yours depan girlfriend kau and depan aku and kawan aku ni ? OMG if i only knew that you were friends with my other friends i wouldnt bother going at ALL . Sorry zsa, i didn't mean to chao like that . Will make it up to you soon ya :) . Back to the madness, Then when you're alone with me you're some saint-sorry ? You ruined everything in life for me, if you were really nice and all and if only i wasnt naive i bet i wouldnt be where i am right now . Bro Hello, its 2011, grow the fuck up la please . I've moved on , so did you . I dont want to hear your apologies anymore or explanations about what had happened and all . Just shut up and stop right there . Ha, if its sorry you're asking for , done . Thats it , diampun. Now go away run along . I dont need you in my life anymore . Fuck what a bad day to start off with . I dont need to justify myself anymore . I'm done ranting .


Who wrote this with so much emotions bottled up inside ,
Dellany May anak Ungin .

Feelings . Awak ada ?

Dear you , I'm hurt . Ive eyebags the size of niagra falls , probably could cause a flood if i continued boohoohoo-ing for a few more days . Sheesh . Im sorry . Im just so weak and lame . I know right ? :)


Didn't know i was funny . I love you so muchehehehhehhe . Funny; FIN . OUCH


How would you feel if the only thing in life you wanna run to and make them the first to know about everything, makes you feel like the last thing on earth they'd want to hear from ? Geez . I dont know . Oh wait , Ouch .


Im scarred for life . Its not easy for me to open up to things i don't like talking about . What have i done wrong ? Or ; Where did we go wrong ? Or am i just having one of those delusional psychogirlfriend moments ? Get a grip dell . Ouch abit only .


Ouch ouch ouch and billions of ouch . AKAI !


I wanna cry but i dont think there's any tear left . Good la kot , if i go blind would you still love me ? Thinking twice; i dont think so . No more tears ala-ala baby johnnson shampoo .




Stop this shit dellany . You're stronger than this . What happened to you . Get the fuck up and fight bitch .
*inner voices chanting* ~ L O S E R ! L O S E R !




I shall vow , since i was dump'ed before by the ex's and the ex's that ive dump'ed . this is for all of you la . Not just ex ke apa . Wa speaking in general la . Listen up bitches .




We must learn to love the fool in us the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries before we fall for the other fools .


I love you so much and i dont know what to decide anymore . It's in your hands . You seem wise enough to make the decision . I cant and do not want to decide . If you read this send a text to me with this code "ouch". :) take care. ILYSFMWD


<3 xxx