para usted .

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow--
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me--
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:--
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met--
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?--
With silence and tears.

Done by,
Lord Byron

episode 21, babak September 6.

okay now i dont know why but i gettin the monthly itch and cravings. I sent a text which i shouldnt have sent or said anything because by the end of the day i know what the reply will be. Its either : nothing or something i would expect coming my way dah. Alaaaa. Malu sial. Fuck la. Nevermind, aku ada courage to do so kan so pedulik apa la kan? Hahahaha. Cheers Dellany May. Get outta your bloody shell.

Went out with kim last night. Catch up on old stories and yeah, we totally layered the facts and lies chronologically and it was superb. Macam-macam secrets aku tau sial. Hahahaha. Bartender, Tequila please! Sigh, that time was only teh o ice. Ooooh i crave to go clubbing, dancing and drinking the night away. Just for fun, miss partying and havin a healthy heart fling! Not pussy flings k. Itu luar dari kawasan liputan keberahian. ahahahahha.

Umm keje aku banyak je lagi actually but i think i wanna take a break jap. I wanna go genting for a short holiday, getaway. Penang ke. Somewhere la, anybody up for the ride ? Bole la roger i yer. I wanna go terengganu la kan, got nice pulau's and white turtles if you know what i mean ;) eheh. Mmmm, i know its cliche, bt men are all the same. seriously, maybe te one's ive met la. I cant seem to find the charming nerd. I wanna find a nerd. A good boy on the outside but nasty inside. Got such things ah ? Hahaha. I saw this video clip on youtube. Absolutely adored the dude. I dont mind dating someone blur/nerd/badboy like men. But it all depends, i would still prefer brains over beauty(jantan).

I have 3 ke 2 + years to habis and fuck, i cannot sabar. Gonna work, tolong mama with bills, kumpul duit, blablabla. stable job, life then fikir pasal settle down. what if im too old for that? shit. ahhaah. Cyberspace spouses! ahahaha. No no. If its fated that wat, apa la nasib aku kan, terima je la redha je la dengan apa yang ade. Oooh, aku sakit belakang ni cene nak paint ni. Dah la kena tiru sehbeyjek2. Goshhhhhhlings! Ps* I know you miss me kan, just admit it lah. But its ok, i understand lah kan sebab we all live in denial. Especially you. Hahahah. Poyo la u, aku Ciom laju2 sampai lebam pipi kau kang. Pastu kasi cicak ramas sket and kasi poop on it.

Yiesh. Ok lah sayang, i gotta rollout nigglets, work is hollerin ma name. Today aku rasa sexy, i dont know why. I think this feeling will fade soon, the sexy feelin. Hahahha tetibe je, coz i woke up usha-ing myself in the mirror and i totally heard a small voice in my head sayin " rawrr baby, rawr ". HAHAHAHA SCARY! Okay lah, i wanna mandi and siap2, pasni ada eerin's birthday dinner, what to get a 5 year old as a present ? Hello kitty stuff? Plush toys? wargh. Ok then.

muahmuahmuahmuahmmmmuahhhhhhh chenta!

Men, consider this .

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome'. That will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

my friends acc got barred from facebook because of being too active. WHAT ? hahahah. kesian. nizam, stay away from your laptop okay, dah mascool pe. takya la kan pop in smua orang nye page. gile rajin , you onlineaholic. hihi. buka time is almost here, but hey hey hey, i tak puasa today. bukan apa, kalau i tak puasa oso no difference kan. If im a muslim, period is stopping me from puasa-ing. Nasib la. But m not muslim, no worries. ummm ni illustrator ni camanae. omg. shit worried abt it lah. tracing je kan with colour. takkan tu pun cannot manage! shits. gotta get get. get get get get~ boom booom boooom~ hahaha. bye, anyone with plans, call me. Unwanted numbers and messages will not be replied to so im sorry, text messages tu, kasi tau la nama kau skali. ko ingat aku ni memory power nak hafal smua orang nye number ke. banyak keje lagi i can do. i only reember numbers of ppl whom i talk/see/ text everyday. Otherwise, dont think i give a rats ass about replying ur text. Sankiuuu. Ok, i haf mcd as my buka puasa juadah. Sedih, i knw. And surprisingly shah alam is dead cold. SO SO SEJUK. Im wearing a sweater to just lepak at the hall. Yikes. Mummy i miss home. I dont wanna study. How? Got iblis around me. Or maybe im the iblis. Procrastinating. Ish ish ish, Someone help to motivate me pleeeaaasseeee~! :( ok lah gettin back to work now. sigh. URgh BOSAN.

xoxo,
ms. procrastinator.

PS* i never wanted to hurt you in any way.. believe me and if i did i'm so sorry. Time will heal the mistakes ive made towards you and vice versa. I know it will. I'll always be there for you no matter what. You'll never be my second best, numero uno forever baby. :) take care always !

things i do at night .

At night
At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
At night I wish we could go to the way things were
At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
At night I realize there's no more us
At night I dream of us together again
At night I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At Night