You are such a bitch la woman. I mean sedar la diri kau sikit. Dah la muda. kau kenapa la sundal sangat sial. dah ah cekik darah. bloody fucking bitch. I am super mad at you because you know what, the fact that ive known him since like forever and you? Separuh masa slut. God. Get a grip, takat cam lu nye puki gua tak heran beb. Ish. i dont know lah, no comment je lah this time. Im home in damansara. Eeeks. It drives me nuts to be in that sitch. I do believe that people change and all once theyre married/taken/NA/ yadayada. I didnt change when i was with my ex's. Certain things maybe had changed lah, physically ke or emotionally. But mentally, i waras la lagi kot. Ni minah ni nak kena sepak dengan aku sampai mati ni, I swear if you ever hurt him sampai lubang cacing aku gali nak ludah and sepak muka kau yang cam pantek tu.

Next agenda, was blabbing and blabbing on the net till i salah type serious jadi seripus. someone thinks its 'rotfl' material. But it certainly isnt. ISH ISH ISH. Geram neh. Dah banyak lak keje nak kena buat, and i should start my mock up a.s.a.p because i dont know if i can manage to finish all of the work on time. Banyak sungguh kerjaku. DAMN SON. Sometimes when life gets on the downlow for me, i always tell myself that theres just so many people out there suffering much more stress/pain/agony at the mo'. And here i am ranting my feelings out here in a cyberspace diary called blog. Unbelievable, but it saves paper kan? Save the doggamn trees.

I had a freak dream last night, YOU were in it la kan. Ish tetibe je kau masuk mimpi aku. Agak funny because it all started kinda nice and sweet at first. you were in the room with me and we had a talk about how things were, then you got so mad at me for not telling you something about my past ke apa tah, pastu u marah i, hit me, maki and said u dont ever wanna see me again. Sedih. then you drove ur car off frm me house and left me there on the streets. Got a phonecall from your friend saying you passed away because of a carcrash. I saw you helpless on the bed , eyes shut. Fuck, siapa tk nangis o. Basah ok my pillows. Glad to know you're ok. Sorry for the text message yang all of a sudden. Just had a dream of you. sigh. scary one ok. Please dont bawak kereta laju2. mwahs.

Seterusnya, ini woman sedang sakit perut semacam bukan nak berr ke cherr ke apa but damn my asshole feels like its berdenyuut-ing and my tummy is wriggling like a fuckin ginormous worm ada kat dalam tengah shuffle. Yang sangat tak pandai shuffle sampai sakit tu yang tak tahan ni. Metafora je ek, i makan zentel ok. so no cacingggs, kachings? ;) Woooo dah nak cuti raya ni, keje bersepah. cemana. i pon nak raya gak :D menarik menarik. Looking forward to see colourful baju's people, traditions and the sound of azan ek first day of raya, its weird but tah best je dengar ya'll raya and stuff. Gets me super excited.

There was a blog i post on how much i hate this waste my time that blablabla jerk idiot blablabla, it was for my dad, but i figured. How long can i hold a grudge to the giver of the sperm that made me what i am today aite? I gotta let it go. hes ma dad yo. No matter what, papa i still hate u for what u did to us but pls la be considerate dow, and kau da tua takya jadi kilang siut. Sheesh. mmm suppose to go dinner tonight, mmg kalau tak gi dinner aku sumpah seranai la ian sebab keje aku punya la banyak , mama sibuk nak i balik rumah kata ian nk bawak dinner somewhere fancy. kalao takde ke, tak fancy, aku sepak takraw sebijik2 kepala kat rumah ni. hish. Merimaskan but kalau tak pon, ok la. lepak rumah diam2 buat keje kan? :D

As for the stupid question i popped up two days back to a stupid person, YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT IT. END OF CASE. YILEK. BO LIAO. TAKDE. ok? Hhahah nasib la wei, i dont come that often. You ni, cite nak pop je an, rindu la pe lancau la and all. Gosh , i know you too well to hear ur excuses over and over again. Stop calling me Baby! I tak suka!!!!!! Pergi mati la jauh2. I dont care la, i sanggup la putus kawan dengan you. Dont come and find me or ask my friends about me. I dont exist in your life anymore from now onwards. :) I swear im not mad at you, i just think its enough la. Get your groove some place else, it aint gettin jiggy here.

