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first of all i dont know why i havent been updating my blog. maybe was busy or something, no la. laptop takde satu, now dah ade dah, thank god. aman tenteram hidup aku ni. so anyway, the story goes like this, this past few weeks have been inevitably stupid and ridonkkkculously cacat. got my paycheck already and yes, felt good. went shopping with echa a.k.a cartoon ehhe. a new nickname for her ya. been hangin out with some new people. not exactly new, but new. this i dont know ah, pelik sikit situasi dia. boleh bla? not so. Menarik? abit. Fucked up? Kinda. You see, nothing positive pun happen selain paycheck, tu pun kena tolak2 my fee's bills and what not. BORING. dah la macam haram je nak tunggu que kat bank islam semalam gaaraa2 nak bayar my fee's. Gosh. apekajadahhhnye la korang punye machine tu takle accept new notes. UPDATE IT PLEASE. Shah alam o shah alam. Nuts.

Went to mos semalam, not bad but as usual, SAKIT KAKI. Pastu kan, ade mamat ni muka cam perogol bersiri, fuckin scary ka it was a friggin chocoboy that got burnt down in a fire with a perverted face and a dick he cant keep in his pants. Seriously, fuck off man, kau bajet kau handsome ke nak "be friends" dengan accent kau tu yang cam pukek. Eww. Oh yes and previously went to gypsy changkat to celebrate the diva's birthday. She's so pretty, macam doll okay, fucking comel and hot. rawr. Okay no la aku bukan bi dow. I'd go bro's over ho's. but in terms of sistaaa hoood, ma ho's comes first bro's.

Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give u a baby. Give her a house, she will give u a home. Give her groceries, she will give u a meal. Give her a smile n she will give u her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if u give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit. That was from a friend of mine who circulated the whole statement thing on fb, i like it tho shera. creative and awesomely true. but too bad guys arent aware of this, no? ;) So seterusnya, ha banyak aku nka update tapi sumpah malas. umm, okay valentines day, i fucking hate it. 

One more thing,  

If you think im head over heels for you, think again. Its just a phase, everybody goes through it. If i dont talk or reply your messages anymore there's only one reason for that and its not the credit yang takda, its because i dont wanna have anything to do with you ever. I think after what happened malam semalam tu was like really really fucked up okay,we should just leave before something bad happens. You're fucked up more than i think you were. Lies? Gosh, go ahead and keep up the good work cuz it aint working anymore. Go la mane2 you nak and janji i dont see your face ever again, if i do, forgive me if i tak tegur you. I just feel ashamed to actually have a friend who's a total loser and doesnt know what they want in life. There, enough said. :) Last but not least, bye.

Recently i have been constantly thinking of what to do or say if i was in their situation, but to come and think of it, its a fuckin waste of my effing time. kan? baik aku lepak buat keje sendiri lepak2, and chillax. Ooh plug laptop i ni celaka, one by one rosak sial. pukitiaw betul. Melayang 150. Shopping! i still want those forever 21 nye heels. sexayyh. Nanti la i gi sana carik, hampagas betol. Hmm, next door neighbour getting hotter and gorgeous, ***** hihi. but bagus la nice to talk to although kadang2 agak weird. but i like the way you macam malu but macho at the same time. :) i still owe you dinner for the sketches tho. aiyayay. Oh well. Woooo wait a minute, i didnt study french at all la sial, mati la like this. HUARGH. :( lauzhe sure tempias2 kang. Aiseyhman. Benci gile do.

OK la, i nak kena study for mandarin. despite only having 2 hours of sleep. fuck im so sleepy, i shall go and bercanda seorng diri first. then head for mandarin class and maybe balik rumah tido ke apa. Okies. Till then, laters love.

** the one in italic font, was for someone who's been a sengal for the past few days la kan, so please and please jangan sibuk nak tau. I rasa kalau u shiok sendiri and have issues, text my phone terus la ok? malas nak berdolak dalih, its my fucking blog so i can write whatever i want la. tak suka baca, jangan baca, ok? dah gi mati. this post was for someone whom i recently lepak-ed with, so kalau lain2 tu nak feeling lebih, kau memang tak bijak. sekian. i nak mandi and hunt for my laptop plug. wtf kan. sigh. ;) laters!

