POIUYTR? backword hentam keyboard.

waaaaaa. period. period dan period. aku benci kau. ahahahah. hmmm well ok la i subur and i love you for being subur. ohh yea harini aku sungguh annoyed seperti biasa la, ngam merdeka, ngam aku dapat perio dow. sial tak. pfft. i am goin out with myra and iqa and ain today to berbuka and menembak rusa. ahha no la take pictures lah at the park memane park la kan. then nak lepak jap before i balik. tonight seriously hardcore mode on la kay. who's in ? ;) time to work it baby. cannot procrastinate dah. i know my post have been quite "negative" or may i say, cross. I had issues i had to deal with, now i feel like, naa i dont think i need those shit in my life. like em old saying tells us, dont make them your prioroty, when they only make you as their option. i dont know, my mood nowadays ni dah hybridize tahap dewi ok. i cry, get mad and go loco at any given day and second. tengah dalam kegilaan right now, sakit kepala gila vavi to be precise. banyak gila keje. camni la hidup graphic designer, mati katak aku. chayok chayok everybody!! ahahha. emmm nak makan and im hungryyy. semalam celebrated kat nz aku nye merdeka, tu pon x plan ok. drove back to bsd, was like 20 mins ke apa. agak laju u can say. maybe aku bawak kete cam gile kot. aahahha. peace peace. :D ummm i long to see your face again, please come see me soon. i miss you already ;( come tau !! i tunggu ! xoxo. ok lah i nak siap2, go run sum errands and then good to go ah. But sebelum tuuu i nak gi beli pad sebab pookness is redness and splashness down there gettin so wetness. ahahah. cheers babies.

chalo betteyyh and bobbeyhs!

what do you do when you get so angry and annoyed ? You blog.

Sometimes kan i rasa macam orang ni pandai betul make use of us. like when theyre lonely, needy, pastu tetibe muncul buat baik buat cam angel mane tah, then the next day chalo bette! i mean hello. korang ni apa , split personality ke ? kalau dah jahat tu, jahat je ah. takya buat baik ok. ni na marah niiii. and uyesss, the relationship status, i dont know whats up with it, rather complicated for now. sigh. i always need assurance, but you never gave me the assurance you were gonna stay and be there fo'sho. so ofcourse la sape tak rasa cam pelik jer kan. if u pon,u can get freaked out kot! wah, so the lapar now. slept over iqa's jes coz i couldnt balik masuk gate dean malas nk jalan masuk, konon nak balik pagi kan ahahahah end up waking up in the afternoon. her family is so baik especially her mom, ahaha comel gile. myra myra apa kau buat ni oi. i miss u already dah la kau nak balik dah kat sana, bila masa aku nak spend time dengan u lagi ni. aih. dont make me cry again ok.

i'm off to kl now for some super-sexy-time ( amek gambar + buka puasa ). Hopefully i boley la kan cope with the massive traffic nanti, i taknak balik lambat ! benci. Argh. Anything ya'll holla back. Assignment callin ma name.

Dont .

merdeka plans? none. why? broke. dad, do ur part. im pist off as hell bout the family issue that has been goin around eversince u left and u know what, it bites. it really does. why'd you have to be such a jerk lah. gosh, then again maybe the theory of "lelaki semua sama" REALLY DOES EXIST. Prove me wrong la, its happening all over the world. But then again, perempuan pon. Humans are so full of imperfections yet when god created us, we were just flawless. i guess the imperfections comes from ourself la kan. buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih, but some people buang yang jernih, konon nak cari yang lagi jernih. kepala hangguk kau. be thankul je k. Fuck man, sometimes i think im being too nice till orang pijak me and yeah, fuck you for all the hurt you caused and time wasted. it was never worth my time or yours. i wish i could zap all this memories out. friends, some friends are the ones that'll be true to you and knows you inside out and some just use you for their own benefits. love? lets just not go there. I dont know whats wrong with me or you for all these years. left me all alone, i blame myself for making me what i am today, but partly i blame you. you never actually cared, you never gave a damn on things i tell you, eg. hows my day, who i fought with, i hate life. you werent there. Its just painful to lose someone who you thought u can trust, share and care for. dad, you were my role model. living without u back then was like eating without food. i waited for you to come back. but i guess that will never ever happen. now i think youre just a complete stranger. Because of you, i'm afraid to love someone because i fear that they might leave me someday. I just think you're so full of shit, reasons, lies and what is so hard to tell the truth? no point beating behind the bushes right. if u actually cared before, you'd be honest since the beginning. same goes to those orang kat luar tuh, honesty is the best policy. stop living in denial. stop your motherfucking reasons and lies. you're making the process of going to hell bertambah laju. Stop stop and stop, ok ? I hate liars, i hate fucked up people. Fuck fuck and fuck all of you motherfuckin idiots out there who are irresponsible, poyo blagak bagus, birdbrain, reason-creating-24/7-lying-cunt. Hate is a strong word, but i guess you people deserve more than that.

-mad woman on the lose-

I cried. I was just living in denial .

Feeling lost without him
Feeling empty to
I used to be my daddy's girl
This I know was true.
Now that we have split apart
Gone our separate ways
I pray to God each night
To bring us back together someday.
Yet I fear this is impossible
Not right now anyway.
I still hold out hope
To be my daddy's girl again someday.
Yet still all I can say is,
I'm feeling lost without him
Feeling empty too
Dear God I’m still praying
Please oh please to help me get through.

For someone, somewhat, somewhere.

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