Movies i wanna watch :

1. the proposal
2. g.i.joe
3. land of the lost
4. orphan
5. up
6. aliens in the attic
7. final destination

Ha ni semua ni sapa nak tengok? calling. i wanna go watch movie laaaaa please. Im just BORED TO DEATH and STRESS. PLEASE AH FAHAM. Whoever thats free,no plans, terasa nak keluaq exercise punkoq, Lets go out pweease :) *blinkblinkblink*

Ok lah nak berjalan dan singgahsana to the bazaar ke putar2 around me house cari bende nak mamam. Hungwyyy :(

sayonara ayyy baybayhh~

They don't know how I feel 'Cause I know this is real .

I don't need me a basketball player
All I need is somebody that's down for me
And he don't have to have money
His love is just like honey
It's so sweet to me

He can have everythin' in this world
But he'll sacrifice it all for me
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
It's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

They can't say that I am crazy
For makin' him my baby
Bought his flowers for me
See I've done been through many changes
But this one I ain't changin'
This one's staying the same

I can have everythin' in this world
But I'll sacrifice it all for him
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
And it's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

I Love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please, I need you
So believe me, I do
'Cause I love you
And every little thing baby, you do
They don't know how I feel
'Cause I know this is real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
And it's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
And it's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

para usted .

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow--
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me--
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:--
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met--
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?--
With silence and tears.

Done by,
Lord Byron

episode 21, babak September 6.

okay now i dont know why but i gettin the monthly itch and cravings. I sent a text which i shouldnt have sent or said anything because by the end of the day i know what the reply will be. Its either : nothing or something i would expect coming my way dah. Alaaaa. Malu sial. Fuck la. Nevermind, aku ada courage to do so kan so pedulik apa la kan? Hahahaha. Cheers Dellany May. Get outta your bloody shell.

Went out with kim last night. Catch up on old stories and yeah, we totally layered the facts and lies chronologically and it was superb. Macam-macam secrets aku tau sial. Hahahaha. Bartender, Tequila please! Sigh, that time was only teh o ice. Ooooh i crave to go clubbing, dancing and drinking the night away. Just for fun, miss partying and havin a healthy heart fling! Not pussy flings k. Itu luar dari kawasan liputan keberahian. ahahahahha.

Umm keje aku banyak je lagi actually but i think i wanna take a break jap. I wanna go genting for a short holiday, getaway. Penang ke. Somewhere la, anybody up for the ride ? Bole la roger i yer. I wanna go terengganu la kan, got nice pulau's and white turtles if you know what i mean ;) eheh. Mmmm, i know its cliche, bt men are all the same. seriously, maybe te one's ive met la. I cant seem to find the charming nerd. I wanna find a nerd. A good boy on the outside but nasty inside. Got such things ah ? Hahaha. I saw this video clip on youtube. Absolutely adored the dude. I dont mind dating someone blur/nerd/badboy like men. But it all depends, i would still prefer brains over beauty(jantan).

I have 3 ke 2 + years to habis and fuck, i cannot sabar. Gonna work, tolong mama with bills, kumpul duit, blablabla. stable job, life then fikir pasal settle down. what if im too old for that? shit. ahhaah. Cyberspace spouses! ahahaha. No no. If its fated that wat, apa la nasib aku kan, terima je la redha je la dengan apa yang ade. Oooh, aku sakit belakang ni cene nak paint ni. Dah la kena tiru sehbeyjek2. Goshhhhhhlings! Ps* I know you miss me kan, just admit it lah. But its ok, i understand lah kan sebab we all live in denial. Especially you. Hahahah. Poyo la u, aku Ciom laju2 sampai lebam pipi kau kang. Pastu kasi cicak ramas sket and kasi poop on it.

Yiesh. Ok lah sayang, i gotta rollout nigglets, work is hollerin ma name. Today aku rasa sexy, i dont know why. I think this feeling will fade soon, the sexy feelin. Hahahha tetibe je, coz i woke up usha-ing myself in the mirror and i totally heard a small voice in my head sayin " rawrr baby, rawr ". HAHAHAHA SCARY! Okay lah, i wanna mandi and siap2, pasni ada eerin's birthday dinner, what to get a 5 year old as a present ? Hello kitty stuff? Plush toys? wargh. Ok then.

muahmuahmuahmuahmmmmuahhhhhhh chenta!

Men, consider this .

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome'. That will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.