:(

Words of a lifetime come through and through my mind
I often confirm with my heart to help give me a sign
And when I met you, yes, I knew you were mine
Because of the way you stared at me when you looked into my eyes

Words of a lifetime come through and through my soul
My heart let in the new and let go of the old
I've become a new woman with her withers re-sown 
Time to stop being afraid of being accident-prone

Time to get on my feet and start a new life
A life where I could become a wife
Time to not be afraid of what the future might bring
To let love in and not fly away with the breeze

I need to learn how to trust
How to stop taking things for granted
How to be inside of another
I can't go on feeling so insecure

When you know you love me and I love you
And love is the key to see us through
I have some issues I have to handle within me
And if can't handle them, then words are all we can ever be.

oh snap.

Apa lagi alasan nak kau beri
Setelah diri ku di simbah hinaan
Tergamam ku seketika
Tak sangka ini jadi nya
Nampak sangat ku seorang
Bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kemanakah
Hendak aku selindungkan
Air muka yang kau malu kan

Malam ini janggal ku rasakan
Sendiri melalui detik yang sedih
Perit sekali
Pertama kali bagi ku
Hitung bintang seorang diri
Dan pertama kali jua
Maruah ini di persenda
Oleh insan yang ku cinta
Oleh insan yang ku sayang
Kini bermusuhan

Jika ku imbas kisah lama
Semua nya indah semua
Pernah jua kau menangis
Bila aku menduga mu
Kuat nya kasih mu
Pada aku
Di ketika itu

Sayang seribu kali sayang
Akhirnya kecundang jua
Kasih yang lama terjalin
Mudah sungguh kasih mu
Berpaling
Dan yang lebih menyedihkan lagi
Aku bagai ditampar
Oleh bahasa mu
Yang tak sepatut nya

Engkau ucapkan
Kau menyinta kerna apa
Kau menyayang ada makna
Kau berubah ada penyebab nya

Malam ini janggal ku rasakan
Sendiri melalui detik yang sedih
Perit sekali
Pertama kali bagi ku
Hitung bintang seorang diri
Dan pertama kali jua
Maruah ini dipersenda
Oleh insan yang ku cinta
Oleh insan yang ku sayang
Kini bermusuhan... 

** i dont care lah, you started it. now im finishing it. Goodbye past. Sigh, why'd you have to be such a moron.

urgh.argh.ergh.

I am so super dooooooooper marah and geram and in a bad mood now, i dont know why. Like i snap so easily i get twitchy and bitchy and fidgeting tak pasal2. Seolah-olah retard yang marah kan, i know. Urgh i dont know what the fuck is wrong lately. The whole arson attack, class macam sial, and laptop rosak and gaji tak mai lagi. pressure betul. ONE MORE THING, I HATE EMPTY PROMISES. SUMPAH BENCI. I mean if you cant kotakan janji then dont la say anything right. And another thing, semalam some random fucker added me on facebook, so aku add je la kan, tak pasal2 wa ckp lu, dia perangai cam puki sial.bole marh wa pasal x kasi salam. i mean fuck, salah ke, aku x kenal and aku tak boleh cakap ASSAMUALAIKUM LA MANGKUK. ko ingat smua org dalam dunia ni islam ke. fucking racist fuck la u. anyway, bole marah i x say hello ke apa, n nak buat it as an issue. kepala kote dia la. kimak. i mean i just said, who is this? and he started to grew ovaries in his tempat kencing dah ke? fuck la dia tu. bajeeeeet dia hot and handsome, pehh aku cakap kau, jalan tar lagi cantik, the sewer lagi best. THATS HOW MUCH YOU ANNOY ME YOU RACIST FUCK. So, you're gone from my list, thank god. Vamoose! Currently addicted to bad romance punya song. Senang cerita i never liked lady gaga's song's. Now melekat. I LOVE. Hahahaha. Will be dancing my nights away, this semester gotta buck up la kan. I always say the same thing but fuck la. Today hari curses sedunia. Some dude questioned me on ONS-one night stand. And im like, no man, i dont believe in those shit. fuck buddies ke apa ke lancau kejadah. Butoh la, fucking waste of time la kot. Sex is a need according to him, okay fine some people have NEEDS la kan, i mean kalau tak fuck sehari tak boleh ke? sebulan? setahun? just wait la if ur lucky enough to get laid then good for u. Pfft wtf man, dont argue with me on ONS, ONS=STD okay bitch ? Learn those Letters well before you start askin girls to give ya head. Dungu punya jantan. Gatal telo soh ah akak kat LHT tu isappp kote kau sampai kecut. Ha puas nafsu ko setahun ke sebulan ke god knows man. Gosh. Get a fucking life pls. Perve. Urghhhhh. I mean i think some things and people are sexy, but to the extend of asking random chicks to give you an ons its like, wtf are girls to you guys nowadays? toys? Blowdolls? holes that moans? volcanoes? Omg. palat tol.

Today, i came across a shocking text, i mean it was rather random and shocking to hear from her. The ex's new chenta. I seriously have nothing against u dulu ke skarang ke tahun depan ke apapa la babe. I mean betul, sumpah takda. But the fact i cannot terima is how he dealt with the situation. coward. useless. tak berperikemanusiaan. Thats all. no decency to look me in the eye and talk to me like how a man should. Maybe he's confused and lost, but deciding without my consent & poof a new girl in town, OUCH jugak la, because we promised to tell each other. he kep it a secret. of course i felt loathed after finding out while i was still having something with him he was already with you. I didnt expect it at all. He wanted me to hate him, he didnt have to do it that way. Any woman in my situation would freak out. I surely experienced a near death experience, heart attack.  I wanted to leave him long time ago, but he made me stay and hope for unforeseen things. I stayed & hoped. Working hard to get us closer blablablabla. What did i get in return? he left me feeling like shit, if i didnt call you at the first place, i bet it would end up as a fuckin sms break right ? Dont make me laugh la. Youre like olderrrr than me, cant u think wisely? So immature la. Ish. apaaaa daaaa aku boleyyy suke kat kau eh. Haih. I didnt get any of the promises you made, hopes and dreams shattered, and me? used and abused. I dont mind la, as long as i know youve found a better person who can love you and nurture you, god bless you..:) agak terkilan and burnt by your words till now, but new year, new book. Goodbye you, goodbye tragedy. I dont want to know anything about you or have anything to do with you sudah. What you've done to me is unforgettable. Forgiven tho ;) im not such a cold hearted bitch .

Ini sangat palat, this blog was actually being done around 3 something, but hehehe. abang i so happen to be in the room asking me to download this and that fix this and that. PEning kepala jugak la kan. LOL. So anyyywayy, uni sucks, life sucked but getting better, its cool yo. :) live life to the fullest ! cheers ! Ahh drama rama rama ni,

[ Dear woman, stop using my name in vain because im not close to you and no i dont like the fact that your mom calls me and sms me asking about you when i dont know who or where the fuck youre at, so please understand... ive got copyrights for my name. so if u wanna use, let me know. But this is just bullshit. SUKAHATI PUKI kau je nak guna nama aku kan, nak aku sumpah pepek kau berbau ? Haaa, stop using my name. OK ? THANKS. ]

kemarahan sebentar saahaaaaaja. :D Pardon my post today. its rather full of hate anger sadness and a lil kick of optimistic if there's any. I just dont really feel like im in the mood for anything at the moment. Sigh. Not cool at all ay? Humm. Oh well, i shall drown this negativity out on a jog or perhaps a loooong shower. chunnnn. xoxo readers. i looove ya'll.

-me-

Sunday January 17, 2010

Nazri: Wrong to say civil court can’t decide on issue

KUALA KANGSAR: The Islamic Development Department is wrong to say there cannot be two sets of laws and rules to deal with the “Allah” controversy.
Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department Datuk Seri Mohamed Nazri Aziz said Malaysia had both Syariah and civil court.
“If that’s the case, we might as well close down the Syariah (courts) and use civil (courts) only,” he said yesterday after attending a Ponggal festival.
Nazri argued that if Jakim director-general Datuk Wan Mohamad Sheikh Abdul Aziz wanted Christians from east Malaysia to respect the culture and norms of Muslims in the peninsula, which had enactments barring non-Muslims from using the word “Allah”, he should respect east Malaysians who use the word “Allah” in their church.
He was responding to Wan Mohamed’s statement in a report in an online news portal yesterday.
Nazri, who is also the de-facto Law Minister, said he was merely saying what has been the norm for years.
Asked whether the Government was worried about repercussions from Sabahans and Sarawakians, Nazri said there was no law in the two states which barred the use of the word “Allah” by non-Muslims.”
“In the peninsula, however, where the Sultans are the head of religion in their state, there are such enactments.”
In George Town, DAP chairman Karpal Singh described as “illogical” Nazri’s view that only Christians in Sabah and Sarawak be allowed to use the word “Allah”.
“The use of the word should be allowed throughout Malaysia. Until the High Court decision is set aside, this is the law,” he said at a press conference. He said it was unconstitutional for any state enactment to specify that the word “Allah” could not be used by non-Muslims.